Game On!

"My mom didn't let me play video games growing up, so now I do. Gaming gives me a chance to just let go, blow somebody up and fight somebody from another dimension. It's all escapism." - Wayne Brady


I knew, that the moment I will dedicate a Blog to video games, IGN will love it! I hope they do because I will surely send them the link to it! And Before I go even a word further, I wanna send My deepest condolences to all the families who lost their loved ones at the recent shooting which happened during the midnight screening of The Dark Knight Rises. I know whatever I say won't change the way they feel but I something is better than nothing, right? May all their souls, rest in peace. And Bollywood lost it's 1st Original Superstar, Mr.Rajesh Khanna. Sir, you will be deeply missed and thank you for all the amazing films you have given to us over the years! May you glitter the heavens with your charm and charisma as well.

And now, We begin ...

To tell every story, we must always go back to the beginning, as to how it all began. This story is no different. Video games have always been a part of My life. Since the time I knew what 2+2 was, I was fascinated by video games. Whether it was Atari or Media Mega Drive. Or if it was Sega or Nintendo during My teen years, I always loved Video Games. I remember My cousins and friends coming over to My place to play Super Mario Bros and Contra. I remember playing Tetris on My 1st Game Boy. Even Tom Cat Alley on My Sega Cd. Beautiful memories that still linger somewhere between My Responsibilities and the Acts of Fate that I face everyday. Memories that remind Me who I truly am and where I am coming from and where I am heading. One of My favorite Actresses of all time, Eva Longoria once said that she could never date a guy who only plays video games. I respect her decision. And maybe the vast majority of women out there agree with her notions. Most women think that a guy who plays Video Games is not a Man but still very much a kid. Well ladies, just like Diamonds are your best friends, Video Games are ours. Trust Me, I know ...

It is actually very hard to explain and put into words as to how important video games and gaming is to Me. They are not something to pass my time with. They are an essence. The common thread that holds everything together. For you, that PS3 may just be scrap metal with some wires attached to it but for Me, it is My friend and this friend of Mine offers Me something far beyond My imagination! It offers Me worlds to explore, places to visit, people to interact with. To be a superhero and save the world in various ways. It gives Me characters to play, houses to build and wars to fight! It's takes Me to places where I can forget who I am and become a different person entirely! For those 60 mins or so, it let's Me escape and make Me forget all the stresses of life! It gives Me a different kind of freedom only a game controller can give. Many of you may not relate to My emotions but some of you may. That video game controller doesn't only let Me escape. It also gives Me a Power. A Power only the deserving few understand ...

I am an Actor and when I am Shooting, I shoot for 12 hours to 16 hours in a day. I work under various weather conditions. Sometimes, it is either too hot or extremely cold and sometimes I have to deal with annoying people on the sets too. People whom you have to work with and who only give you stress. So I make it a point that whenever I come home, I put on My PS3 or XBOX360 and play at least for 60 mins and whenever I do I de-stress completely! It's like I am a new man! My mind is clearer, I am much more relaxed and more focused to take the tasks ahead! Today, technology gives us gaming at our finger tips. Whether it is the PS Vita or the Nintendo 3DS, we can even carry our games wherever we go and we can also get connected via multiplayer with the world! Today, the possibilities are endless! And because of the Multiplayer option I have made so many Friends from all around the world to share My Gaming experiences with! In fact, for Resident Evil:6 I am planning to play it with My online friends so that the experience would be less scarier and more fun! So you see Gaming isn't bad. You just have to see it or rather I should say, play it from a different point of view ...

I can go and on and on as to how amazing the feeling is to play Call of Duty or Medal Of Honor in My hall with Dolby Surround and how 3D Games and the Kinnect make you feel you are more closer to the experience but the bottom line is that I love Video Games! Not only because they are stress busters but also because they are great motivators for Me! Whenever I earn Trophies during in-game modes or when I say Prophet from Crysis:2 kick bad guys asses I get motivated to hit the Gym or go for My Mma Classes and punch a little harder because these Games make Me believe that if they can achieve the impossible, so can I. If nothing is impossible in there, then noting is impossible in Me too! All I have to do is tap those regions in My head which have never been tapped before. And every game I have played has brought Me closer to My Truth. The truth that yes, I can kick ass too. All I have to go is Never Give Up ...

So before I go I just wanna say is that we all have our own escapism. Some do it by drinking. Some do it with Drugs. I urge you to do it through Video Games. Not only are they fun but they are also safe. So this is Me declaring to the world that yes, I am a Gamer and a proud one. And I know that I will be playing Video Games for a very long time to come. The question is, what will you do?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and i declare to all of you ... GAME ON!

With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

When All Else Fails ...

"A Hero Is An Ordinary Individual Who Finds The Strength To Persevere  And Endure In Spite Of Overwhelming Obstacles." - Christopher Reeve


Christopher Reeve. one of the greatest men who ever lived! And the True Superman! Even when He was told there was No Hope for a better future, he fought back and lived! He lived as a Hero. He survived, even when all else failed. And he will always be remembered. Kudos to you sir! So before I begin this Blog, I had to dedicate the first few lines to him! And also, I wanna say Thank You to all of you once again for the amazing response you gave to My last Blog Entry. Thomas Jane himself  Tweeted Me saying that He loved it! It was a dream come true for Me! I mean, I worship the guy! I still have His Punisher Poster on My Wall and He tweeted Me! Dreams do come true! One of Mine just did!  And whoever out there who relates to War like I do, I insist you to read Matt Gallagher's Kaboom: Embracing The Suck In A Savage Little War. I just started reading it and I am already loving every page of it!

And now we begin ...

We all fight. We all some how survive. We go on because we know we can. Some do it because they love to fight, {people like Me}, some do it because they have no choice and some do it just for the heck of it. We have our good days and bad days. Some days we win and somedays we loose. We fall and rise. Many of you out there will relate to this as a part of life. A lifestyle I should rather say. But as anyone out there, who enjoys breathing oxygen, or loves eating food and finds peace in the company of others, the constant fighting, eventually, does take a toll on all of us. One day or the other. It sometimes gets so hard that you have no other choice but to break. And you tell yourself that you can't do it anymore. That you wanna quit. That you want the Madness to stop. That you can't bare anymore Punishment. That enough is enough! But after all the pain and the tears, there is still something that keeps you going. A Power in you that never stops. That tells you to go on. So I ask you, what is that keeps you going? As all who search for answers, I asked Myself that very question too and I found the answer. So this is Me telling you what I do When All Else Fails ...

I love My Family. I love My Friends and I love the life that has been given to Me. And I have tried to find happiness in the smallest of things and most of the time I have found it. But sometimes, just 'living' is not enough. You know you deserve more and you have the talent to embrace it. But life is never easy and the more we go behind the gold, the more it gets tougher. And the more you embark on that journey, the more you realize that feelings and attachments mean so little. They, after a point of time become weaknesses that hold you back. And slowly slowly, as you go ahead you become this unstoppable force which only knows to do one thing. And that is to keep pushing forward. To never stop. Even when the body is broken, the spirit goes on. Even when the mind is corrupted, the desire in the heart never stops. Even When All Else Fails, you keep on pushing. Not because you wanna win but because you just wanna go on. And you realize, that after a point of time you don't wait to reach destinations, you just enjoy the journeys ...

I have been in these situations a billion times in the past and each time I wanted to quit, something in Me always told Me to go on. To never stop. At first I thought I thought it was My Soul. Later I thought it was My Will. Then I thought it was My Hate. But now, I realize that it was just Me, in My Purest form. Deep within Me. My True Self. I am made to fight. To always keep on fighting. Even one day, when I will make all My dreams come true, I will still keep on fighting because that is what I am programmed to do. That is Who I Am. A Fighter. And Fighters Love To Fight! So even when all the chips are down. Even when all hope is lost. Even When All Else Fails, I know I will never stop. As they say, "You can take the soldier out of the War but you can never take the War out of the soldier."

So before I go all I want to say is that I know Life isn't easy. And it will only get tougher. And it will break you and it won't stop until you quit. But we all still fight. And we will always keep on fighting. Not only because we want to win because we know that after a point of time, when all else will fail, the fight is all that we will have left. For there will be no more destinations, only journeys ...

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and When All Else Will Fail, I will still keep on fighting. The question is, What will you do?

With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

I Am My Music ...

After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music.
Aldous Huxley


Music. The one thing which we we all have in common. Of course, our tastes may differ from person to person but the Rhythm and Tune are mostly the same. As said above, After the Silence, it is the Music which expresses our true selves and I am proud to admit, that yes, I am My Music! There are so many Genres of Music out there today! Music has become a part of us now. With technology giving us the power to listen to music wherever we go, music come closer to us than it was 20 years ago. I was in Europe recently and I visited Paris, I took the Metro to see all the lovely places I wanted and the one thing I noticed was almost everyone had their Dr.Dre headphones on and were lost in their own worlds with their Music. Music is not only a solution to kill traffic time anymore. It has become a means of expressing one's true self. Long gone are the days when we were recognized by the friends we had. Today, we are better known by the Playlists we have in our ipods. Being a Music Lover Myself, I know how important it is to know and respect the Music I hear because there have been times when Friends or People have not been able to help Me change My Mood or Outlook towards Life. But My Music, in times like those, has always shown Me the way. In it's own way, with it's sounds and beats and guitars, it has always shown Me, that no matter how tough things may get, Happiness is only One Song away ...


Of course, you must be wondering, that since I am talking about Music, which is My Favorite Genre. Well, it is Rock. No, not the Metal one. But just Rock, the Real Rock. The one which truly expresses it's meaning! I mean, there is something magical in the strings of those Electric Guitars and the great Musicians who play them. Back in the Day, Rock was condemned because of it's Dark and Negative Lyrics and Bad Approach to Life. But now, I have come to Believe that Rock possesses a Truth. A Truth only Pain can show. Disturbed and Nickelback are few of those Rock Bands out there who really emote the True Emotions of Life and yes, I have heard Stupify from Disturbed I think about a Billion Times and counting! Try to hear it yourself if you can, I mean, if you are a Fan of Rock that is. Back in the day, I, Myself couldn't understand what Rock was. But as Life unfolded in front of Me, I got more and more glued to it. At first, it was kinda of an escapism for Me. But as time passed, it slowly became a part of Me. Yes, I love Rock and I always will but No, I can't play the Electric Guitar but yes, I am up for a Challenge any day on Guitar Hero! 


I know this may sound kinda funny but I have created this Rock Band called The Common Five. it consists of Me, My two Bros and My Sis and the 5th Member being everyone in the audience who listens to our music. Al though, it is all in My head, Till today, My Bros and Sis think that it is the most ridiculous thing I have come up with but since Guitar Hero introduced it's Rock Band, I got hitched to the Idea of My Own Family Rock band! So you see, this is what Music does! It makes you something extra-ordinary! It makes you feel you are Untouchable! The Ladies Man or the Guy who is the Heart Throb of Millions! You have no idea how many times I have had that embarrassing moment when My Sister caught Me in the Act of enacting the Vocals of My Favorite Songs! She laughs like there is no tomorrow! And it has mostly happened when I have My ipod hitched to the Bose Dock! Come to think of it, I think I do look funny doing those Moves but that is the point you see. Music just doesn't make you feel better, it sets you free!


As human beings we go through thousands of emotions of everyday and I guarantee you this, that there may not be that many food items or drinks out there for every mood you go through but there is surely a song out there! Before going for My Mma Classes, I pump Myself with Rock Songs. When I am doing My Voice Practice, I search for Soothing Songs and when I am in a Fun Mood, I hear Pop or Romantic Songs and whenever I do listen to the Music, I feel a part of Me come alive. I know that I am a Serious Blogger and I am more into Philosophy but I believe Music is serious for Me too for in times when I lost the way, Music got Me back in track. When I really wanted to feel good, Music was there. When I wanted to remember why I was fighting for, Music was there. So this is Me, dedicating this Blog to all those talented Musicians out there who help people like Me in more ways than one. I urge you all to listen to the Music for you never know, in which Genre you will find your own true self. So before I go, I ask you is this, Are You Your Music?


This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and I am My Music.


With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

For The Greater Good ...

He who would accomplish little must sacrifice little; he who would achieve much must sacrifice much; he who would attain highly must sacrifice greatly.
- James Allen


Today is the 2nd of July. 26 years ago a very beautiful girl was born. And her Mom named her Lindsay. Yes, today is Lindsay Lohan's Birthday and as one of her die-hard fans, this is Me wishing her a Very Happy Birthday and Many Many Happy Returns of the Day! May she get all the happiness in the world and may all her dreams come true! I know there are many who don't like her but I am one of them who adores her because she is talented and I know that one day, she will prove all her haters wrong and she will rise and triumph. :-)


And now, Blog Time ...


As you read the quote I pasted at the top, My Blog has a lot to do with the words the Great James Allen said. Mostly focusing on 'Sacrifice'. This same time, last year, I decided to start writing My weekly blogs and when I started writing them back then, I never knew that this one year journey would bring so much of a change in Me. Yes, Time changes every man but I must say, My Blogs and the response I got from My readers has helped Me become a better person and take a step towards a better future. My birthday is coming up in a month and all I can is that I am proud of the change in Me. The transformation in Me and most importantly, the strength I have gained in these last 365 days. The Strength not only to change but also the strength to let things go and sacrifice the 'right-nows' for 'later-ons'. And letting go of the temporary happiness I achieved by doing the things that I wanted to do for the Greater Good ...


What does the Greater Good mean? There are many ways to explain this but no one meaning explains it. Does the Greater Good mean killing 100 hostages than letting the terrorists kill a million? Does the Greater Good mean that you let one soldier get left behind than risking the lives of the 10 more who will go search for him? Or does it mean to wait for an entire nation to do die until another country invades it and frees the people from the dictators tyranny? As I said, there are many ways you can see this and in a world where there are more 7 billion people, each one of us has their own opinion. For Me, it is not about Politics. It is not about the corrupt who take our money. It is not about the Evil which walks on this planet. It is about a War which all of us have in common. The War within us. The Choices that confuse us. Which sometimes make us go crazy and sometimes, even the paths we have to take. Trust Me, I have been there and I know it is not easy. Although My heart will say one thing, My Mind will say another and 90% of the time, I win and I feel very good about Myself but the thing is as time goes by, I realize that would I did and what I chose wasn't the right thing. It was only a temporary thing. But now I know that no matter how much we want things to happen in the moment, we have to let go of them ... For The greater Good.


There are so many things I want. I know, the list is endless. And the moment I get even one thing from that Want List of Mine, I see something else and put that on My Want List! I know, that the Want List will never end. But this isn't about My Want list from Santa Claus. These are the things that make Me happy on a daily basis. Of course, I would love to share My Wants with you but I have realized that there once every life time there comes a point in our lives when we are given the choice. The choice to choose the 'right-now' or wait for the 'Greater Good'. I mean the right-now is there, right in front of you and it is so good and tempting and you know it is yours but the greater good gives you more. The only catch is you gotto let go of the things you love right now in order to achieve the greater good. Trust Me, it ain't easy but sometimes, you just have to because you know, no matter how hard it is to Sacrifice the right now, that Sacrifice will be worth it. Yes, one day, it will be. And when that happens, you will be glad that you made the right choice. I know I will. 


Life is hard, I think I second that notion with each and everyone of you. We always want that special someone to text us. We all want to go out on a date with that Celeb we have a crush on, or drive that dream car, or learn that language and even get that Shoe we saw while shopping. There are so many things and it ain't easy letting them go when they can be yours. But life is only excited when you know and believe in the uncertainty of it. When you know that even though you don't know what is ahead of you, you have the strength in yourself to let go and wait for The Greater Good. That the Fight will always go on and We will always fight and sometimes life will put us in places where we thought we would never be. But that's the best part, isn't it? The unexpectedness of it! You never what will happen tomorrow. We all are here because of the Choices that we have made and we will continue going towards the path of the choices that we will make. The only question I ask you is this, Are you the 'Right-Now' person or the one who is willing to Sacrifice all the happiness that you have now for the 'Greater Good'?


This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and I am waiting for the Greater Good.


With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Even Waiting Is Training ...

Hello once again My readers. Hope you had a great weekend. My weekend ends with a good note because I get to write My blog by the end of it. Slowly slowly, the readers are increasing and that makes me very happy! So thank you all for your support and love. Oh by the way, which one of you guys has your own wonderland? You know a tiny place in your head, where you think all the bizarre and crazy things? A place where anything is possible? A place where you either saving the world and creating new ones. You know, Wonderland. I bet all of you at some point of time have had your wonderlands. You don't have to tell Me what they are but I sure as hell will tell you what was Mine. :-)

It was kinda inspired from The Matrix in which a character just like Morpheous would give Me a choice between the Blue Pill and the Red Pill. The Blue Pill would give Me All that I ever dreamed off! The Money, The Fame, The Power, The Love, everything! But The Red Pill he said was something more. He said if I would take the Red Pill I would enter a world where nothing is certain and I would be on My own and I would have to Face every Challenge head-on and survive each day. Of course, any one would choose the Blue Pill and I was about to do the same but then something inside of Me told Me not too. Yes, I chose the Red Pill because deep down inside, I just knew that I was always meant to take the Red Pill. And so I did what I was always Destined to do. I mean, can you imagine, even in My Wonderland I chose the Tough Way Out. And I will tell you why ...

One of the greatest fighters in Mma history George St. Pierre once tweeted that he met this great trainer from Japan and GSP was telling him that he is waiting to get back into the Ring and start fighting again. He said the wait is killing him because he has to give his hand time to recover from the injury. And all that Japanese Sansei said was, "GSP, Even Waiting Is Training." Amazing words, aren't they? I mean, if you think of it, they have so much of depth and meaning! I related to those Words instantly because even in Wonderland, when I took the Red Pill, I knew I had to wait for My Time to come. And till today, even in Reality I live by that code. I keep on telling Myself everyday, Even Waiting is Training.

Morpheous may not come to Me in My visions but I feel the Universe always giving Me Signs and Signals. Telling Me that I have to wait. I have to Wait and Train. The Universe tells Me, Mahaakshay, I will test you. I will make you go through all the Punishment that is necessary for you to become strong. I will put you in situations where you will only be misunderstood and hated. You will be alone in your fight. You will be called names. You will never be loved. You will have to fight this war of yours, by yourself. I will never stop testing you. I will give everyone what they want and will make them shine in their glory, even if they are not worth it. But you will have to wait. No matter how many hours you Workout or dedicate yourself to the cause or give your all that you have, I will always make the people say you are still not good enough. I will show you what greed does to people. I will make the world hate you and they will party and fall in love but You will have to wait. I will show you what Pain feels like. I will show you the true color of this world where governments fall. Children who die because of others silly mistakes and people killing each other and call it a movement of peace. I will make you go through hell but You will have to Wait ... Until your time will come ...

Yes. Your time will come because the Universe is Just, Fair and Noble to all. But the reason your time will come later is because you will Train and be Patient and become the Man you were always meant to be. You will become something more than you ever imagined. And when Your Time will come, you will cherish it. You will live it and you will be Worth Every Moment of it! You will earn your right to shine because you know what the Darkness felt. You will learn to Respect because you will know what humiliation means. You will be victorious because you will know what it feels like to fail. You will be loved because you know how it feels to be Hated. You will be given all the Glory because you will know what is the price of Sacrifice. And then, when you are where you want to be, You Will Know That Even Waiting Is Training ...

So this is Me, with My Beliefs and Codes and Way Of Life. You have the right to see this blog the way you want too but I know that I have job to do. And that is to Train and Wait. Train and Wait. Train and Wait and Believe that one day My Time Will Come ...

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty. And I chose the Red Pill. Which Pill will You take?

With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

The Greatest Man I Know ...

We all have our Heroes. We all have our Idols and Role Models because we all look up to some one. Some who Inspire us. Some who Motivate us. Some who show us the way. Who make us the Men and Women we want to be. Sometimes, there are many we look upto. But sometimes, lucky chaps like Me get all those amazing Qualities in only One Person. And that Man is My Father. Yes, My Father, the Greatest Man I know. The Greatest Man I will ever know. I am truly blessed to be the Eldest Son of Mr.Mithun Chakraborty and yesterday was His Birthday and today is Father's Day! I don't think there is any better day than this for Me dedicate this Blog to Him! And before I go any further, I want to wish All those Amazing Fathers out there a Very Happy Father's Day! You are truly a Blessing to all your Children. Some of us know that now and some of us one day will. And for the record My Dad is only 27 ++ Years old. :-)

On the 30th of July this year I will turn 28. No, I am not reminding you guys about it. The reason I am mentioning that is because it took Me a while to understand My Dad. I think it took more time than it was required. While growing up, back in the day, when I was 8 years old, Dad used to be busy with 4 shifts of Shooting everyday and I hardly got to see Him. But trust Me, I was petrified of Him! I mean, His presence used to rattle Me in Fear even though He  never used to Shout or Yell. He used to be so tired that He used to come Home and Sleep. But even then, I always knew that He was My Father and the Boss of the House. His word was the final judgement and not even God could change it. For many years, even after that, I had the same Fear of My Father. Even during My teenage Years, I never went up to him and confiding in Him about My 'growing-up' problems or even My feelings towards Girls. But Dad starting realizing that and He started opening up to Me. He started becoming more of a Friend to Me and joking around with Me. He started watching the Shows I liked. He started becoming the Buddy I always wanted. But even then, the Fear in Me never went. Not until I hit Rock Bottom ...

I remember so clearly. It was right after Jimmy. The Film bombed at the Box Office and I was getting insulted and abused left, right and centre and I was completely shattered with no hope for a better tomorrow. But during My Darkest Hour, My Father was there for Me. He gave Me strength. He gave Me Hope and more importantly, He made Me believe in Me again. I know what He was going through then. It was the same Pain that I felt. He did and trust Me, I know what all He has done for Me! He was Strong for Me when I had No Strength and He always told Me that it is important to be a Good Human Being. His Every Word is Godly for Me. And today, whatever I am is because of His Teachings. Even today, He works for Us. He wakes up everyday and goes to Work for His 4 Children and His every Action today shows the Love for His Children. He has sacrificed everything for us and He still does. He gives us everything! We are so blessed that even before we think of something we are rewarded by it! He takes us to Holidays all around the World! And no matter how tired He gets, He comes back Home after His Shoots and Cooks for Us. So yes, I am Blessed! I am truly Blessed to be His Son and even if one day, I become 1/4 of the Man that He is, I will say that I have achieved something great in My Life !

I know there are many out there who have a problem with Me being His Son. They say I get it easy. They say I don't deserve it. Well, I can't do anything about it now, can I? I mean, God must have really been impressed with Me in My Past Life for Me to have been chosen to be the Son of Mithun Chakraborty and if given a choice, for the next billion Births, I would want to be His Son. My Dad is My Hero! My Dad is My Rockstar, My Role Model, My Inspiration! My Dad is My Friend. My Dad is My Blessing! I have promised Him many things and I swear I will do whatever it takes to make Him Proud of Me one day. And I know that 'one day' is not that Far Away. So before I go I just wanna say That I Love You Dad and You Are The Greatest Man I Will EVER Know! :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and I am the Son of Mr. Mithun Chakraborty.

With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Dear Universe ...

Dear Universe,

Hi. My name is Mahaakshay Chakraborty. And I am writing this letter to you. This letter has been on My to-do list for a very long time now and I apologize for not writing this earlier. But no better time than the present na? So here goes. Geez, I am so nervous. I mean, I have written to you before. I know you have many names. Many call you God. Some call you Energy but I like calling you The Universe because all the components that make up the Gigantic Universe are also in Us. So yes, I am a part of You just like you have always been a part of Me. :-)

You have taught Me so much. You have given Me so much! I will never be able to thank you enough for the things you have done for Me! I know you have always been there for Me, even when I forgot to be there for you. You never wanted anything from Me. All you wanted was acknowledgement. I am sorry for all those times when I didn't say Thank You. I am sorry for the times I forgot to talk to you. I am sorry for all those times when I made My mistakes. But no matter what I did, you were always there for Me. I know there are 7 billion people on this planet and another billion types of species and you take care of all of us. You have time for all of us. To listen to our pleadings. To answer our prayers. To show mercy to us even when we do the unthinkable. You have treated us as equals even when we fight for superiority. You give us all that we want, even when we kill each other for a square-inch of land. You love us even when we fight for our religions. You gift us with Happiness even when we only choose negativity. You give so much, even when we do so little for you ...

Oh, I remember. I remember everything. How I came this far and what it took Me to come here. All those days, months and moments. The days I gave up and cried. The days I didn't wanted to go any further. The times when I just wanted to run away. Even when I was down and under, you give Me Hope. You gave Me Strength. You showed Me the way. You never left My side. You made Me believe in Myself when I couldn't believe anymore. You blessed Me with a Family who always stood beside Me. You made Me meet people who became My friends. You taught Me how to walk in the Darkness and took Me into the light. You made Me realize that when all else fails, Faith will prevail. You made Me wise enough not to repeat My mistakes. You gave Me a conscious who always told Me to do good things even when I was drowned in My own Hate. You made Me a better person when I thought I was always the odd one out. You showed Me love even when the only thing I saw was Hate ...

So dear Universe, THANK YOU! Thank you from the bottom of My heart for this beautiful life that you have given Me. I promise I will become a better person. I will never hurt anyone again. I will speak the Truth. I will be Kind and Noble to all. I will always Fight. I will Never Give Up. I will always believe in Myself. And I will always have My Faith. I will Work Hard, Stay Disciplined because I know that one day My Time will come. You will give Me everything that I want. You will always be with Me as I will always be with you. But dear universe, I have a few requests, I hope you can grant them for Me. Please bless everyone. Even the ones who don't believe in you. They need it. Remove Hate from this world. Make everyone believe that we are all the same. Please forgive the ones who consider Me as their enemy because even they are fighting their own battles. Give everyone what they want because everyone deserves happiness. Give everyone Hope and tell them no matter how tough it gets, no matter how dark it gets, the Sun will Rise again the next day and everything is going to be ok. Make them believe in Love because in the end no matter how many sons and daughters will die in the Wars we will fight, Love will change everything. Love will make them better people. Love will make them forgive. Love will lead them to heaven.

Once again Dear Universe, Thank you for being there for Me. And I will never forget you as you never forgot Me. And Dear Universe, next time you won't have to wait for Me because when you look down, you will see Me looking up and telling you Thank You. Thank You ... From the bottom of My Heart.

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Letter to the Universe.

With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Choices ...

Hello everyone. Sorry for the delay of My Blog entry. The Chakrabortys came back from Europe on Sunday and I really wanted to rest it out and get back to My normal routine on Monday, so I thought, the best time to write this is today. And yes, Europe was awesome! We really had a great time there! We saw everything that we wanted too and we also saw many historical monuments as well and clicked many pictures there to cherish those amazing moments! It was wonderful visiting three countries in 12 days! It was a Trip to remember and to top it, I also got My Dr.Dre Bluetooth Headphones! They are spectacular! And I heard this Song from Keith Urban. It is called FOR YOU. That song is surely the Song-Of-The-Week as it is dedicated to all those brave men and women in uniforms who put their lives on the line everyday to protect their nations! It is a must hear and the Lyrics are a must-read as well! :-)

And now, we begin ...

As Morpheus said in The Matrix Reloaded, "Everything in life begins with a choice." Life is truly about the choices you make. I know that some of you may say that no, it doesn't because everything in life is pre-destined and we were always meant to do, what we were meant to do. That everything is already written for us. I agree with you folks to some level but I also believe that even though we all are chosen to do what God chose us to do, He also has given us the Power of Free Will to walk that 'Pre-Destined-Chosen-Path' the way We want too. Like for example, He has given us the Ferrari but it is up to us how we drive it. The Choice to Crash it or reach smoothly to our destination. For a while, I, Myself, thought there is no point in making these choices because in the end, we always end up being what we thought we shouldn't be. But I tell you today, We do have the Power to make our own Choices. We have The Power to Stand for What We Believe in or fall in that bottomless pit from where there in no going back  ...

Many believe that this is the Year the world will come to an end but for Me, it is the Year that I was re-born. I have changed so much! In the way I think, the way I react and with the way I am with people. And that all didn't happen in an instant. It happened because I chose to change. I made My Choice. To be a better person. To see the Good Things in Life. To find the Kindness in others. To Forgive and let go of all of that Anger. To become the Man I always wanted to be. A Man who doesn't have a Heavy Conscious. Trust Me, it isn't easy. Nope. It isn't easy one bit. But that is the point, isn't it? To Stand Tall when others have fallen. To believe in the Light when you can only see the Darkness. To Hope when there is no more Faith left. To Smile even when you have tears in your eyes. To Love even when all you receive is hate from others. To Choose even when there are no choices left ...

Take this from Me, I have done my share of everything. I have been down that road. I know what it feels like to have a heavy heart. To know what I am doing is wrong but still continue to do so because it was for My own benefit. So I know where I am coming from. And being this New Version of Myself hasn't been all roses. In fact, it has been just the opposite. I think that is Irony or some Sick Joke God is playing on Me. Everyday is a test for Me. Everyday I see Hatred hating Me more and Temptation tempting Me more. Seducing Me into it's Dark Abyss and I know how tempting it is. To say, Screw All These Rules and Self-Rightousness crap and just fall in. But No, I am not. No matter how hard it gets, I am still keeping My Stand. Even though it is the toughest thing that I have ever done, I still Choose to Stand Tall. I Choose the right thing. I Choose to Fight Back because I know that even though God may not be answering my Prayers right now, even though he may be avoiding Me, he has put Me in a place to grow. To Test Me. To make Me Strong. And most importantly, to see, Whether I Stand or Whether I Fall ...

There aren't many good people left in this world. And I am not saying I am good either. But I want to believe that someday I will. This Battle I am going through, is something I will always have to face. That, in a way, is My Fate. I know that Temptation, Greed, Hunger and Lust will always be there. But no matter how much they throw at Me, I will Choose to fight back. I know it will get lonely being where I am and where I am heading. But I know I can fight this. I know I can Stand Tall because in the end, when I die, when I face god, I wanna look at him in the eye and tell Him that I tried. I really tried. I fought back. Not because I had too but because I Chose too. I have made My Choice. The question is ... Have You Made Yours?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Choice ...

With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

The Chakrabortys In Europe ...

Hello everyone! Or should I say that in Italian, German or French? Yes, The Chakrabortys are in europe and I all I can say is that we are having a great time over here! Yes, I am clicking a lot of Pics and you can check them out out on My twitter page which is @mahaakshay .I have to tell you, this place is lovely! We were in Austria a few days back and it was truly beautiful! Whether it was the weather, the ambience, the people, the culture, the scenic beuaty, everything was breath-taking! I know I always do My 'Feature' sections before I begin but this week, all I can tell you is how amazing these places are! Every 2-3 months we, as a family plan these holiday trips and we make sure that we visit all the places our feet can take us. And thanks to Dad, this time, we decided that we will visit Europe ... :-)

As I mentioned to you, we were in Vienna, Austria a few days back and the reason we went there was for Dad and Mom. When I was a year old, back in the day, Mom and Dad had gone there and they always told us how beautiful it was! To be honest, we didn't believe them until we went their ourselves and all the four of us had the same answer ... Beautiful! We visited the Famous Cathedral which is one of the most beautiful places to visit when you are in Vienna. We also visited the National Museum of History and also visited the Grand Palace and the Zoo which is supposed to be the oldest zoo in the world! Everyday, something new was in stored for us. Usually in these trips, My Younger Brother, Rimoh is the Navigator and I am the Handy Man. Our duo always finds things and gets the job done. We also do our 'Duo' walks around the hotel area as it is something we really cherish! And this time, My youngest Brother, Nama also tagged along with us! And just behind our hotel, I think 10mins away was the famous Shopping Lane which stretched from the Opera House, all the way to The Cathedral. So for My sister, Dishi, it was paradise, only 10mins away! We really enjoyed Vienna and something told Me when we left, that I will be visiting this City again ... For sure ... :-)

Since yesterday, we are in Rome. Of course, as all travellers who are new to a country, it took us time to settle in here and with it's surroundings. And speaking about Surroundings, our hotel is right opposite a very famous park and the city zoo! Now, how cool is that? :-) We visited The Vatican today and believe Me, no matter how amazing it looks in the Movies, seeing it, with your very eyes is another experience all together! We also visited the Famous Wishing Fountain and no, I can't tell what I wished for and after that, we visited The Pantheon, which for all of us, was more amazing than The Vatican because we were inside the Temple! I mean, I was in a place where once the Romans worshipped the Sun as their God! Even though, there were many people there, I could still feel the calmness in Me when I walked in the Temple and even Goosebumps! After that, we visited the City's Mall and all thanks to Google Translate, I was having one-sentence conversations with the cab driver. Although, what he said in Itatian, completely went over My head! :-)

We will be here in rome for a few more days and then we go to Paris. I will surely try to keep all of you updated with this trip of Mine. And before I go, all I want to say is that even though this is a Holiday trip, I have had a realization. That this world is so beautiful! It is filled with so many beautiful people and cultures and heritage. And all it will take for us to get along, is to be nice to each other! I try to be nice to whoever I meet. The question is ... Do you?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and I am now, with The Chakrabortys ... in Europe.

With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Trying To Be Good ...

Before I begin, I wanna ask, do you guys watch Wwe? If yes, then you must have absolutely heard the Theme Song of Randy Orton. The lyrics are, 'I hear voices in My head, they talk to Me, they understand, they talk to Me!'. You may ask Me, why will I write these lines and what reference do they have with this blog. Well, in the lines below, I will surely tell you just that. But before we continue, I think this week's Shout-Out Feature goes to Family. Yes, Family. No matter whatever we go through, we know that our Family will always be with us and give us their love and support. They will always stand by us even when the world turns their back to us and love and accept us, just the way we are. So to Families everywhere, stay together because trust me, there is no stronger bond, than that of Family! And My Song-Of-The-Week is 'Tonight' by Seether. Another Rock Song and the lyrics tell us that we have to live this very moment to the fullest and let go of all that we have done, good and bad and forgive ourselves and just for tonight embrace happiness as it is given to us. :-)

And now, we begin …

I have been writing My blogs for quite some time now and if you scroll backwards to all My entries, you will notice that I have been through My share of Pain, Anger, Rage and all those things the Darkness within you will make you go through. I have expressed Myself in My Blogs and even a part of Me wanted all of you to be just like Me. I thought, War is the answer! That Hate is everything and is pure. For a very long time the 'Voices' in My head kept on talking to Me and wanted Me to live by these notions. And I did just as ordered. But suddenly, since this year began, all those 'Voices' disappeared! Yes! I couldn't hear them anymore and I don't know why! I mean, no more 'voices' In My head, just, like, that! To be honest, I was petrified that I am left all alone and this is My Punishment. But as time went by, as the 'voices' never came back, I began to see the truth. That it was time for Me to feel, understand, accept and most importantly evolve to become a good person … :-)

And since that realization, I made a promise to Myself that I will become a good person. I will mend all wounds. And I will seek forgiveness for My sins. Trust Me guys, I have done My bit of bad in this existence of Mine. And I know that the only way I will find peace in the after life is by redeeming My sins while I am alive. And that is how My journey began towards My redemption. Trust Me, it isn't easy. People don't let go that easily. They always remember you for the pain you caused them. Not for the moments of happiness you shared with them. And no matter what people say, they don't forgive that easily either! They remind you of what you did and they never stop! In the midst of all of that anger and hatred they throw at you, it is very easy to slip into the madness and retaliate. To yell back and abuse. To become bad. But I ask you, if I do that, what will be the difference between Me and them? That is where god sees the divide between good and evil. God tests your goodness by putting you through the toughest of hardships because he wants to see what we Stand for and we can fall for. Trying to be a good person isn't easy. Take it from Me. But no matter how tough it gets, in the end, after all that you go through, trust Me, it feels great that you stood tall against all that adversity! :-)

For the record, I am not trying to be good because I am scared of Kamra. Nope. Personally, I don't believe in the circle of karma because I have seen people hurting others and they get away with it and live life to the fullest! While the innocents and ask for justice but Karma, for some reason doesn't respond. So no, this isn't fear. This is a realization that My time has come to become a better version of Myself. Of becoming someone I thought I could had never been. I don't know how you see this world but I have seen My share and gone through it too and it is filled with people all of types and means. The ones, who only want to gossip. The ones who only want attention. The ones who are never grateful. The ones who are only negative. But I ask you again, if a guy like Me, who only believed in Hate, can now change, evolve, love and only see the good in people, then why can't all of you too?

So before I go I just wanna say, it is not easy being good. Trust Me, it is one of the toughest challenges I am going through! But it's worth it! I know that people out there will stay hate Me. They will stay have their complaints. And they will never forgive Me. But I will not retaliate. I will always ask for Forgiveness. I will always be the friend in need. I will wait for redemption. I will see the good in them because I know that there is good in all of us.I will show them the positive side of life. I will never give in to My Monsters and one day, all those Monsters will go away. And every time I am faced with Hate, I will Rise Above it because as Lord Buddha said, "Hate Doesn't Kill Hate. Only Love Can Kill Hate!". So My friends, you see, this is Me trying to be good. The question is are you?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Journey of being a better 'Me' …

With All My Might,

Your No.1 Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Best. Weekend. EVER !!!

Hello once again My Readers. As you all know I am a Sunday Blogger and so the question arises why am I writing this week's blog on a Monday? Well, the answer is in the Title. Best, Weekend, Ever !!! So, to give the title justice, I had to write this Blog after the weekend because in the lines below, you will know why this weekend was My best ever to date! :-) But before we go ahead, we have to do the necessary 'Feature' sections and this is week's Shout-Out feature goes to Movies. Yes, My Bread and Butter. I love everything about Movies and recently, I have been watching Movies of all languages and I am discovering how deeply Movies affect us in our day to day lives and how important they are for us too! This week's Song-Of-The-Week is 'Put Your Hearts Up' by Ariana Grande. It is a beautiful song which tells us that only if we are strong and don't fear love, we can all, together, make this world a beautiful place! :-)

And now, we begin …

If you go on twitter and follow all those jokes and facts and true tales, you will see 99.9% of those tweets referring to weekends as the 'Party Zone' or as the 'Heavenly Break'. Before, I could never relate to those tweets nor to those people. I used to think, why is the weekend so damn important for all those people? I couldn't understand them until I, Myself went through this 'Weekend Frenzy'!!! But before the actual events, we must know, how it all came into place. So we must go back to the point of origin. And for Me, My origin was Tukkaa Fitt. :-) We were, for quite sometime planning to unveil the 1st look of Tukka Fitt to the world in a very grand way. All of us, who were a part of the project knew that we have a great product in our hands and we have to do justice to it by giving it a grand 1st look party! So, the preparations began. We had meetings after meetings, deciding the venue, the guest list, the clothes, the time of the event even to the perfect menu of the food for the guests. And this wednesday, we met for the 'final' meeting before d-day and everything was set. But after all the planning and preparations came the numbness and nervousness and fear, all wrapped up before d-day, which I think, we all were going through …

I am still very young in the Bollywood Industry and for Me, every Movie feels as it is the 1st one! So before the D-Day event, I think a couple of hours before itself, I went completely blank! I wasn't feeling anything! I mean, all My systems where shut down due to the nervousness which was taking over Me! As Actors, all we want is acceptance and appreciation by the people because that is what keeps us going! So all My thoughts were fixated to the event. And the questions were pouring in. Will they all like my look? Will they like the Trailer? Will they come and congratulate Me? Even when I was on the way, these thoughts were dominating Me. But as soon as I was there, as soon as I started talking to the press, as soon as we unveiled the 1st Look Poster, as soon as we showed everyone the 1st Trailer of the Film, as soon as I heard the claps and the accolades, I was smiling and relaxed and so so very happy! The 1st step was complete and we all did a damn good job to make it happen! Mostly, all those who I invited showed up to support Me! I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for your blessings and best wishes! And I am so very sorry if I couldn't attend to all of you personally as there were so many people! And the ones who couldn't make it, I know you must have your reasons. So for Me, Friday, the Eve of the Weekend, was a Super Success! But I had no idea that there were still some more awesome moments awaiting Me … :-)

I had no idea what I wanted to do on Saturday. I thought I would just chill and let the day take Me forward. But since morning, I started receiving messages from all over, telling me that they loved the 1st Look Poster and they were loving the 1st look Promo as well! I didn't expect all of that, so of course I was quite over-whelmed and over-joyed! And because of the state I was in, I decided to go out and celebrate. Yes, Me, going out and celebrating! Trust Me, Happiness does strange things to people! :-) So I decided to take My friends and go out and just enjoy and we did just that! We went for shopping and Dinner and a drive all the way to town and we also got the chance to see the Vagina Monologues which, according to Me, was one of the best shows I have seen as those amazing women perfectly blended Comedy with Satire and the hardcore truths of what women really go through! My salute to them once again! So in the midst of all those laughs and jokes and plays and shopping and drives, we had no idea that it was already mid-night! By the time we came home, we had our hearts full of joy and happiness and I know it was a day well spent … :-)

I know sunday is usually the day when reality starts to hit us again, reminding us that Monday, is only a few hours away and that, we have to go back to Work and all our responsibilities but for Me, Sunday was as awesome as Saturday because lucky Me, I got to hear 2 Movie Scripts, Celebrate Mother's Day with My Mom, who is in fact, the greatest Mom in the whole wide world, over lunch and then have the entire sunday evening to unwind in My Couch, playing the PS3! So yes, for Me, this was the Best, Weekend, Ever because it truly was! I got to be happy, spread the happiness and live the moments! Sometimes, life surprises us in more ways than one and instead of fearing that this moment won't come again, we should embrace the moment and live it to the fullest! I did just that and that is why I am happy, even on a Monday. :-) And trust Me, I know that when I am giving My 100% to the Job at hand, I don't have to go and look for happiness … As happiness will come and find Me. :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this was My Best. Weekend. EVER !!! The question is, which was yours?

With All My Might,

Your No.1 Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

The Good In The Bad ...

Hello once again My friends. I must say in advance that this blog is somewhat a very intense one as I am tapping into something I never did before. So I hope by the end of it I make sense and cross the message. And I saw Aamir khan's Show Satyamev Jayate today and I was completely moved! This is the kind of show our channels need! To cross the message to the one billion citizens of this country so that we can help each other! My Salutes to Aamir Khan and the Show's Creative Team! And before we go ahead I dedicate this week's Shout-Out Feature to All My Fans! Yes, all you out there! Thank you so very much for the love! It is a great Support to have all of you with Me, every step of the way and I thank you all from the bottom of My heart for the unconditional love you give Me everyday! :-) And this week's Song-Of-The-Week is 'Everything's Gonna Be Alright' by Enrique Iglesias. The lyrics are beautiful as they say that no matter where you are and what you are going through, in the end, everything is going to be ok. :-)

And now we begin ...

Recently I visited My house in Coimbatore for My daily trips down south and I decided that I will clean My room as I have a lot of memories attached to it and as I was doing that I stumbled upon all My old diaries and I started reading them, page by page and I was completely amazed by Myself! I mean, I was laughing at Myself, smiling and also happy to relive all those memories. But with all those memories I had one constant shadow lurking. It was the shadow of Darkness, anger and hatred. I never knew that I had so much of Hatred in Me and that also from such an early age! And that really had got Me thinking that I have evolved and changed so much since I wrote those diaries! I have been through so much and learnt so much! And now, I can proudly say that I am on the road in becoming a better human being. But all good always comes from the bad and I will tell you why ...

I have always believed in aggression. In force. In Power, Fear and the plan of Attack. I was the one who believed that Love doesn't exist and Hate will always prevail. I lived by this code so very much that I forgot who I was! I lost My identity and there was a point I couldn't recognize My own reflection! I became so dark and so full of this madness that My own conscious slipped away and in this process I became very selfish and only thought of Myself. I thought that the entire world is selfish and so I should be too! For Me, everyone was the enemy and in time the inevitable happened ... I started hurting the people who truly loved Me! I didn't care for anyone's feelings and emotions! It was only Me, Me and Me! This process was going well. I was getting all that I wanted and I thought what I am doing is right. But then, finally, on one sunny afternoon, in the silence after the chaos, My conscious finally spoke to Me. And after what it told Me, I  knew there was no looking back for Me ...

It said, what you are doing is wrong. I said No! This is the way! They don't care and they will leave like they always do! And then it said, look around you. Just look around you and see what you have! And I did just that and all I could do after that was cry! Cry like I never cried before because I didn't see Hate ... I saw Love! Love from My Family who will always be with Me. Love from my friends who will always fight for Me and stand by Me. Love from all of you who take out time to read these blogs! There was love all over and I smiled and felt happiness like I never did! I felt the purity of love and I realized that Love is so powerful! It is unstoppable and it will embrace you, only if you give it a chance. Love can heal all wounds. Love can change you. Love can make everything happen. Love can set you free. And love can make you good from the bad ...

And that is why today I am a changed man. I am in the process of becoming the best version of Myself. My anger has gone. There is no more hate inside of Me. I am learning to forgive and forget. To all those who hate, I am learning to love them for I know each of them is fighting a battle just like Me. For all those love Me, I am making extra efforts to make them feel special. And I wanna make everyone smile. I want people to feel special and cared and appreciated. I want to change the world, one soul at a time. I confess, I have done some terrible things in My existence here on this planet. I have hurt a lot of people. Intentionally and unintentionally. I have done things for which there is no forgiveness and I know that there are people out there who will never forgive Me for that. But I ask you all for Forgiveness. I ask for your Love. I ask for another chance. I ask for Salvation. Maybe, just maybe, I will find redemption in this process ...

So before I go, all I want to say is that there is love in everything and in everyone. All we have to do is find it. I found the Love in Me and now all I want to do is Spread the Love. The question is what are you going to do?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My journey towards Forgiveness ...

With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.