The Fallen Shall Rise Again ...

Imagine you are in a fight. A Boxing match. Facing none other than the Great Mohammad Ali. The odds are against you. Everyone is betting against you. Ali in his prime versus a chump who just got his name picked up due to a lucky draw. The entire world is waiting for the bell to ring and to see how fast does the Great Ali bring this guy down. The bell rings and before you know it, you get the Right Hook, followed by an Uppercut and then in Seconds ... It's Lights Out! The crowd cheers and the commentators say that this is the fastest knockout in the history of boxing! The referee is doing the 10 count. 1! 2! 3! ... The world knows you won't get up because you can't because they know you don't have what it takes. After all you are just a chump. But then, something happens. Something incredible. The crowd goes quiet. The commentators are speechless and Ali himself can't believe what he is seeing. He doesn't see his opponent on the ground but standing tall on his two feet waving to him that I am still standing! Let's do this one more time. Ladies and Gentlemen, that Man did fall but He rose again! And that Man is in All of US!!! ...

I am not a motivational speaker and neither I am a preacher. In fact, I am the most selfish person you will ever meet! And I know that every week when I write these Blogs, I write something that has already been written or something that I haven't. To be honest, My Blogs reflect who I am. So in a way, all of you get to see the Real Me from time to time. I am not a social animal, so I get to meet only a few new faces from time to time. But whenever I do, eventually after all the hi's and hello's and the flirting and sex talks, I ask the main questions. Questions which I ask Myself everyday. And 99% of these 'new faces' don't wanna answer Me because they think these questions are too heavy-duty. They say, why think so much when you can enjoy the normalities of life. I still remember 3 years ago I met this friend and I asked her these same questions and she told Me that I am a very unhappy person and I am not enjoying life and one day, if I live like this, life will just slither by Me and I will die alone. Even today, people somewhat give Me the same answers. Some say, 'chill', while others say, 'love people because love conquers all'. I hear all those 'opinions' and 'statements' everyday but I can't apply them because no matter how hard I try, that voice inside of Me tells Me otherwise.

I believe there are 2 kinds of people in this world. One who ask the questions and one who don't wanna find the answers. One who make a living and one who choose to live. One who wait for love and one who choose to fight. I guess I am the fighter. Since day one, it has always been about fighting for Me. I love to fight. Maybe that is why I love MMA so much! I face hurdles everyday! And even right now, I am fighting My thoughts. I guess 'War' is like a drug for Me and I need it more than love. Call Me crazy but this is who I am. I know I am not perfect, I know I am not goody-two-shoes but I know that I have the urge to fight and win! I know what pain feels like. I know what Anger and Hate do to a person. I know what humiliation and rejection means. I know how it feels to be alone in the Darkness. I know it all. But I also know that I have the Will. The will to fight and no matter how many times I am knocked down, I know that deep within Me is the fire to get up again because life isn't only about getting up every time you fall. it is about kicking-asses once you do stand up again!

I know that My life is different than yours. But it is somewhat similar too. So what if your best friend will eventually leave you? In the end, we all end up alone, don't we? So what if that one person doesn't forgive you for your actions? We all live with our choices, don't we? So what if you are neglected by your peers because they find someone else who is more popular and more profitable and suitable for their needs? You will find your own way. So what life chooses us to carry it's burden? We make our Shoulders stronger! So what if we fall from time to time? I say we rise again! Imagine life as Mohammad Ali and the Audience as the people who will come and go in your life. Life will hit you, beat you to a pulp and still won't stop, even when you are in the ground. But no matter how hard it gets, if you have the will to stand up and face life head-on all over again, it will be amazed by your Spirit. By Your Courage. And by Your Will! I am not saying that the audiences will love you but I know they will respect you! I know that Ali may even the fight due to the judges decision but Ali will know that this was the only guy who went 15 rounds, pound to pound with Me and in the end, he will come to you and shake hands with you. So you see My readers, life is just not about Accepting that you Fell. It is about having the Will to Rise every time you fall. And Kick-Ass! I know I do it every single day. The question is ... Do you?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty. And this is My Story.

With All My Might,

Your Number one Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Earning My Brownie Points ...

Sorry for the delay. I was suppose to submit My blog yesterday but I didn't and although I know this isn't a court-room drama, I will still layout My defense. Yesterday, early morning, I had gone to the DNA Women's Marathon and by the time I was back, I was so tired that I slept throughout the day. When I woke up, I went to My younger brother's, best friend's, cousin sister's wedding reception and by the time we came back, we had to sleep because from today, the Shooting of Enemmy resumed. I am right now, in the vanity van, waiting for My Shot and writing this Blog. I really hope you understand. Speaking of NGOs. I am now a part of Save The Children India. I went to their School the other day and I was completely in love with the place and the noble cause these few individuals are giving their lives too! For more details, you can go to www.savethechildrenindia.org And speaking of Movies, My Film, Tukkaa Fitt has become a Trending Topic on twitter and for more news on Tukkaa Fitt, just go to twitter and search Tukkaa Fitt by typing this #TukkaaFitt. I would really like to talk more about the NGO I am now a part of and also about Tukkaa Fitt, since it is coming out soon but I know that I will have many more opportunities in the near future to do so. 

And now, we begin … 

Just for the record, the Brownies I am mentioning do not have any getting-high' substances so whoever thought so, I am sorry for the disappointment. {chuckles} We all like sugar. We all love deserts and trust Me, chocolate brownies are one of My favorites. They are one of those few cravings which I wait every week to have. But these brownies are better. These are the brownies I get from the guy upstairs. You know, God. Ya, God himself. Now you will ask Me, how do I get direct access to him? Well,whenever I am in doubt, I call for him and with the powers that he has, he always answers Me. So this is how it all began. This was I think a couple of years ago. I was doing the usual. You know, Training and Dieting and waiting for that Special Moment. But slowly slowly, I was starting to get very impatient because no matter what I did, I wasn't getting what I wanted. So one day, all tired and frustrated, I asked for God to answer to Me and fix My problems. As promised, he showed up and then he told Me, "Mahaakshay, I understand that you are upset. That you think that you are not getting your due while everyone else is. That you feel left out. But My son, you shouldn't feel this way because something great is about to happen with you." I told him that you always say these things to all those you have created. What makes you think I will fall for that? And he said, "Listen My son, I have created everyone equal. Yet some of you excel more than the others. Do you wanna know why? It is because they cash in Their Brownie Points." I asked what are Brownie Points? He said, Humans ask for many things. They have unlimited desires and wants and no matter how much they get, they always want more. So in order to give them what they want, I created the Brownie Points System. And the Brownie System is very simple. All you have to do is ask for what you want and once you have ordered you have to see how much the brownie points are. For example, if you want that New Car, you will have to earn 10,000 Brownie Points. If you want that House you have dreamed of, you will have to earn 20,000 Brownie Points and so and on. And then I asked how do I earn these points? And all he did, was smile … :-)

He smiled and I figured it out. Now, all I had to do was … Give. Trust Me, there is no other way. I mean, I could had made you wait and anticipate what the answer was but no need for all of that because I think all of you also know what the answer is. And that is Giving. Giving is the way. It is the answer, it is the solution and it is the only way to got those Brownie Points. So, I started giving more. Whether it was Blood, sweat or tears. I gave and I kept on giving. And yes, even though it was grueling and it was tough, I never stopped because every night, I would check how many points I earned. The more points I earned, the more I came closer in making my dreams come true. And guess what finally happened when I cashed in on 3 Billion Brownie Points? Well, I got Haunted 3D! And it felt amazing! It felt so good in EARNING what you wanted. And since that day forth, I realized that all that is earned is proven to be righteous! So here I am, still earning My Brownie Points because I still have many Dreams which I want to turn into realities. Whether it is making My Family proud of Me or whether it is working 24/7, I still have many things on My need-to-do-list. So yes, before I go, all I can say is that we all Pray to have everything in the world but what will make those prayers come true? The answer is: Brownie Points. I cash in My Brownie Points from time to time. The question is … do you? :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Mimoh Chakraborty. And this is, My Story.

With All My Might,

Your No.1 Fan.,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Pop! Goes The Bottle ...

How should I start this blog? I mean, should I do a shout-out feature? Or should I dedicate this Blog to someone? To be honest, this week, only one thing is going around in My mind. That sound the bottle makes when you open it. You know, 'Pop'! What I am trying to say is that when you open the bottle, when you hear that sound, there is no going back for that bottle. I mean, you can close the lid but you can't un-pop the bottle you know. That is the state I am in now. I am right now facing My truth. I am right now face to face with My true self. And no matter how good it feels to know the truth, it is scaring the shit out of Me! I have tried to have this conversation with so many people, you know about why we are here, where we are going and all I get as answers are, "Mahaakshay, chill! Why are you so serious? Relax. Enjoy life! Don't be so philosophical." Basically, I never got any answers from anyone. So I started asking this question to Myself. Everyday, I asked these same questions to Myself. I never got any answer. I tried going to quiet places, Holy places, places where sages have been before. Spent more time with children and the elderly. Still, No answer. I thought maybe this is the answer, that there is no answer. That life consists of only questions and the answers only appear to us in the after life when we will be judged. So as time passed by I started forgetting the questions, I started forgetting that I also ever asked them. I was becoming like the people who told Me all those things. And I also started behaving like them. Life was moving on. Time wasn't stopping. And I thought, man, I think I was at fault. I shouldn't be thinking so much. But then suddenly, it happened …

Ya. Somewhere between My responsibilities, My duties, My Faults, My Mistakes and My Strengths and Weaknesses, I heard that sound. And then suddenly, all the other sounds disappeared. No one else was seen. Words meant no meaning and all I could feel … was peace. Even right now, as I am writing this blog, I can feel that truth all around Me. That Truth which reminds Me who I truly am. And no mater how much Love I get, no matter how much Hate I observe, deep down, inside of Me, I know who I am. And this is who I will always be. A while back I wrote a Blog in which I said that we are who we are and I second that notion once again this time because it is true. We can run away from the truth the world throws at us but we can't run away from the truth that is inside us 24/7. Trust Me, I have tried but I always go back to My origins. I used to first feel very scared of it. I used to tell Myself, that I can be better than who I am. But you know what, accepting your truth, accepting who you truly are is the best version of who you can ever be! I guess that is the reason I heard that sound. That sound which made Me realize that I was complete the whole time. Just that I didn't come to terms with it. But not anymore am I running from it …

I am a part of the Indian Film Industry where whatever we do reflects us as human beings. I have been learning that for a very long time, so, in order to get more Fan following and admirers we start to fake ourselves. We show only the good side of ourselves so that the world sees us as these Perfect beings who can never be flawed. But I am not like that and I will never be like that. I am proud to be who I am and the truth is that I am flawed. But there is another truth, and that is I know My flaws and I am working on them. Making them go away one by one. One of My friends told Me that I am showing too much hate in My blogs and also in My tweets. Well, I don't know what to say to that. I am not a hateful person but yes, My true self embraces the Hate. I am a Fighter. Always have been, always will be and when you are fighting for yourself, love won't get you anymore. In a recent interview with Enlighten Magazine, I told them Love can be manipulated for more reasons than one. But Hate is pure and I see that today. On twitter, I have many people who love Me and I have the equal amount of people who hate Me. And since that 'Pop' sound, I kinda like them both. They say, 'The Truth Sets You Free.' Yes, it has indeed set Me free, for now, I know who I am. There are many names you can call Me. Complicated, Loner, Weird, Boring, Selfish and so on. But I like calling Myself Mahaakshay because I know that I am many things and in the same time I am not what people want Me to be.

I don't know what war you are fighting. I don't know what you are going through. I hope someday I do. But until I do, I will pray that you hear that sound too. That you find your Truth too. Trust Me, we all are here for a purpose and we all are unique in our own ways. It doesn't matter what the world calls you. People will always have opinions. Let them talk. Some will do it because they think they are better than you. Some will do it because they care. But trust Me, once that bottle pops, none of those opinions will matter because you will know the one thing that you always wanted to know … the Truth. Trust Me, accepting the Truth is scary. it takes you to a place where you are too afraid to go but before I go I ask you this, do you want to live a life which is based on a lie that you created because you were too afraid or do you want the Truth which will set you free? … The choice is yours …

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

Boyz To Men ...

For the record, I have not heard even one song from the Musical Band Boyz 2 Men but given the way My thoughts are right now, I had to use their name as My Title for this week. Although, I was thinking of "I'm Not A Boy, Not Yet A Man", I thought it would be a complete rip-off of the britney spears song and that is something that I didn't wanted to do. I just heard that Nelson Mandela just got released from the hospital and that he is ok. That is a relief. Mr.Mandela has been one of the greatest men in history and I think that this week's Eye-Catching News section has to be given to Him! This week's Shout-Out Feature goes to the Sport MMA! I know I have said this many-a-times before and I don't mind saying it again. For a while in between, I wasn't able to go for My MMA Classes but this Friday when I was there, oh trust Me! I felt the Animal in Me rise again! Speaking of which, I had My 1st Boys Night Out on Friday too and trust Me, it was one of those, you-live-for-this-kind-of-moments for Me! :-)

And now ... We Begin ... :-)

I am born on the 30th of July 1984. That makes Me at this moment, 27 1/2 Years old. For some, I may be a Senior who they look up to. For some, I may be still a kid. But if you ask Me, I am a Boy, becoming a Man. We all go through that phases. In fact, we go through many phases in our lives. So I think some of you out there will be able to catch My drift here and have a connect with these words. I know right now I am in a transition phase. A phase where I am analyzing and realizing many a things. I am seeking answers to questions I thought I could never ask. I am going to places that I thought I could had never gone too and I am doing things that I thought I didn't have the balls to do. So yes, if you ask Me, I am happy where I am because now, I am becoming more and more aware of everything. I guess for Me, that is one of the billion steps that I will take to finally become a Man. I am not saying that I am super smart or that I am not childish anymore. I know that there are still many traits in Me which make Me a kid. But you know what? Back in the day, I wasn't aware of all those things. But today I am. :-)

I am not saying that I will not mistakes. Of course I will. I will still make stupid mistakes. I will still hurt people, unintentionally or intentionally. I will still be selfish and put Myself and My feelings first. But now, I am in that Phase where I know that I have to take charge. You know, Be Man enough and take whatever comes My way, instead of crying in My room like a little boy, which I have done in the past.  Today, I am the Managing Director of all our Properties. Today, I am in charge of all the Business Transactions My Family does. Today My Voice is valid in the Board of Directors meetings. That really makes Me feel very proud of Myself and sometimes, these things, also make Me feel like a Man! :-)

Boys don't become Men because they know how to catch the sword. They become men because they learn how to use it in battle. I am coming to understand that it is not easy being a Man because being a Man, taking responsibilities is not like Day Care. You gotto take the Hits as much as you like the Kisses. Trust Me, being a Man is not Child's Play! :-) But I am still here because I know that the Clock is ticking. I know that Time won't wait for Me. Fate is giving Me all this to handle now because it knows I can take it. And to be honest, some where, deep down inside of Me, I want it Myself. I am not saying that I am going to be this great Messiah or even think that I am better than the others who are going through what I am going through because of My self-awareness. No. Not at all. I am just telling you My version of the Story.

Before I conclude, all I can say is that I am on the crossroads of Life. And I am still scared. I don't know which Direction I should go. But I do know this that, that Kid in Me who is so petrified to take the Hits, has a Man with Him too, who is Strong enough to stand tall! Maybe a few years down the line, I will tell you how much of a Man I have become but for now, I am happy being this 'transition guy' because I have something I thought I never did ... My Awareness. The question is, are you aware too?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

A Journey Called Tukkaa Fitt ...

Hello everyone once again. As you know I am a gadget freak and I am writing from my ipad. I got this cool new keyboard for the ipad so the ipad now has become like a laptop as well. So I thought why not give this new gadget a try. Speaking of electronics, I just upgraded My Tata Sky to HD now so watching Dad's Show Dance India Dance on it is pretty cool. As I have mentioned Electronics before I think this week's shout-out feature goes to all the Electronics in the world and to the people who make them! If it wasn't for them I wouldn't had been writing this Blog either! So thank you to all those amazing brains out there who mesmerise us with their ideas and guys, continue doing so! :-) And now the Blog ...

I am just a newcomer and I haven't done that many Movies yet. But whichever Movies I have done have last an amazing impact in My Life. All the Movies have made Me a better person. Have made Me learnt a lot! Have shown Me a new chapter in Life! Tukkaa Fitt is one of those Films. For months now I have been telling you that I am shooting for Tukkaa Fitt but now, I won't because I have finished the Shooting of Tukkaa Fitt and for Me, it has been one of the best experiences of My life! Tukkaa Fitt came to Me in mysterious ways. That story deserves another blog. This Blog is worthy of the things I went through Tukkaa Fitt. It was a very emotional moment for Me when I was shooting the last day of Tukkaa Fitt {TF}. I am usually a very disconnected kind of a person but there was something in Me which felt very sad that it is over. Of course, I will be promoting the Film left, right and centre soon but the feeling of being on the sets is completely different. I must thank all and everyone who was associated with Me in TF.

My first Thanks goes to Premal Goragandhi who was a lovely producer and gave Me all that I wanted and I know that He will do an excellent job showing TF to the world! My director Shawn Arranha is a freakin' genius and I am so blessed to have been under his wing for this film. He is so technically sound and chilled out at the same time that it becomes very easy to understand him. Shawn, love you bro! My co-star Hiten Paintal was always there for Me and we never had any ego issues at all. In fact, we were really like brothers and I know that you will see our chemistry like that on the screen as well. He is so so funny that it is very hard not to laugh at his jokes! Bro, thank you for all the laughs! And My Heroine, the gorgeous Vaishali Desai as been one of the coolest co-stars to work with. I know how patient she has been with Me. Trust Me, I know. She was very understanding and we connected in our thoughts and she went out of her way to be the very best she could had been. Vaishali, it was lovely working with you! You deserve all the happiness in the world! :-)

Please don't take Me wrong. This blog isn't a thank you note. This blog does belong to everyone who was involved in TF. TF is very important for Me because after Haunted, TF will be My 1st Film to release. So yes, My hopes and dreams are attached with it. As actors, we all want to succeed and yes, I wanna succeed too. But before we succeed, we must also be grateful for all that we have. So that is why I am truly grateful to TF for all that it has given to Me. Me telling you that we spent gruelling hours in the sun and sleeping only 5 hours a day to make this Movie complete won't earn Me any brownie points and neither will it make TF a success. In the end, only the Film as a whole will make TF a success. I would love to tell you the story of TF but I can't. All I can say is that it relates to all of us. You know that one moment that changes your life forever. I believe a lot in that and I kinda think that Fate wanted Me to do this Film. I think we all want our Tukkaa to get Fitt! And I hope that when you see TF, you feel the same happiness too! :-) 

The reason I am not the way I am usually in My Blogs because I guess sometimes even guys like Me need to sit back and realise that the Sometimes the destination is not important. The Journey is. I really want TF to succeed because Dreams of many are riding along with it. But I don't know what will happen on that friday. All I can say is that TF was a beautiful journey for Me and it will always be a part of My Life. So to all of you out there, I hope you enjoy Tukkaa Fitt wen it comes out as much as we enjoyed being a part of it! 

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.
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Hi, I Am The Bad Guy ...

These occasions are very rare but I love them! I am right now on the sets of Tukkaa Fitt. We are shooting the Puppy De song and I must say that our Choreographer Arvind is doing a splendid job! Loving every moment being here! As I mentioned earlier, being on a Set is like being in a state of Bliss! I just love working and I wanna work for the rest of My life. Before I get into My Blog, I wanna wish every one a Very Happy Valentine's Day. For those of you who are with someone, may you always be together and those who are single, don't you worry, I know something great is in store for you! Just keep the faith! I have been traveling around so much for these last few days that I hadn't had the time to watch the news and the Puppy De rehearsals have kept Me busy to even sit at home and chill. {which for Me, is a very good thing!} But I have two very special people in My life who I want to dedicate this week's shout-out feature too! Those are My MMA Chief, Somesh Kamra and My Friend/Sister Gunjan. These two people are very important for Me and I love them to death. They are My extended family and I know I can rely on them 24/7. So My friends, thank you so very much for all the love! Love you guys! And now, let's begin …

Imagine a very beautiful sunset, just like a painting. There, you see a Ford Mustang Muscle car parked. Suddenly from the shadows a man comes walking. He is wearing Diesel Jeans, Boots, black t-shirt with a Skull as a design, aviators, leather jacket. You know, the perfect look a guy can carry. He just looks around, sees no one, gets in the car, turns on the ignition and drives towards the sunset. I see Myself as that Guy. There are may reasons for that but the dominating reason is that I know I am going to end being that guy because of the choices that I have to make. There was a beautiful line in 'Matrix Reloaded' when Morpheous said that Everything In Life Begins With A Choice. We all have choices that we have to make. And trust Me, choices aren't easy. I know that first hand because even today, I have to make the toughest of choices. I hardly eat when I am shooting. That is a choice because I wanna look good on screen. I see food left, right and centre but I still hold My ground because I choose too. I again will use The Matrix as a reference here and say that in the end of Matrix Revolutions, when Mr.Smith is beating the shit out of Neo, he asks Neo then why do you still persist? Why don't you give in to the defeat? And all Neo says is, "Because I Choose Too Fight Back!" 

I meet so many people everyday. I send My blogs to so many people and I know that all of them don't like Me. In fact, some of them purely hate Me. They turn bitter the moment they think that I have inflected harm to them and to their feelings. They become rude and start becoming distant. I deal with that shit everyday not because I am suppose, it is because I choose too. I choose greatness and Greatness always requires Sacrifice and sometimes it even demands us to hurt the ones we love the most. I know the consequences of My actions. I know how it feels to be on the receiving end of verbal insults and onslaughts. But I have to do it. I am here to work. To make My name. To strive for excellence. To commit My every breath to My Work. A choice that affects everyone around Me. People say that I am heartless and cold. That I don't care. That I am selfish. Some even say that they wished they never even met Me! You know what? I am ok with that. I am ok with being the bad guy. I don't mind being the villain. I don't mind being the Lone Wolf because I know what I have to do. I know what I have to choose. And trust Me, even if I have to live this life all over again, I would still make the same choices because it is for those choices that I have come this far.

I am not saying that I am better than you or that I am a machine or a monster. All I am saying is that I am ok with whatever you throw at Me. I have been called many things but I am still standing here. When we toss a coin we have to choose a side. We can't choose heads and tails both. So I know that when I choose Greatness over Love, I will achieve Greatness but I am going to be the guy who drives alone towards the Sunset. It is the way it is meant to be. If that makes Me a Bad Guy in your eyes, then so be it but I made a promise to Myself that as long as I am alive, I will live a life of Greatness. This is My life and My own choices have gotten Me so far. I didn't stop before. I won't stop now. This Blog isn't an out lash of My Anger at all. All I wanna say is that if you choose your choices with 100% honesty, then stick to them and don't be afraid of the consequences. It is a written fact that not everyone will agree with your choices. As I said, some may even make you the Bad Guy for it. But stick to your choices come what may because we only have one life to live, live it according to you. The way you want it. Maybe one day you will see a Ford Mustang driving towards the Sunset and maybe that guy would be Me. And maybe, just maybe, if you are lucky you will get to see that I would be smiling because I stood by My Choices. I stood tall. I chose to be the Bad Guy. So the question is that next time if someone says, You Are a Heartless Bastard, will you take it as the end of the world or will you say, "I Don't Mind Being The Bad Guy" … 

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

Meet My Superhero ...

Hey everyone, I know I am a sunday blogger but tomorrow I am going to Coimbatore as our School, The Monarch International School is having it's Founder's Day Celebration and as I am the co-chairman of the school, My presence there is very much required. You can visit the school's website at www.monarchinternationalschool.com and I will also be taking a small trip to ooty before coming back to Mumbai. Went to My buddy, Mugdha Godse's New Film's Music Launch last night. She is a dear friend and I have utmost love and respect for her! So this week's Shout-Out feature goes to her for being one of the nicest friends I have ever had! I wish her all the luck for Gali Gali Chor Hai and also for her future projects. I also have to give a shout-out to My Dress Designer Irfan khatri for making Me look as good as I can be since nowadays I am socializing more than I did before and even tonight I am going to the Ritesh-Jenelia Reception wearing his outfit! So thanks for all the dresses bro! And now, let's begin ... :-)

Since I was a kid, since moments dawned upon Me, I have loved Superheroes. Whether it was Shaktimaan on DD or The Late Christopher Reeves as Superman, I have always loved Superheroes. In fact, I have worshipped them! I always wanted to be a Superhero! Whether it was wearing a cape and trying to fly or putting on a mask and imagining fighting the bad guys, I always knew that there was a Superhero in Me. I am proud to admit it that even today, when I am 27 years old, I am a Die-Hard Superhero Fan! I read all My favorite comic books, i see all the movies and yes, with waited breath, I am waiting to watch Ghost Rider: Spirit Of Vengeance and The Avengers. With My crazy obsession with super heroes, the obvious question would be who are My favorites? There are many out there who I love, admire and even worship but I guess, Ghost Rider, Wolverine, The Hulk and The Punisher top My list. The Punisher being My favorite! Hope you are not thinking that I am going to tell you all about My Heroes and by the end you will think, "Oh! He is so cute! Just like a little baby!" Na, not at all. I don't want all of you, especially the single ladies out there to think I am immature or something. Trust Me, I have been there and it is not a good place to be. :-) No, this blog isn't about My view point on My heroes. It is about Me doing some Superhero Soul Searching. They say, "Our Surroundings Are A Reflection Of What We Are". I agree to that notion and there was always this one question tingling in My gut … Who is truly My Superhero? And so, the journey began. And to know where we are right now, we must first know, where we began ...

No one likes to be bullied or made fun of. But as every fat kid with glasses out there I was a constant victim of the bullies in school. Whether it was intentional or unintentional, whether it was My friends or enemies and also the girls who liked or disliked Me, I was the target of their taunts and jokes. I was the only kid in school who has voted to be Santa Claus twice in a row for the school's christmas function. And I was the only kid in school who was the Rakhi Brother to almost every girl of My age then. Now, I laugh about it but back then, I use to cry quietly in My room everytime something like this happened. And to escape from these scenarios I use to dive in My own private world of comic books where I was the SuperHero and all of them were the bad guys. One day, the insults got the best of Me and I was in My Bathroom for hours, crying like there is no hope for a guy like Me. But then suddenly, I heard a voice. It spoke to Me. It told Me, "Mahaakshay, why do you cry? You don't have too. Don't you see that your superhero is here for your saving! Your prayers have finally been answered. Now you have nothing to worry about it!". I asked him where is he? Tell Me fast, I wanna meet him! And he said "Look There." And there he was! I couldn't believe My eyes when I saw him! So strong, with so much of power, full of energy, ready to fight. I saw Him and I was in tears. Ladies and Gentleman, I met My Superhero. That Superhero was ME! :-)

In a world like ours, where we have lost ourselves in our Duties and Responsibilities and the expectations of our loved ones, we all need some saving. We all need someone else picking up the pieces and doing our bid for us. Trust Me, I know. We all need our Me time and sometimes, we also wanna find our escapism. But to be honest, these are only wishes and as human beings, as long as we are alive, we will be obliged to our duties and responsibilities. It has been many years since I saw Myself in the mirror like that but trust Me, the realization of knowing that I am My Superhero was the best thing that has ever happened to Me! My Dad says a very beautiful thing. He says that God Saves Those, Who Save Themselves! Today, I am a much more responsible person. Today I am ready to take the challenges which come to Me. Today, I am more Disciplined and I know the essence of time in My life. Today I know that no matter how many comic books read, no one is going to come and help Me. The only person who is going to help Me is The Reflection I see in the mirror. :-)

The weight is gone, the glasses have disappeared but from within I am still that guy. I am still the guy who has once weak and timid and afraid. But at the same time who had the courage to face his fears and insecurities. I realized I had the guts to accept that I was afraid and fight it because today, the locations and scenarios must have changed but the circumstances are still the same. Even today I am loved by many and hated by more. Even after a Success in My kitty, I fight for recognition. Even after coming so far, even after fighting all the humiliations and insults, I still have a long way to go. Even after walking to hell and back, I have to do it over and over again. So I guess the Fight is still On and the only person who can help Me fight is Myself. I have come this far, I know I can go a little further. :-) I found My SuperHero and trust Me, He kicks ass whenever needed! I just hope that one day you hear that voice too.That one day you all realize that instead of holding your hands together, you clinch your fists together and say, "Game On! Bring It! I am standing right here and I am ALL that I need!". :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

What Will You Do?

I am glad I am on time this week. I am a very disciplined guy and I know what time means to Me. So here it is, My latest Blog entry, on time, after a very long time! :-) But before I begin I wanted to dedicate My this week's Shout-Out Feature to technology because in today's time, technology means everything to us and it has helped us connect to so many new people via the internet and various other means as well. And since I am a gizmo freak Myself, I know how technology means to me. And I also wanna have a Call-Out to My PR Avantika Sinha {from the company soapbox}, My buddy Somesh Kamra {the founder of MMA India} and My co-star from #Enemmy Imraan. You guys somehow are a vital part of My life and although we may not meet eye to eye on every occasion, I respect and love the hell out of you guys! :-)

And now, let's begin ...

A few days ago, on the 26th of January, we, Indians Celebrated Republic Day. One of the most important days in our nation's history. As every proud citizen, I was happy too and wished everyone a very Happy Republic Day and also posted the Indian Flag as My BBM Picture. But that day during Dinner I saw something. Something which made Me very very angry. I saw on the news that a 2 year old baby was beaten over and over! The baby had broken bones and the poor thing had many cardiac arrests because of the rupture in the heart. The baby was also bruised by scratches all over. My mom wanted Me to change the channel as she couldn't see that atrocity but the site of that baby didn't make Me sick to the gut. It just made Me angry. So very angry! That why do these things happen? That why is there such evil out there? That why doesn't someone do something about it! In one of My previous blogs I was talking about the One Earth System. But how will that be possible when there such evil out there? 

A wise man once said that, "Evil prospers when good men do nothing." Sadly, I think that is the case. Yes, we do live in a democratic country and here evil from other nations and evils from within our system can do whatever they want and we don't Punish them because of the 'Human Rights Movement' and the Activists of the same because we want to project to the world that we are a very tolerable country and we are better than the ones who inflict pain on us. Inflict pain to our friends, family and to the ones we love. You must be reading this right now and telling Me, "Hey jerk, why don't you do something about it than just yap about it?!?" Well, you are right on that. But you see, Me, right now writing this blog is Me doing something about it! Even if it is a fraction of a thing, it is something. I am conveying this message, so that someone out there reads it and takes some action about it. 

You may say that there are many other things I can do besides write this blog and feel better and go to sleep in peace thinking that I did My bid. But there are many more things I want to do to all those who do evil. To be honest, I wanna give them exactly what they deserve so that even they know how it feels. But that is just a side of Me who doesn't follow the rules. Who believe that Vigilante Justice is the only true form of Justice and some evils just deserve to be Punished for their sins. But the reality is I can't do those things because My hands are tied since I am a law-abiding citizen. I believe that no one is above the law and that the hands of Justice will Punish the Guilty. But I ask you, what do you do when the law in adequate to do what it is suppose to do because even the law has it's limits. I ask you, what will you do if you were given the freedom to Punish the evil of the earth? If the responsibility was on Me I would had found every scum out there and would had wiped them out from the face of this planet. Sometimes I wish that all the evil in the world had one neck and I had My hands around it! 

Please don't take Me wrong. I am not some crazy sociopath and a lunatic waiting to explode. I am just the common man who wants to live in a better world. No, I am not taking lines from Movies and inspiring you. Yes, I do wanna say that I am taking diction classes and I am practicing lines from the all awesome 'A Wednesday'. And maybe, just maybe, those lines and that baby on the tv triggered something in Me to write this blog. I am not telling you to applaud Me. I am not telling you to comment on My blog and say, "Wah bhai wah!". I am telling you to do something about it. Remember, the will of the many, outweigh the strength of the few. Together, as one we can accomplish so much. We can change the world. We can stop child abuse. We can take the first step. There are many organizations out there who deal with these things and one of them is Save The Children. You can google them anytime and help them save the children of the future. I, Myself am thinking to become a part of that organization. 

We can make all the evil in the world disappear, if we are willing not to be afraid of the consequences. Take all our leaders from the past. They all fought the great wars because they were courageous enough to fight the evils that walked these lands once. Americans have a vow that they will protect their country against all enemies, foreign or domestic. I think that should imply to all of us, around the world. I am not telling you to go buy guns and start shooting the bad guys. But I am telling you to have a thought. A thought that when the time comes, I will fight the evils that walk this earth or at least have the courage to face them when the time comes. Think about your friends, your families, the ones you love. They need you. Not just to love them but also to protect them when evil strikes. 

Daredevil once said, "Justice is blind. It is Kind, fair and noble to all. But do not dare justice. For it will come to you, Right or Wrong." I just hope that one day the world is eradicated from evil. That one day justice finds all those who do evil and gives them exactly what they deserve. That one day, children can live a happy life. That one day we all can live in peace. That one day we all find our salvations. I can't do anything as of now except write this blog and spread the message and hope that one day the laws of our country change and the bad guys are truly Punished for their sins. But the question here is that after reading this blog, what will you do?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

90% Truth ... 10% Lies ...

"Peter, With Great Power Comes Great Responsibility. Never forget that." I wanted to start this week's blog with that Movie Line because I somehow relate to that. Every week I get more and more people waiting to read My blog and it is My duty to give them a good read every Sunday. Yes, I know I am late, again and for that I truly apologize. Well, you know Me, I always have a reason. But I will make it a point to write My next entry on time next time. I am right now under the weather. I have a soar throat and a running nose but since yesterday, I am feeling better today and that is why I think I have the strength to get up from My bed and write this week's blog. Yes, the Awards Function was amazing! Infact, more than I thought it could be! I interacted with some of the biggest names in the industry and I also got the chance to make some wonderful friends! So My Shout-Out Feature this week goes to all My New Friends! Thank you for becoming a part of My Life. :-)

There was a time when I was addicted to My Blackberry and whenever I saw a person {especially girls} carry a BB, I use to make it a point to exchange BB Pins. Well, now, even though I have a BB I am no longer an addict of the BB Pin. Now, I ask everyone for their email addresses so that I can send My Blog Entries every week! As they say, times change and people change along with them. But I guess more than changing I am evolving. Knowing what really matters to Me and each day I become a better person. Well, I hope so. To be honest, writing these Blogs just doesn't give My view point to the world, it some how also gives Me the strength to be Honest about Myself to the world and in a way, even to Myself. So here goes ...

As I just mentioned above, about being Honest. Well, yes, I am becoming honest with Myself and with you guys but am I, really? I mean do I have the courage to be absolutely black and white with the world?To tell them every single thing about Myself? I guess that is a Big NO-NO! I mean, come on, you don't expect Me to tell Me everything now, do you? Like for example what I did last night? Or with whom I was last night? Or am I in love or not? Or you know, what color underwear I am wearing? Some of you must think, "Hell Yeah! We will really like that!" But the truth is that no one can 100% truthful. Even if we try. I know I don't. And there are many reasons to that. Sometimes it is fear. Fear that you may sound weak and small. Sometimes it is insecurity. Insecurity that if I tell her who I truly am, she may not like Me. Or sometimes it is just the fact that you wanna show the other person that you are the most amazing human being on the planet! Some of My readers are also My friends and who know Me very closely and whenever they read My entries they message Me that I am a hypocrite and a Liar. That what I show the world is only a farce. Well, those things are true. But so are the things that I write here.

Don't get Me wrong, I am not here to justify Myself. I have done bad things too. I have cheated. I have lied and I have hurt many people, people who cared for Me. Intentionally or unintentionally. Today, when I think of all the things that I have done, I don't feel bad. Not because I have no emotions. It is because all those things that I am a better person today. My mistakes have made Me come closer to My Self-Truths. That if I lied once and hurt someone, then I shouldn't do it again and that can only happen if I have the courage to be a little more truthful than last time. As they say, 'Honesty is the best policy.' Now, little by little, step by step, I have come this close to My Truths. Yes, I do lie but in comparison to the truth it is only a mere 10% of it.

So yes, whenever you read my blogs again in the future, you will know that what I am writing is only the 90% truth, not the whole truth because write right now I only have 90% of the courage to be honest with you guys. There are still somethings that I fear. There are still somethings that hold Me back. But hey, the 90% truth is better than 50% truth, right? Every week, I try to convey a message to all of you. This week, all I am asking is try to be truthful. To anyone you meet, no matter what relation that person will be having with you, 'cause as they say, 'The truth shall set you free.' :-) And try to be as truthful as you can be. Free will was given us by god for a reason so I can't promise you that everyone who hears your truth will love you and hug you and accept you. They may even despise you or even hate you for it. But in time, I promise you this, they will respect you because out of all the people out there, you were among the few who had the courage to be truthful to them. Even if it was the 90% truth. :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

I Am An Earth Citizen ...

Every week it is the same questions for Me. What will I write? What should I write and how should I write it? When I started writing Blogs, I never knew that it would be such a grueling task. But as Spiderman says, "With Great Power, Comes Great Responsibility." Yes, it is challenging but in the same time, it is also an amazing thing to do. You know, for the world to get a glimpse of your life and how I see the world. I get Love and Hate Mails from people. And I like both of them. The ones who love reading My Blogs always message Me and ask Me when is My next Blog coming and that makes Me feel very nice while the haters insult Me and ban Me from sending My Blogs to them. That is good to because I know I am getting to them. And that is good enough for Me. :-)

I am sorry for the delay in My Blog Entry this week. I have really been caught up. I have My Dance Rehearsals for TUKKAA FITT. We will be Shooting the Songs very soon for the Film and I wanna do My best in them. Secondly, I have started My Diction Classes now as I have to still improve My Hindi and make it better before My Dubbing starts. And thirdly, I am back to My MMA Training now. So I am completely caught up throughout the day. I think even next week, I will have a late entry as I am going for the Zee Cine Awards. :-)

I have always been a huge Fan of Space and the Universe and the Exploration and the Studies of Man's Final Frontier. Since I was a kid, I always thought I would go to NASA and become an Astronomer and discover new planets and even maybe be the guy who finds life out there. Even today, whenever I get time, I watch dvds and read about the Universe to keep Myself updated. I also have a Mini-Telescope at Home and whenever I go to ooty, I make sure to gaze at the stars from time to time. Speaking of which, as I had mentioned in My last blog that I had gone to ooty with My family and Me, My bros, sis and cousin Bali were just sitting and talking about the Current Affairs of the World and how things were different when we were kids and will the world really end this year? And while talking, My Cousin said a very beautiful thing. He said, "I think the world won't end this year but something great would happen and maybe it would be that we would be in contact with Aliens! And the moment that happens, we would know that we are not alone and we would have Space Neighbors and from then on, we all would be just 'Earth Citizens'!" I smiled at him and said that was something very beautiful that he said! Earth Citizen. Doesn't that ring a Good Bell in the Year? No Caste, No Creed, No Religion. Just an Earth Citizen. :-)

Just imagine a world ... imagine a world where we all are the same. There is no difference between you and Me. There are no borders. There are no religions. There are no wars, no fights, no struggles. Just people living in harmony. I know some of you must be thinking that I have gone nuts. But just for one moment, imagine that world! I do and trust Me, all it makes Me do is smile. Smile with pure happiness. Go back into history and see all the great men in the world. All wanted the same thing. That all should be ruled by One and in the end, all shall be equal. Yes, I do agree that their methods may not have been the nicest but I some how do agree that their intentions were the same. One Ruler. One World. One People.

They say that in the midst of a billion thoughts, all it takes is the will of one man. But what if 7 billion people at once think the same thought? That in the end, why do we fight? Why do kill each other for a square acre of land? That why do we say our god is better than the others? Why do we show off our weapons and tell the rest of the world that I am mightier than you? When in the end, we all will bleed the same color? That, we all breathe the same oxygen, have the same food which comes from the same soil. That in the end, we only have one planet. That in the end, all we will have, will be each other ...

To be honest, I don't know what will happen on the 21st of december this year and I also don't know when Aliens will come and visit us. But what I do know is that I am not a Hindu or a Bengali or a Sikh or an Indian. I am an Earth Citizen. I belong to this Earth. and I thank Mother Earth everyday for handling Me and My Weight on Her. And that before I die, I wanna give her back all the love she has given Me. I don't know, maybe writing this Blog can be that 1st Step. That if one man thinks of Unity today, tomorrow two will and so on and on. Before I sign off I just wanna say that I understand that we all have our own problems, our own battles, our enemies and our Wars. But this question I ask you, who do you wanna be? An Individual who lives with the Power of Hating the other person because of their God, land or Country or do you wanna be that someone who can proudly say that I am An Earth Citizen ...

 This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

Just A Wada Pav Would Do ...

Hello bloggers. How was your 1st Week in 2012? Mine was great. I am right now at The Monarch Safari Park. Trust Me, if there is a heaven, then it is this place. You guys should really try to come and visit this place. Of course, that is the business man in Me talking. But seriously, think about it and for more information, you can go to www.mithunhotels.com and see the pics also. It is always fun to write these blogs and especially when you have great music to listen too! This week's Shout-Out Feature goes to My Friend and an excellent DJ, Tom Brandon. Bro, thanks for the Music! :-)

Before I go ahead with the Blog, I have to Review a comment sent to Me by one of My Readers. The reader said that I am very honest in My Blogs and that I am trying to earn sympathy from the readers and I shouldn't do that because people look up to Me and I have to project this 'Super' side of Mine to motivate people. Well, for the record, I think Motivation comes from within. We have it or we don't. And secondly, I am not trying to gain any sympathy because I know that sympathy won't get Me any where. Only My Iron-Will Determination to Succeed will. And since it is called www.mahaakshay.blogspot.com I think I have the freedom to write whatever the hell I want as it is My website. :-) And now Blog Time. I like saying that. 'Blog Time' It is like some kind of an Announcement for a Gladiator in the Arena! :-)

For all you international readers out there, Wada Pav is one of the most tastiest and cheapest Indian Eatables available today. And it has been available since the Dawn of Time and Wada Pav has been called the Poor Man's Burger. But today, I am not gonna tell you how it is made or how it originated. I am just gonna target on the Simplicity of it. Speaking of simplicity, here we go. No one wants to be Simple. No one likes simple. Everyone wants to be extra-ordinary. Everyone wants to be special. Wanted, Loved and Cared. And yes, I am very much one of them. But in the quest of finding those Special Things, I have realized many other things. That sometimes, the greatest things in Life are the Simple things. :-)

As I had mentioned in My last blog, I was gonna go and attend My Friend, Somesh's Wedding. Well, I couldn't go for his wedding but I surely went for His Sangeet. Believe it or not, it is the 2nd Sangeet I have gone to in My entire life! Yes, it is true. And going to His Sangeet was part of one of My Resolutions as well. So I was at His Sangeet and I saw Somesh and Neha extremely happy and as all sangeets, there was a lot Naach-Gaana involved and everyone was Happy. Of course, no one knew that I had a surprise Dance involved. I went to the Dance Floor and did what I had to do. But what came after that was what made Me Smile. I saw Somesh and Neha Hug each other. I saw the Glitter in their Eyes, the love for one another. The Rings that they wore was their symbol of Love and commitment and when I saw them together, I just Smiled. Smiled with all of my Teeth out because seeing them happy made Me happy. Their happiness gave Me happiness. And I said, "Wow! Touchwood to these two." I usually don't click pics of others if I am not in it. {Yes, I have that problem.} But I think I clicked nearly 4-5 pics of those two because I was happy. And that made Me think a lot. Especially when I was coming Home. That God or Fate or Energy, whatever you wanna call it gives us Happiness everyday. Whether it is in something small or in something big, happiness does comes to us. All we have to do is find it, feel it and embrace it and then, all of you would smile like Me too. We fight these Wars over Land, Country and Religion when all we need to do is realize that if we have the capacity to Hate, we also have the Capacity to love. That if we have the capacity to Fight, we also have the Capacity to Enjoy. That if we can Cry, we can also be Happy. :-)

I am not telling you not to be ambitious. Hell! I am very ambitious and it is very good to be ambitious. All I ask is to cherish the Simple Things in Life as well. You know, the things we usually take for granted. Sometimes, a bicycle ride with your best friend will give you more happiness than a ride in that brand New Sports Car you bought. Sometimes, reading an Interesting Novel all by yourself is much more fun than going on tv and starting a Debate. That sometimes, a Wada Pav is more tastier than a Lavish Meal in that 5-Star Hotel. Until next time My readers, I hope you find your happiness. And trust Me, it is sometimes the Simple Things that surprise you more than the extra-ordinary things. I gotto go for My Staff Meeting now. You take care and remember, always have the Faith. :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

Hello 2012 ...

First things First.  This is Me wishing you all a very Happy 2012! May you get all the happiness this year and may all your dreams come true! Wow! It is a New Year already! Time really flies very very fast. As they say, "Time Waits For None." But before I go ahead with 2012, I think I must say Thank You to 2011 with all My heart! 2011 was the greatest year so far for Me! I finally got accepted in the industry. My Movie became a Hit and got tremendous Love and Appreciation from all of you! It was also the year when I started writing My Blogs! Well, I need to thank each and every one who was a part of My Life during 2011! Thank you so very much for being there for Me and I am Sorry to everyone whom I may have hurt, intentionally or unintentionally. 2011 was a Maturing Year for Me and I promise that in 2012 I will be a better person. :-)

Whenever we enter the New Year we do one thing. Oh yes, that is right, RESOLUTIONS! We all prepare ourselves with Full Force and Determination that we are going to stick to our Resolutions and make ourselves much better than the year before. And yes, we all have a great start too. Whether it is Loosing Weight, or turning into a Vegetarian or even Swearing Less, for the first 3-4 days we are on track and we know that we are going to do this. But somehow, we all loose track as the days goes by and in time we start giving excuses to ourselves that 'Life' has caught on with us and we don't have time to do what we promised ourselves to do. And thus, all our Resolutions go down the sink. The reason I am saying this is because I have been there plenty of times and I know the feeling. But I know, I just know that in 2012, I am going to stick to My Resolutions. The question is, will you? :-)

You guys must be thinking, 'Ya,ya! Blabber all you want. Your actions will prove your focus.' I am completely on with you guys on this. That is why I am going to give you a Sneak Peek on My Resolutions as well. The FIRST will surely be that I have Promised Myself, that I am going to do things Out Of My Norm. Ya. I am going to go out of My Comfort Zone and venture into Places where I never dared to go. The SECOND will be that I am going to start to Socialize. As you must have known that I am not that much of an Out Goer and like to be Home. But this year, I am going to make sure that I change all of that. THIRD, I am going to talk more and be more communicative on the Phone. I am more of a SMS person but from now on, even if it is for 5mins, I will pick up the Phone and Call and Talk. The FOURTH would be that I am gong to cut down on My Meat Intake. I know for a MMA Athlete like Me, Protein is very important and Chicken and Eggs are the best sources for that. But I just read that being a Vegetarian is far more better for Health and also for the Environment. The FIFTH and the most important thing would be that I am going to give more Importance to My Priorities than I gave them Last Year. Priorities will always be Priorities and they came first, always! :-)

I know. I know. Even after reading the above you may think, things are easier said than done. Again, I agree with you on that. It is very difficult to change who we are. But you see, I am not changing myself, I am just Evolving Myself. I am trying to become a Better Person and I know, that, that power only I have. So what better way to become that guy then on the 1st Day of The Year! And yes, I am not just gonna dive in all of the above all at once with full force. I have decided that I am going to do everything step by step. As they say, 'Slow And Steady Wins The Race.' As long as I know that I am giving My 100% to My efforts, I know I am on the right track. Life is filled with Surprises and that is what makes life so interesting and I also know that whatever we go through is a Plan of Fate somehow. You never know, with these sudden changes in Me and My Life, I may bump into a Producer in a Party or maybe someone will Read My Article about being a Vegetarian or maybe I may even become a Youtube Sensation all around the world because Someone Recorded Me giving a Small Dance Performance at a Party! :-)

To be honest, I don't know what is in stored for Me for this Year but I do know that My Actions will Reap Results. I do hope that All Of You stick to Your Resolutions as well. You never know how Life will surprise you. I once again wish all of you a very Happy 2012! I gotto go now. My Buddy, Somesh Kamra is getting married to the Woman of His Dreams, Neha this week. I gotto go and get ready for that. until next time, Keep On The Giving and Have Faith. :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.