The Number 28 ...

As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them. 

John F. Kennedy 

It has been over a year now. This same time last year I started writing My blogs. I never knew I would come this far. I mean every week one blog entry! I think I gotto tap Myself on the shoulder and say, “Well done Mahaakshay!”. But to be honest, My blogs wouldn’t had been ‘Blogs’ if you all didn’t read it. So thank you! Thank you from the bottom of My heart for supporting Me and My views. I hope you all continue doing so for many more years to come. My Blog, on My last birthday was called The Number 27, so I thought of repeating the same custom this year. Hence The Number 28. A lot has happened in this one year! I would love to tell you all the details but I think this time I will just highlight the parts I remember and the ones which have made Me really really happy! The Secret says that the greatest power in the universe is appreciation and gratitude and what better way to wish Myself Happy Birthday than by saying Thank You too all those moments. 

So here we go …

I read a very beautiful tweet a while back. It said, I can sum life up in three simple words. “It Moves On”. So true. I learnt that in this past year. I shot for 2 films. Met so many people. Made wonderful friends. Found I had enemies and also learnt to see life from a fresher perspective. Life has a funny way of teaching us our lessons. If we have the ability to observe everything that happens to us. In these 365 days, I learnt My lessons. And I am glad I did. Before I was disgusted by My Hate. But now, I use My Hate as a motivation to move ahead. Today I have so many friends. It is not because they came to Me, it is because I understood that I had flaws that had to be rectified. That I had to open up and give people chances. I have understood that Patience is not only Man’s Greatest Test, it is also what defines Him! I understood that Choices not Chances shape up your destiny. I let things go which were not in My control because I realized that if they are meant to be Mine, they will eventually be Mine. I accepted that I have to wait for certain things but found the beauty in waiting because all great things are worth the wait. I cried many a times but not tears of sorrow but of joy because I was thankful for what I was blessed with! Where I thought, “This is it!” life told Me it is not the end of the road but just a curve. Where I thought My life was over, I realized, it was only the beginning … 

I know I have just begun living My life. There are many more responsibilities I have to take. Many more dreams that have to come true. Many more journeys that I have to take. But when I look back, all I can do now is smile. My past is filled with the good and the bad but each experience has brought Me so far. So I thank every moment for it has defined Me. Made Me strong. Made Me the Man I am today. I know I am not perfect. I know I still have My flaws. But now, instead of running away from them, I have learnt to accept them. For they are a part of Me. For they will always remind Me that in the end, I am just Human. I have done My share of mistakes but now I have learnt to spread joy too. My soul may be consumed by Ambition but I also know that there are people who need My attention. Who sometimes just want Me to be Me. I don’t know what is in stored for Me in the future but something tells Me it is only going to get better. Not only because it is meant to be, it is also because I believe. That is what Patience does to a man. It not only makes him strong, it also gives him hope. Hope, that changes everything. So today, writing this blog, I write it as a believer. A believer who will always believe. A believer who knows that beyond all damnation lies hope. Hope that gives us Faith, Faith in ourselves. Faith, that can never be broken … 

I have tried to express Myself as much as I could in My blogs and I wish I can keep on doing that for years to come. To tell you a secret I used to write a diary and I have volumes of more than 11 years with Me! But since I started blogging, this blog site has become My diary and now I let 7 billion have access to it. I know it takes time to write these entries but I also know it takes equal amount of time to read them too. So once again, thank you! Thank you all from the bottom of My heart for the love you have given. To be honest I will never be able to thank you all enough. You give Me love. Shower me with compliments and respect and admiration. And even the ones who hate Me, I sense love in your hate because it takes a lot of energy to be disgusted by someones guts and beliefs! So this is Me, on My 28^th Birthday wishing you all a very happy 365 days ahead! God put Me on this earth for a reason and for that very same reason he sill wants Me here. I don’t know what that is but what I do know is that I will keep on doing what I am supposed too. Yes, I will make mistakes. I will be foolish sometimes. And I may hurt others too. But I am here to learn and to grow. And more than that, I am here to understand. I just hope I do. 

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and for Me, the Journey has only just begun …

With All My Might,

Your No.1 Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Game On!

"My mom didn't let me play video games growing up, so now I do. Gaming gives me a chance to just let go, blow somebody up and fight somebody from another dimension. It's all escapism." - Wayne Brady


I knew, that the moment I will dedicate a Blog to video games, IGN will love it! I hope they do because I will surely send them the link to it! And Before I go even a word further, I wanna send My deepest condolences to all the families who lost their loved ones at the recent shooting which happened during the midnight screening of The Dark Knight Rises. I know whatever I say won't change the way they feel but I something is better than nothing, right? May all their souls, rest in peace. And Bollywood lost it's 1st Original Superstar, Mr.Rajesh Khanna. Sir, you will be deeply missed and thank you for all the amazing films you have given to us over the years! May you glitter the heavens with your charm and charisma as well.

And now, We begin ...

To tell every story, we must always go back to the beginning, as to how it all began. This story is no different. Video games have always been a part of My life. Since the time I knew what 2+2 was, I was fascinated by video games. Whether it was Atari or Media Mega Drive. Or if it was Sega or Nintendo during My teen years, I always loved Video Games. I remember My cousins and friends coming over to My place to play Super Mario Bros and Contra. I remember playing Tetris on My 1st Game Boy. Even Tom Cat Alley on My Sega Cd. Beautiful memories that still linger somewhere between My Responsibilities and the Acts of Fate that I face everyday. Memories that remind Me who I truly am and where I am coming from and where I am heading. One of My favorite Actresses of all time, Eva Longoria once said that she could never date a guy who only plays video games. I respect her decision. And maybe the vast majority of women out there agree with her notions. Most women think that a guy who plays Video Games is not a Man but still very much a kid. Well ladies, just like Diamonds are your best friends, Video Games are ours. Trust Me, I know ...

It is actually very hard to explain and put into words as to how important video games and gaming is to Me. They are not something to pass my time with. They are an essence. The common thread that holds everything together. For you, that PS3 may just be scrap metal with some wires attached to it but for Me, it is My friend and this friend of Mine offers Me something far beyond My imagination! It offers Me worlds to explore, places to visit, people to interact with. To be a superhero and save the world in various ways. It gives Me characters to play, houses to build and wars to fight! It's takes Me to places where I can forget who I am and become a different person entirely! For those 60 mins or so, it let's Me escape and make Me forget all the stresses of life! It gives Me a different kind of freedom only a game controller can give. Many of you may not relate to My emotions but some of you may. That video game controller doesn't only let Me escape. It also gives Me a Power. A Power only the deserving few understand ...

I am an Actor and when I am Shooting, I shoot for 12 hours to 16 hours in a day. I work under various weather conditions. Sometimes, it is either too hot or extremely cold and sometimes I have to deal with annoying people on the sets too. People whom you have to work with and who only give you stress. So I make it a point that whenever I come home, I put on My PS3 or XBOX360 and play at least for 60 mins and whenever I do I de-stress completely! It's like I am a new man! My mind is clearer, I am much more relaxed and more focused to take the tasks ahead! Today, technology gives us gaming at our finger tips. Whether it is the PS Vita or the Nintendo 3DS, we can even carry our games wherever we go and we can also get connected via multiplayer with the world! Today, the possibilities are endless! And because of the Multiplayer option I have made so many Friends from all around the world to share My Gaming experiences with! In fact, for Resident Evil:6 I am planning to play it with My online friends so that the experience would be less scarier and more fun! So you see Gaming isn't bad. You just have to see it or rather I should say, play it from a different point of view ...

I can go and on and on as to how amazing the feeling is to play Call of Duty or Medal Of Honor in My hall with Dolby Surround and how 3D Games and the Kinnect make you feel you are more closer to the experience but the bottom line is that I love Video Games! Not only because they are stress busters but also because they are great motivators for Me! Whenever I earn Trophies during in-game modes or when I say Prophet from Crysis:2 kick bad guys asses I get motivated to hit the Gym or go for My Mma Classes and punch a little harder because these Games make Me believe that if they can achieve the impossible, so can I. If nothing is impossible in there, then noting is impossible in Me too! All I have to do is tap those regions in My head which have never been tapped before. And every game I have played has brought Me closer to My Truth. The truth that yes, I can kick ass too. All I have to go is Never Give Up ...

So before I go I just wanna say is that we all have our own escapism. Some do it by drinking. Some do it with Drugs. I urge you to do it through Video Games. Not only are they fun but they are also safe. So this is Me declaring to the world that yes, I am a Gamer and a proud one. And I know that I will be playing Video Games for a very long time to come. The question is, what will you do?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and i declare to all of you ... GAME ON!

With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

When All Else Fails ...

"A Hero Is An Ordinary Individual Who Finds The Strength To Persevere  And Endure In Spite Of Overwhelming Obstacles." - Christopher Reeve


Christopher Reeve. one of the greatest men who ever lived! And the True Superman! Even when He was told there was No Hope for a better future, he fought back and lived! He lived as a Hero. He survived, even when all else failed. And he will always be remembered. Kudos to you sir! So before I begin this Blog, I had to dedicate the first few lines to him! And also, I wanna say Thank You to all of you once again for the amazing response you gave to My last Blog Entry. Thomas Jane himself  Tweeted Me saying that He loved it! It was a dream come true for Me! I mean, I worship the guy! I still have His Punisher Poster on My Wall and He tweeted Me! Dreams do come true! One of Mine just did!  And whoever out there who relates to War like I do, I insist you to read Matt Gallagher's Kaboom: Embracing The Suck In A Savage Little War. I just started reading it and I am already loving every page of it!

And now we begin ...

We all fight. We all some how survive. We go on because we know we can. Some do it because they love to fight, {people like Me}, some do it because they have no choice and some do it just for the heck of it. We have our good days and bad days. Some days we win and somedays we loose. We fall and rise. Many of you out there will relate to this as a part of life. A lifestyle I should rather say. But as anyone out there, who enjoys breathing oxygen, or loves eating food and finds peace in the company of others, the constant fighting, eventually, does take a toll on all of us. One day or the other. It sometimes gets so hard that you have no other choice but to break. And you tell yourself that you can't do it anymore. That you wanna quit. That you want the Madness to stop. That you can't bare anymore Punishment. That enough is enough! But after all the pain and the tears, there is still something that keeps you going. A Power in you that never stops. That tells you to go on. So I ask you, what is that keeps you going? As all who search for answers, I asked Myself that very question too and I found the answer. So this is Me telling you what I do When All Else Fails ...

I love My Family. I love My Friends and I love the life that has been given to Me. And I have tried to find happiness in the smallest of things and most of the time I have found it. But sometimes, just 'living' is not enough. You know you deserve more and you have the talent to embrace it. But life is never easy and the more we go behind the gold, the more it gets tougher. And the more you embark on that journey, the more you realize that feelings and attachments mean so little. They, after a point of time become weaknesses that hold you back. And slowly slowly, as you go ahead you become this unstoppable force which only knows to do one thing. And that is to keep pushing forward. To never stop. Even when the body is broken, the spirit goes on. Even when the mind is corrupted, the desire in the heart never stops. Even When All Else Fails, you keep on pushing. Not because you wanna win but because you just wanna go on. And you realize, that after a point of time you don't wait to reach destinations, you just enjoy the journeys ...

I have been in these situations a billion times in the past and each time I wanted to quit, something in Me always told Me to go on. To never stop. At first I thought I thought it was My Soul. Later I thought it was My Will. Then I thought it was My Hate. But now, I realize that it was just Me, in My Purest form. Deep within Me. My True Self. I am made to fight. To always keep on fighting. Even one day, when I will make all My dreams come true, I will still keep on fighting because that is what I am programmed to do. That is Who I Am. A Fighter. And Fighters Love To Fight! So even when all the chips are down. Even when all hope is lost. Even When All Else Fails, I know I will never stop. As they say, "You can take the soldier out of the War but you can never take the War out of the soldier."

So before I go all I want to say is that I know Life isn't easy. And it will only get tougher. And it will break you and it won't stop until you quit. But we all still fight. And we will always keep on fighting. Not only because we want to win because we know that after a point of time, when all else will fail, the fight is all that we will have left. For there will be no more destinations, only journeys ...

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and When All Else Will Fail, I will still keep on fighting. The question is, What will you do?

With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

I Am My Music ...

After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music.
Aldous Huxley


Music. The one thing which we we all have in common. Of course, our tastes may differ from person to person but the Rhythm and Tune are mostly the same. As said above, After the Silence, it is the Music which expresses our true selves and I am proud to admit, that yes, I am My Music! There are so many Genres of Music out there today! Music has become a part of us now. With technology giving us the power to listen to music wherever we go, music come closer to us than it was 20 years ago. I was in Europe recently and I visited Paris, I took the Metro to see all the lovely places I wanted and the one thing I noticed was almost everyone had their Dr.Dre headphones on and were lost in their own worlds with their Music. Music is not only a solution to kill traffic time anymore. It has become a means of expressing one's true self. Long gone are the days when we were recognized by the friends we had. Today, we are better known by the Playlists we have in our ipods. Being a Music Lover Myself, I know how important it is to know and respect the Music I hear because there have been times when Friends or People have not been able to help Me change My Mood or Outlook towards Life. But My Music, in times like those, has always shown Me the way. In it's own way, with it's sounds and beats and guitars, it has always shown Me, that no matter how tough things may get, Happiness is only One Song away ...


Of course, you must be wondering, that since I am talking about Music, which is My Favorite Genre. Well, it is Rock. No, not the Metal one. But just Rock, the Real Rock. The one which truly expresses it's meaning! I mean, there is something magical in the strings of those Electric Guitars and the great Musicians who play them. Back in the Day, Rock was condemned because of it's Dark and Negative Lyrics and Bad Approach to Life. But now, I have come to Believe that Rock possesses a Truth. A Truth only Pain can show. Disturbed and Nickelback are few of those Rock Bands out there who really emote the True Emotions of Life and yes, I have heard Stupify from Disturbed I think about a Billion Times and counting! Try to hear it yourself if you can, I mean, if you are a Fan of Rock that is. Back in the day, I, Myself couldn't understand what Rock was. But as Life unfolded in front of Me, I got more and more glued to it. At first, it was kinda of an escapism for Me. But as time passed, it slowly became a part of Me. Yes, I love Rock and I always will but No, I can't play the Electric Guitar but yes, I am up for a Challenge any day on Guitar Hero! 


I know this may sound kinda funny but I have created this Rock Band called The Common Five. it consists of Me, My two Bros and My Sis and the 5th Member being everyone in the audience who listens to our music. Al though, it is all in My head, Till today, My Bros and Sis think that it is the most ridiculous thing I have come up with but since Guitar Hero introduced it's Rock Band, I got hitched to the Idea of My Own Family Rock band! So you see, this is what Music does! It makes you something extra-ordinary! It makes you feel you are Untouchable! The Ladies Man or the Guy who is the Heart Throb of Millions! You have no idea how many times I have had that embarrassing moment when My Sister caught Me in the Act of enacting the Vocals of My Favorite Songs! She laughs like there is no tomorrow! And it has mostly happened when I have My ipod hitched to the Bose Dock! Come to think of it, I think I do look funny doing those Moves but that is the point you see. Music just doesn't make you feel better, it sets you free!


As human beings we go through thousands of emotions of everyday and I guarantee you this, that there may not be that many food items or drinks out there for every mood you go through but there is surely a song out there! Before going for My Mma Classes, I pump Myself with Rock Songs. When I am doing My Voice Practice, I search for Soothing Songs and when I am in a Fun Mood, I hear Pop or Romantic Songs and whenever I do listen to the Music, I feel a part of Me come alive. I know that I am a Serious Blogger and I am more into Philosophy but I believe Music is serious for Me too for in times when I lost the way, Music got Me back in track. When I really wanted to feel good, Music was there. When I wanted to remember why I was fighting for, Music was there. So this is Me, dedicating this Blog to all those talented Musicians out there who help people like Me in more ways than one. I urge you all to listen to the Music for you never know, in which Genre you will find your own true self. So before I go, I ask you is this, Are You Your Music?


This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and I am My Music.


With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

For The Greater Good ...

He who would accomplish little must sacrifice little; he who would achieve much must sacrifice much; he who would attain highly must sacrifice greatly.
- James Allen


Today is the 2nd of July. 26 years ago a very beautiful girl was born. And her Mom named her Lindsay. Yes, today is Lindsay Lohan's Birthday and as one of her die-hard fans, this is Me wishing her a Very Happy Birthday and Many Many Happy Returns of the Day! May she get all the happiness in the world and may all her dreams come true! I know there are many who don't like her but I am one of them who adores her because she is talented and I know that one day, she will prove all her haters wrong and she will rise and triumph. :-)


And now, Blog Time ...


As you read the quote I pasted at the top, My Blog has a lot to do with the words the Great James Allen said. Mostly focusing on 'Sacrifice'. This same time, last year, I decided to start writing My weekly blogs and when I started writing them back then, I never knew that this one year journey would bring so much of a change in Me. Yes, Time changes every man but I must say, My Blogs and the response I got from My readers has helped Me become a better person and take a step towards a better future. My birthday is coming up in a month and all I can is that I am proud of the change in Me. The transformation in Me and most importantly, the strength I have gained in these last 365 days. The Strength not only to change but also the strength to let things go and sacrifice the 'right-nows' for 'later-ons'. And letting go of the temporary happiness I achieved by doing the things that I wanted to do for the Greater Good ...


What does the Greater Good mean? There are many ways to explain this but no one meaning explains it. Does the Greater Good mean killing 100 hostages than letting the terrorists kill a million? Does the Greater Good mean that you let one soldier get left behind than risking the lives of the 10 more who will go search for him? Or does it mean to wait for an entire nation to do die until another country invades it and frees the people from the dictators tyranny? As I said, there are many ways you can see this and in a world where there are more 7 billion people, each one of us has their own opinion. For Me, it is not about Politics. It is not about the corrupt who take our money. It is not about the Evil which walks on this planet. It is about a War which all of us have in common. The War within us. The Choices that confuse us. Which sometimes make us go crazy and sometimes, even the paths we have to take. Trust Me, I have been there and I know it is not easy. Although My heart will say one thing, My Mind will say another and 90% of the time, I win and I feel very good about Myself but the thing is as time goes by, I realize that would I did and what I chose wasn't the right thing. It was only a temporary thing. But now I know that no matter how much we want things to happen in the moment, we have to let go of them ... For The greater Good.


There are so many things I want. I know, the list is endless. And the moment I get even one thing from that Want List of Mine, I see something else and put that on My Want List! I know, that the Want List will never end. But this isn't about My Want list from Santa Claus. These are the things that make Me happy on a daily basis. Of course, I would love to share My Wants with you but I have realized that there once every life time there comes a point in our lives when we are given the choice. The choice to choose the 'right-now' or wait for the 'Greater Good'. I mean the right-now is there, right in front of you and it is so good and tempting and you know it is yours but the greater good gives you more. The only catch is you gotto let go of the things you love right now in order to achieve the greater good. Trust Me, it ain't easy but sometimes, you just have to because you know, no matter how hard it is to Sacrifice the right now, that Sacrifice will be worth it. Yes, one day, it will be. And when that happens, you will be glad that you made the right choice. I know I will. 


Life is hard, I think I second that notion with each and everyone of you. We always want that special someone to text us. We all want to go out on a date with that Celeb we have a crush on, or drive that dream car, or learn that language and even get that Shoe we saw while shopping. There are so many things and it ain't easy letting them go when they can be yours. But life is only excited when you know and believe in the uncertainty of it. When you know that even though you don't know what is ahead of you, you have the strength in yourself to let go and wait for The Greater Good. That the Fight will always go on and We will always fight and sometimes life will put us in places where we thought we would never be. But that's the best part, isn't it? The unexpectedness of it! You never what will happen tomorrow. We all are here because of the Choices that we have made and we will continue going towards the path of the choices that we will make. The only question I ask you is this, Are you the 'Right-Now' person or the one who is willing to Sacrifice all the happiness that you have now for the 'Greater Good'?


This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and I am waiting for the Greater Good.


With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.