Boyz To Men ...

For the record, I have not heard even one song from the Musical Band Boyz 2 Men but given the way My thoughts are right now, I had to use their name as My Title for this week. Although, I was thinking of "I'm Not A Boy, Not Yet A Man", I thought it would be a complete rip-off of the britney spears song and that is something that I didn't wanted to do. I just heard that Nelson Mandela just got released from the hospital and that he is ok. That is a relief. Mr.Mandela has been one of the greatest men in history and I think that this week's Eye-Catching News section has to be given to Him! This week's Shout-Out Feature goes to the Sport MMA! I know I have said this many-a-times before and I don't mind saying it again. For a while in between, I wasn't able to go for My MMA Classes but this Friday when I was there, oh trust Me! I felt the Animal in Me rise again! Speaking of which, I had My 1st Boys Night Out on Friday too and trust Me, it was one of those, you-live-for-this-kind-of-moments for Me! :-)

And now ... We Begin ... :-)

I am born on the 30th of July 1984. That makes Me at this moment, 27 1/2 Years old. For some, I may be a Senior who they look up to. For some, I may be still a kid. But if you ask Me, I am a Boy, becoming a Man. We all go through that phases. In fact, we go through many phases in our lives. So I think some of you out there will be able to catch My drift here and have a connect with these words. I know right now I am in a transition phase. A phase where I am analyzing and realizing many a things. I am seeking answers to questions I thought I could never ask. I am going to places that I thought I could had never gone too and I am doing things that I thought I didn't have the balls to do. So yes, if you ask Me, I am happy where I am because now, I am becoming more and more aware of everything. I guess for Me, that is one of the billion steps that I will take to finally become a Man. I am not saying that I am super smart or that I am not childish anymore. I know that there are still many traits in Me which make Me a kid. But you know what? Back in the day, I wasn't aware of all those things. But today I am. :-)

I am not saying that I will not mistakes. Of course I will. I will still make stupid mistakes. I will still hurt people, unintentionally or intentionally. I will still be selfish and put Myself and My feelings first. But now, I am in that Phase where I know that I have to take charge. You know, Be Man enough and take whatever comes My way, instead of crying in My room like a little boy, which I have done in the past.  Today, I am the Managing Director of all our Properties. Today, I am in charge of all the Business Transactions My Family does. Today My Voice is valid in the Board of Directors meetings. That really makes Me feel very proud of Myself and sometimes, these things, also make Me feel like a Man! :-)

Boys don't become Men because they know how to catch the sword. They become men because they learn how to use it in battle. I am coming to understand that it is not easy being a Man because being a Man, taking responsibilities is not like Day Care. You gotto take the Hits as much as you like the Kisses. Trust Me, being a Man is not Child's Play! :-) But I am still here because I know that the Clock is ticking. I know that Time won't wait for Me. Fate is giving Me all this to handle now because it knows I can take it. And to be honest, some where, deep down inside of Me, I want it Myself. I am not saying that I am going to be this great Messiah or even think that I am better than the others who are going through what I am going through because of My self-awareness. No. Not at all. I am just telling you My version of the Story.

Before I conclude, all I can say is that I am on the crossroads of Life. And I am still scared. I don't know which Direction I should go. But I do know this that, that Kid in Me who is so petrified to take the Hits, has a Man with Him too, who is Strong enough to stand tall! Maybe a few years down the line, I will tell you how much of a Man I have become but for now, I am happy being this 'transition guy' because I have something I thought I never did ... My Awareness. The question is, are you aware too?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

A Journey Called Tukkaa Fitt ...

Hello everyone once again. As you know I am a gadget freak and I am writing from my ipad. I got this cool new keyboard for the ipad so the ipad now has become like a laptop as well. So I thought why not give this new gadget a try. Speaking of electronics, I just upgraded My Tata Sky to HD now so watching Dad's Show Dance India Dance on it is pretty cool. As I have mentioned Electronics before I think this week's shout-out feature goes to all the Electronics in the world and to the people who make them! If it wasn't for them I wouldn't had been writing this Blog either! So thank you to all those amazing brains out there who mesmerise us with their ideas and guys, continue doing so! :-) And now the Blog ...

I am just a newcomer and I haven't done that many Movies yet. But whichever Movies I have done have last an amazing impact in My Life. All the Movies have made Me a better person. Have made Me learnt a lot! Have shown Me a new chapter in Life! Tukkaa Fitt is one of those Films. For months now I have been telling you that I am shooting for Tukkaa Fitt but now, I won't because I have finished the Shooting of Tukkaa Fitt and for Me, it has been one of the best experiences of My life! Tukkaa Fitt came to Me in mysterious ways. That story deserves another blog. This Blog is worthy of the things I went through Tukkaa Fitt. It was a very emotional moment for Me when I was shooting the last day of Tukkaa Fitt {TF}. I am usually a very disconnected kind of a person but there was something in Me which felt very sad that it is over. Of course, I will be promoting the Film left, right and centre soon but the feeling of being on the sets is completely different. I must thank all and everyone who was associated with Me in TF.

My first Thanks goes to Premal Goragandhi who was a lovely producer and gave Me all that I wanted and I know that He will do an excellent job showing TF to the world! My director Shawn Arranha is a freakin' genius and I am so blessed to have been under his wing for this film. He is so technically sound and chilled out at the same time that it becomes very easy to understand him. Shawn, love you bro! My co-star Hiten Paintal was always there for Me and we never had any ego issues at all. In fact, we were really like brothers and I know that you will see our chemistry like that on the screen as well. He is so so funny that it is very hard not to laugh at his jokes! Bro, thank you for all the laughs! And My Heroine, the gorgeous Vaishali Desai as been one of the coolest co-stars to work with. I know how patient she has been with Me. Trust Me, I know. She was very understanding and we connected in our thoughts and she went out of her way to be the very best she could had been. Vaishali, it was lovely working with you! You deserve all the happiness in the world! :-)

Please don't take Me wrong. This blog isn't a thank you note. This blog does belong to everyone who was involved in TF. TF is very important for Me because after Haunted, TF will be My 1st Film to release. So yes, My hopes and dreams are attached with it. As actors, we all want to succeed and yes, I wanna succeed too. But before we succeed, we must also be grateful for all that we have. So that is why I am truly grateful to TF for all that it has given to Me. Me telling you that we spent gruelling hours in the sun and sleeping only 5 hours a day to make this Movie complete won't earn Me any brownie points and neither will it make TF a success. In the end, only the Film as a whole will make TF a success. I would love to tell you the story of TF but I can't. All I can say is that it relates to all of us. You know that one moment that changes your life forever. I believe a lot in that and I kinda think that Fate wanted Me to do this Film. I think we all want our Tukkaa to get Fitt! And I hope that when you see TF, you feel the same happiness too! :-) 

The reason I am not the way I am usually in My Blogs because I guess sometimes even guys like Me need to sit back and realise that the Sometimes the destination is not important. The Journey is. I really want TF to succeed because Dreams of many are riding along with it. But I don't know what will happen on that friday. All I can say is that TF was a beautiful journey for Me and it will always be a part of My Life. So to all of you out there, I hope you enjoy Tukkaa Fitt wen it comes out as much as we enjoyed being a part of it! 

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.
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Hi, I Am The Bad Guy ...

These occasions are very rare but I love them! I am right now on the sets of Tukkaa Fitt. We are shooting the Puppy De song and I must say that our Choreographer Arvind is doing a splendid job! Loving every moment being here! As I mentioned earlier, being on a Set is like being in a state of Bliss! I just love working and I wanna work for the rest of My life. Before I get into My Blog, I wanna wish every one a Very Happy Valentine's Day. For those of you who are with someone, may you always be together and those who are single, don't you worry, I know something great is in store for you! Just keep the faith! I have been traveling around so much for these last few days that I hadn't had the time to watch the news and the Puppy De rehearsals have kept Me busy to even sit at home and chill. {which for Me, is a very good thing!} But I have two very special people in My life who I want to dedicate this week's shout-out feature too! Those are My MMA Chief, Somesh Kamra and My Friend/Sister Gunjan. These two people are very important for Me and I love them to death. They are My extended family and I know I can rely on them 24/7. So My friends, thank you so very much for all the love! Love you guys! And now, let's begin …

Imagine a very beautiful sunset, just like a painting. There, you see a Ford Mustang Muscle car parked. Suddenly from the shadows a man comes walking. He is wearing Diesel Jeans, Boots, black t-shirt with a Skull as a design, aviators, leather jacket. You know, the perfect look a guy can carry. He just looks around, sees no one, gets in the car, turns on the ignition and drives towards the sunset. I see Myself as that Guy. There are may reasons for that but the dominating reason is that I know I am going to end being that guy because of the choices that I have to make. There was a beautiful line in 'Matrix Reloaded' when Morpheous said that Everything In Life Begins With A Choice. We all have choices that we have to make. And trust Me, choices aren't easy. I know that first hand because even today, I have to make the toughest of choices. I hardly eat when I am shooting. That is a choice because I wanna look good on screen. I see food left, right and centre but I still hold My ground because I choose too. I again will use The Matrix as a reference here and say that in the end of Matrix Revolutions, when Mr.Smith is beating the shit out of Neo, he asks Neo then why do you still persist? Why don't you give in to the defeat? And all Neo says is, "Because I Choose Too Fight Back!" 

I meet so many people everyday. I send My blogs to so many people and I know that all of them don't like Me. In fact, some of them purely hate Me. They turn bitter the moment they think that I have inflected harm to them and to their feelings. They become rude and start becoming distant. I deal with that shit everyday not because I am suppose, it is because I choose too. I choose greatness and Greatness always requires Sacrifice and sometimes it even demands us to hurt the ones we love the most. I know the consequences of My actions. I know how it feels to be on the receiving end of verbal insults and onslaughts. But I have to do it. I am here to work. To make My name. To strive for excellence. To commit My every breath to My Work. A choice that affects everyone around Me. People say that I am heartless and cold. That I don't care. That I am selfish. Some even say that they wished they never even met Me! You know what? I am ok with that. I am ok with being the bad guy. I don't mind being the villain. I don't mind being the Lone Wolf because I know what I have to do. I know what I have to choose. And trust Me, even if I have to live this life all over again, I would still make the same choices because it is for those choices that I have come this far.

I am not saying that I am better than you or that I am a machine or a monster. All I am saying is that I am ok with whatever you throw at Me. I have been called many things but I am still standing here. When we toss a coin we have to choose a side. We can't choose heads and tails both. So I know that when I choose Greatness over Love, I will achieve Greatness but I am going to be the guy who drives alone towards the Sunset. It is the way it is meant to be. If that makes Me a Bad Guy in your eyes, then so be it but I made a promise to Myself that as long as I am alive, I will live a life of Greatness. This is My life and My own choices have gotten Me so far. I didn't stop before. I won't stop now. This Blog isn't an out lash of My Anger at all. All I wanna say is that if you choose your choices with 100% honesty, then stick to them and don't be afraid of the consequences. It is a written fact that not everyone will agree with your choices. As I said, some may even make you the Bad Guy for it. But stick to your choices come what may because we only have one life to live, live it according to you. The way you want it. Maybe one day you will see a Ford Mustang driving towards the Sunset and maybe that guy would be Me. And maybe, just maybe, if you are lucky you will get to see that I would be smiling because I stood by My Choices. I stood tall. I chose to be the Bad Guy. So the question is that next time if someone says, You Are a Heartless Bastard, will you take it as the end of the world or will you say, "I Don't Mind Being The Bad Guy" … 

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

Meet My Superhero ...

Hey everyone, I know I am a sunday blogger but tomorrow I am going to Coimbatore as our School, The Monarch International School is having it's Founder's Day Celebration and as I am the co-chairman of the school, My presence there is very much required. You can visit the school's website at www.monarchinternationalschool.com and I will also be taking a small trip to ooty before coming back to Mumbai. Went to My buddy, Mugdha Godse's New Film's Music Launch last night. She is a dear friend and I have utmost love and respect for her! So this week's Shout-Out feature goes to her for being one of the nicest friends I have ever had! I wish her all the luck for Gali Gali Chor Hai and also for her future projects. I also have to give a shout-out to My Dress Designer Irfan khatri for making Me look as good as I can be since nowadays I am socializing more than I did before and even tonight I am going to the Ritesh-Jenelia Reception wearing his outfit! So thanks for all the dresses bro! And now, let's begin ... :-)

Since I was a kid, since moments dawned upon Me, I have loved Superheroes. Whether it was Shaktimaan on DD or The Late Christopher Reeves as Superman, I have always loved Superheroes. In fact, I have worshipped them! I always wanted to be a Superhero! Whether it was wearing a cape and trying to fly or putting on a mask and imagining fighting the bad guys, I always knew that there was a Superhero in Me. I am proud to admit it that even today, when I am 27 years old, I am a Die-Hard Superhero Fan! I read all My favorite comic books, i see all the movies and yes, with waited breath, I am waiting to watch Ghost Rider: Spirit Of Vengeance and The Avengers. With My crazy obsession with super heroes, the obvious question would be who are My favorites? There are many out there who I love, admire and even worship but I guess, Ghost Rider, Wolverine, The Hulk and The Punisher top My list. The Punisher being My favorite! Hope you are not thinking that I am going to tell you all about My Heroes and by the end you will think, "Oh! He is so cute! Just like a little baby!" Na, not at all. I don't want all of you, especially the single ladies out there to think I am immature or something. Trust Me, I have been there and it is not a good place to be. :-) No, this blog isn't about My view point on My heroes. It is about Me doing some Superhero Soul Searching. They say, "Our Surroundings Are A Reflection Of What We Are". I agree to that notion and there was always this one question tingling in My gut … Who is truly My Superhero? And so, the journey began. And to know where we are right now, we must first know, where we began ...

No one likes to be bullied or made fun of. But as every fat kid with glasses out there I was a constant victim of the bullies in school. Whether it was intentional or unintentional, whether it was My friends or enemies and also the girls who liked or disliked Me, I was the target of their taunts and jokes. I was the only kid in school who has voted to be Santa Claus twice in a row for the school's christmas function. And I was the only kid in school who was the Rakhi Brother to almost every girl of My age then. Now, I laugh about it but back then, I use to cry quietly in My room everytime something like this happened. And to escape from these scenarios I use to dive in My own private world of comic books where I was the SuperHero and all of them were the bad guys. One day, the insults got the best of Me and I was in My Bathroom for hours, crying like there is no hope for a guy like Me. But then suddenly, I heard a voice. It spoke to Me. It told Me, "Mahaakshay, why do you cry? You don't have too. Don't you see that your superhero is here for your saving! Your prayers have finally been answered. Now you have nothing to worry about it!". I asked him where is he? Tell Me fast, I wanna meet him! And he said "Look There." And there he was! I couldn't believe My eyes when I saw him! So strong, with so much of power, full of energy, ready to fight. I saw Him and I was in tears. Ladies and Gentleman, I met My Superhero. That Superhero was ME! :-)

In a world like ours, where we have lost ourselves in our Duties and Responsibilities and the expectations of our loved ones, we all need some saving. We all need someone else picking up the pieces and doing our bid for us. Trust Me, I know. We all need our Me time and sometimes, we also wanna find our escapism. But to be honest, these are only wishes and as human beings, as long as we are alive, we will be obliged to our duties and responsibilities. It has been many years since I saw Myself in the mirror like that but trust Me, the realization of knowing that I am My Superhero was the best thing that has ever happened to Me! My Dad says a very beautiful thing. He says that God Saves Those, Who Save Themselves! Today, I am a much more responsible person. Today I am ready to take the challenges which come to Me. Today, I am more Disciplined and I know the essence of time in My life. Today I know that no matter how many comic books read, no one is going to come and help Me. The only person who is going to help Me is The Reflection I see in the mirror. :-)

The weight is gone, the glasses have disappeared but from within I am still that guy. I am still the guy who has once weak and timid and afraid. But at the same time who had the courage to face his fears and insecurities. I realized I had the guts to accept that I was afraid and fight it because today, the locations and scenarios must have changed but the circumstances are still the same. Even today I am loved by many and hated by more. Even after a Success in My kitty, I fight for recognition. Even after coming so far, even after fighting all the humiliations and insults, I still have a long way to go. Even after walking to hell and back, I have to do it over and over again. So I guess the Fight is still On and the only person who can help Me fight is Myself. I have come this far, I know I can go a little further. :-) I found My SuperHero and trust Me, He kicks ass whenever needed! I just hope that one day you hear that voice too.That one day you all realize that instead of holding your hands together, you clinch your fists together and say, "Game On! Bring It! I am standing right here and I am ALL that I need!". :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.