The Act Of Defiance ...

Hello once again My readers. Hope you all are in good spirits. I know I am. I had a very busy day. I had 4 meetings back to back and I must say, all of them were very productive. I make it a point that after a Good day of Work, I make My brain 'divert' from My regular activities by playing Video Games and trust Me, that really helps to have a fresh and clearer perspective. I did just that before I started writing this Blog. And this week's Song-Of-The-Week is 'Pay Phone' by Maroon 5. The lyrics are meaningful as they tell us about Life and Fairy tales in a very rock-infused way. And this week's Shout-Out feature goes to Friends. Yes, friends in general. I have come to understand that even Friendship is a responsibility and it requires time, communication and care. And for the very 1st time in My life I am taking those steps to safe guard My friendship and grow it more especially with My bestie Sabah. Sabah, thanks for making Me a better man than I was yesterday and teaching Me the true meaning of Friendship. And My readers, I urge you to read the book, titled, 'The Magic' as it is truly life-changing. Since I have started reading it, My life is taking the turn for the better and I can feel it happening every single moment! :-)

And now, we begin …

Defiance … That very word has so much of weight. So much of power and meaning. But for Me, it is more than just a word you will find in the dictionary. For Me, it is a way of life. I remember, a couple of years back, Me and My Family where going to Bandra for some work and there were many Posters and Hoardings of this very big Superstar all across the city and My Mom, just before we were about to reach told Me, that this guy is truly such a big superstar! And I just looked at her and said, "Mom, he is a man and so, he can be Beaten!". My Mom just smiled but I know what she told Me in that smile of hers. She said, "I am impressed. You have heart." And I tell you today, Heart is all that you need. We all are here, fighting for what we want. We all have dreams and desires and countless other things in our wish list. So the question is, why do only a few of those people get what they want and the remaining just wait and wait and wait? The answer is simple … They dare and they Defy! Yes, history itself is proof that only the few who were brave enough to challenge the odds and did what every one thought they couldn't do, are the ones, who are remembered in our history books. Those men just didn't believe in themselves, they also believed in the act of Defiance!

As you know, I learn Mixed Martial Arts {MMA} as a professional sport and in Mma there is only one rule. Never underestimate your opponent. He may be the short guy or the new one but he is your opponent and he is here to win as much as you are. One right hook on the temple and you are counting stars. That is why, whenever we Spar or Fight, I always imagine My Mma friends as My vicious opponents and I hit as hard as I can because I always imagine Myself as the guy no one is betting on because they think I will loose but before you know it, I am the guy who beats the crowd favorite with the right uppercut, right at the jaw because I wasn't afraid of him! For me, he was just an ant, I had to squash! So I ask you, why give others that 'High' stature when we can reach greater heights than them!?! Why make them invincible and god-like when in the end, they are just like you and Me!?! Why put them in a place where we think we can never reach, while all it takes is to find the correct ladder!?! Why make them more than Human Beings when in the end they bleed the color red too!?! I ask you, why, why and why!?! Trust Me My readers, no one and I mean no one can be better than you without your consent! And sometimes, more than defying others, we have to defy ourselves and most importantly, our thoughts …

I read some where, that In Order To Be The Best, You Have To Beat The Best! Well, how will that happen if you keep on giving your opponents and competition that 'high' stature? That will only happen when you see them eye to eye and tell them that you are not afraid and yes, you will enter the ring and yes, you will fight because you have the will and the power of defiance with you! And I tell you, in order to win, all you have to say is, "I Will Fight You!". Yes, to all those men who think they are better, I will fight you! To all those who are corrupt and make evil run in this world, I will fight you! To all those tyrants and dictators, I will fight you! And to even the gods, who hold our destinies, I WILL FIGHT YOU! Even gods bow down to those who have the courage and the will to defy them! Then who are humans compared to the gods?!? No man, is better than you. No man ever will be. And no man, was ever supposed too. That is the true law of the universe. That is the way it was always meant to be …

I maybe repetitive when it comes to the entire 'Keep-On-Fighting' factor in all of My Blogs but that is who I am. I am a Fighter and I am not afraid because I will keep on fighting. I will keep on fighting until there is no one left to fight. I will not stop until I have defeated all those who I want to defeat. I will not stop until I prove to the whole world that yes, the other guy has the entire fleet behind him but I will beat him with only My Will and the Power Of Defiance! So before I go, all I want to say is that people will not agree with you. They will not even support you and some may think, you are crazy to go against Immortals, Titans and Gods! But do you, for the rest of your life, want to be the person who waited and never got his opportunity because you were too scared or are you the one, who defied the Odds and stood tall by The Act Of Defiance …

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Act Of Defiance. The question is, what is yours?

With All My Might,

Your No.1 Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

If I Wasn't Mahaakshay Chakraborty ...

This has been one busy week for Me. I got back from Down South, had a Mind-Blowing Photo Shoot with Luv Israni and had 4 Meetings back to back and now, I am recovering from a Fever. But all in all, a very good and progressive week! Touchwood! And I must say Thank You, Thank You, Thank You because in the Book titled The Magic, it says the more we are Grateful for what we get, the more we are always given in return. So yes, I am truly Grateful! And this week's Song-Of-The-week is 'When We Stand Together' from the Rock Band Nickelback. I have forgotten how many times I have heard that Song as the lyrics touch Me every time I hear it and sometimes, I keep the Song on Repeat throughout the day! And My Shout-Out feature definitely goes to Nickelback for giving us such great music …

And now, we begin …

First things first, I love Myself! Yes I do! Everything about Me! Whether it is My life, My looks, My Family and everything else that is in between life and death, I love it! And yes, I am truly blessed to be Mahaakshay Chakraborty! So, for the ones who presume things before knowing or reading, no, I am not sad nor depressed. I am Great and I am loving it! And this is neither escapism nor this is Me wanting to be some one else or running away from my responsibilities. This is Me, trying to find those answers which intrigue Me. Which force Me to ask questions. And which guide Me to places I thought I never could had gone. We all are unique and we all are different, that is why the thoughts I get are different than the ones you get. So I have always asked Myself, who am I? And what is My true purpose here? I am happy to tell you that I have gotten almost 90% of those answers but 10% still remain and they have been left unanswered for a very long time. So I asked Myself another question. Why aren't these answers being answered? And then, it finally hit Me. That for these answers, I can't be Mahaakshay. I can't be a Guy who is living and Working and doing what others do, I have to be somebody else entirely and then I asked the one question which made perfect sense came to Me … What If I Wasn't Mahaakshay Chakraborty ??? …

When we were kids, our imagination used to run wild! We were so many things at once! One day, we were cops, the others we were super heroes! It's like our Imagination drank 6 cans of Red Bull per second! But as we grew up, we grew out of all of that because people told us that we have start 'getting real' and practical and mature. But amongst all those crazy imagination worlds, one always stayed with you and no matter how much you tried to let it go, it always found it's way back to you. I tell you today, that, that world isn't all fantasy, it is Real! Yes, it is! I know you will ask Me, how and why and I will tell you, it's because Our Thoughts are who we are and our thoughts turn into actions! I don't know about you but If I wasn't Mahaakshay, I would had been a Soldier. Yes, a certified, bonified, hard-core, on your face, ass-kicking Soldier! I don't know but there is something about putting on a Uniform and following Orders and fulfilling one's Duty which really makes Me feel so very good! I can't describe the feeling but all I can say is that in the midst of all the Action, I find My Peace. I know, you must be thinking that this is a guy who plays a lot of Video Games and now thinks that he can actually be a Soldier in real! To be honest a part of that is right. I do play a lot of Video Games and it really feels good to have the volume on max and hear gun shots left to right and to be in the fight! But I think it has truly to do a lot with Honor. A lot with Duty and being Disciplined and Dedicated and a True patriot. A 27 Year Old guy who thinks he can change he world just by being a Soldier …

I have always believed what Gandhiji said, That we are the change we want to see in the world. Even today, whenever I go to the Movies, I stand in Attention and Sing the National Anthem and don't sit until the Indian Flag goes away from the screen, while I hear others condemning the very fact that they have to stand up for 2mins! I still believe that there is Hope for this Country where corruption rules every nick and corner. I still believe that one day we, who truly are the future of this country will make a difference. I think these thoughts not by being Mahaakshay but by being the Soldier I think I can be. Sometimes, to find ourselves, we have to let go of ourselves completely and walk in the darkness with not even a candle in our hands but have faith that the next step is where we will find our enlightenment. I think I am still walking in that Darkness and when I am alone with My thoughts, I am not Mahaakshay Chakraborty. I am that Soldier who wants to fight, who loves to fight and who wants to finally find peace in the midst of madness …

So before I go all I want to say is this, we are who we are because our thoughts make us so. But the question is this, do you let your thoughts just randomly go through that head of yours, or do you find the meaning behind them? Are you daring to let go of yourself in order to find yourself? I guess I am a Soldier because even when I am Mahaakshay, I am Fighting and doing My bit to see change in this Country and in this World. The Question is … What are you doing?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty. Actor/Soldier. So. Who. Are. You?

With All My Might,

Your No.1 Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

The Walking Dead Revelation ...

Hello once again My readers. It is that time of the week once again when I sit down for an Hour and type down My thoughts and share them with you. I must confess, in a week's time, a billion thoughts come into mind and I really get confused as to which will be the best topic to discuss. But one way or the other, I always get something to write, which is a good thing. You know, since I am a weekly blogger, I can't afford to have a 'writer's block' or should I say, 'Blogger's Block'. I am right now in Mysore. Staying in Our Hotel, The Monarch Mysore. And as always I will urge you all to go and checkout our website, www.mithunhotels.com and think about visiting our Properties. And this week, I add one more feature, which is the 'Song of the Week' feature as I am a die-hard fan of Music. So this week's Song-Of-The-Week is 'The Fighter' from the band Working Class Heroes. Try to listen to it and especially hear the lyrics. It will awe-inspire you! 

And now we begin …

First things first. I am a major Zombie fan! I try to watch all the zombie films whenever I can. In fact, right now, I am playing Resident Evil: Operation Raccoon City on the PS3 and I must say, it's quite fun to have an arsenal of weapons at your disposal and kill Zombies! Don't know why IGN gave it only 4 Stars. And speaking of Zombies, I am right now watching The Walking Dead Season 1 and I must say, it is one of the best shows I have seen! No, no, I am not campaigning for the Show and neither I am going to give you an analogy on Zombies. Well, to be honest, there is nothing to say about Zombies. They are just Undead Creatures who seek for Human Flesh. But as I said, this blog isn't about them. It is actually what I noticed in between the lines. In between the chaos and the violence and the madness and the post-apocalyptic scenario of The Walking Dead. That no matter how shitty the world may get, we have the courage to have Hope and the Strength to believe that there is still good in us. And what separates us from zombies is not only the Will to Survive but also Strength to Dream that one day, everything is going to be alright …

To be honest, I have always been the Guy who will has chosen Hate over love and I have believed that Fear triumphs over everything. So you must be asking Me, how this sudden change? There are many reasons. One may be that because of all this Traveling, I am engrossed in My thoughts so I am getting more Answers than usual. The other may be 'The 'Magic' book which I am reading which is making Me realize that there are so many things I am truly grateful for. And of course the other thing would be The Walking Dead, which I am watching right now. I can't pin point exactly what it is but I am glad this change is happening. I am starting to realize that more than the world, I was angry at Myself. That this anger was only killing Me slowly from inside. It was making Me something I never wanted to become. And all I had to do was switch off the Anger Button and Switch On the Love, Care and Belief Button. And since I have done that, I am feeling so good about myself. I am feeling lighter, fresher and happier. I am killing My super ego by being nice to people I never was and appreciating who ever is there in My life. Trust Me, my readers, sometimes the things which we think our impossible to accomplish, require the least amount of efforts … :-)

As I mentioned many a times before, I'm not here to preach. I am just sharing with you My evolution. And trust Me, it isn't easy. It takes time. The transition from who you are to who you want to be. People are still the same with Me. They don't care. They don't appreciate and they don't even bother. I know they will stay hate Me, call Me names and find Me boring. But I don't want to be like them. I want to change. I want to be a better person. I want to be a believer. I confess, I have done some bad things in my life time too. I have given pain to people, made others cry and also made them feel miserable. And I guess, this is My road to Redemption. Every one deserves a Second Chance and I think I do too. I want to believe that there is still good in this world and more importantly, there is still good in Me. People may think that this is the year when the world will come to an end. Where Tsunamis are happening, countries are launching missiles and the people are rising against their governments, one must think that there is no such thing as Hope. But I say there is. Hope will always be there, for it is our greatest strength. The dream of a better future for our children is still alive in us. We just have to find it. Remember this, people may not believe in you but you should never stop believing in them because sometimes that is all that they need. Someone reminding them of the good they possess. As Rocky said in Rocky:4, "If I can change and you can change, then everybody can change!" :-)

It took it's own sweet time but what did I know that a bunch of zombies from The Walking Dead will make Me realize that I am not that bad after all. I found my revelation or should I say, 'The Walking Dead Revelation' and I hope you find your revelation too. For each one is special and remember, if we can hate, we can also love. And we can forgive others, we can forgive ourselves too. As John Cena says every week when he faces a hostile crowd, "I know you all hate Me and you want Me to hate you back but I will never give in to the hate. For I believe in all of you that one day you will change, as I have always believed in Myself." I have to go for a Staff Meeting now and after that, I have to watch The Walking Dead. So I ask you this, are you the person who will just exist and hate like others or will become the change this world wants? Will you give others a second chance? And most importantly, will you ever forgive yourself and one day find redemption or just lay there, in your own hate …

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and I am a Zombie Fan. The Question is, who are you?

With All my Might,

Your No.1 Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Here Comes The Fighter ...

Hello once again My readers. Before we begin I want to tell you how happy I am. And there are many reasons I am happy. But I am the happiest today is because My Dad's Film, Housefull:2 has been declared a Huge Hit and My Dad is getting a lot of praise and appreciation for His performance in the Film! Just how every father feels proud of his son, even every son feels the same and today, I am so proud and so blessed to be the Son of Mr.Mithun Chakraborty. And I am right now Filming the last schedule of Enemmy. And it has been an amazing experience! When I am on the Sets, I feel alive and as I have mentioned this a billion times before, Work is Worship for Me and I wanna Work until I die! And this week's Shout-Out Feature goes to MUSIC. Yes, Music. I think I am nothing without my Music and My Music has saved and defined Me in more ways than one! And half of My Blogs have been inspired from My Music!

And now, we begin ...

No one likes the Loser. No one wants to know who came second. Everybody wants to win. Everyone wants to triumph. And as humans we have the capability to do whatever it takes to win. Cross limits we never imagined we had the courage to cross. Do things we thought we never had the strength to do and sometimes even sacrifice a few of our dreams for the bigger ones. But today I ask you, what is more important? The satisfaction of winning by any means necessary or Fighting? Fighting with all of your might and standing toe to toe with your opponent, looking at him in the eye and telling him, that you ain't afraid? For a guy like Me, it has always been the latter. It has always been about Fighting. I have been writing My blogs for so long now and I know by now you guys must have figured out My story or at least a part of it. That what kind of a guy I am and what My dreams and passions are and where I am heading. But the truth is, I am still figuring out Myself. I am still knowing my strengths and weaknesses. Knowing where I stand and where I fall and I know that this journey of Mine will never end. But in the midst of all of this soul searching one fact remains the same ... That I was fighting back then, I am fighting now and I will always keep on fighting ...

Just a few days back, I was invited by My Voice Modulation Teacher, Mr.Sutinder Singh, to watch a Play he had directed. The play was amazing and so were all the actors involved in it. But the crowd was so hostile towards them! I mean, they were not even letting them say their dialogues! They were booing them and taunting them and insulting them. But no matter what the crowd threw at them, they kept on going and did the entire play! At the end, I personally went and met all the Actors and congratulated them and saluted them for their passion and for the way they stood up against a hostile crowd! You see, they fought and they came out winning! In My eyes, they were winners because they didn't stop, they didn't give in. They kept on going and trust Me, I saw Myself in each and every one of them!

I have been called many names. I have been told many things. People out there still hate Me and my guts and some wish that I didn't even exist. But guess what? I am still here. And I will still be here. You know why? Because I believe. I believe in My dreams and I am ready to fight for them. I love Movies. I love everything about them and I will do whatever it takes to be here. Sure, the path is not easy. Trust Me, nothing is more harder than life but that is what life is all about. It is not about existing. It is about Living! And the only way you can do that is by Fighting for what you truly believe in. Everyday when I am wake up I am going to war against nearly 7 billion people for something I believe in. And there are times when that takes a toll on Me. I am Human too, I do get knocked out with those 7 billion punches. I do fall down. I do get that "Lights-Out" feeling from time to time. But every time, I have stood up. Every time, I have fought back. And it is not because I have too, it is because I want too. It is because I choose too ...

I have My Faith and it is my Faith that gives Me the strength to keep on fighting because I know that the more I fight, the more I stand tall, the more I come closer in making all of My dreams come true. And I know that not everyone will love Me, not everyone will like Me but they will, without a shadow of a doubt, respect Me. They will know, deep down inside of their hearts that this is no ordinary man, this is a man who can't be beaten. This Man may not be a winner in our eyes but yes, He is A Fighter. And they will talk among themselves, when they will see Me walk towards them, "Here Comes The Fighter!" So before I end this blog, I ask you this question, how do you want to be remembered by? The person who won or as the person who everyone remembers because of your struggles, of your sacrifices, of your hardships, of your will to succeed, of your will to keep on fighting even when you didn't have the strength to go on?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and I am a Fighter. The question is ... Who Are You?

With All Of My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

The Boys Night Out Part:2 ...

Before I begin, I wanna write some lines from the Movie, The Shining. The Great Jack Nicholson said, "All Work And No Play Makes Jack A Dull Boy." These words are very true. We all wanna enjoy. We all wanna party and have a great time whenever we can. Some of us want it more than others. But we all know that our work is our priority and we must commit ourselves to it. But I believe there has to be a balance. Balance is everything. In fact, it is because of this balance that the earth is in it's right place and so is the moon and so on and on. Without Balance the weighing scale will fall on either side and then there will be chaos and trust Me, no one wants chaos. I know that in mostly in all of My blogs, I have been very philosophical and spiritual. But I think even a 'serious' guy like Me needs a break from time to time and unwind. In fact, one of My closest friends told Me to lighten the mood in My blogs once in a while and I guess that her wish has just been answered! But before I continue, I wanna dedicate this week's shout-Out Feature to the entire Cast and Crew of Housefull:2 as the movie is slated for release this coming friday. I will surely be one of the first to watch it since My Dad is in it! :-)

And Now we begin …

I think I have already given a brief introduction to My blog in the above paragraph but if you ask Me, why is it called The Boys Night Part:2 is because I had My 1st Boys Night Out I think a month ago and this Saturday, it was My 2nd time I did something like this. What you will read ahead is the fun I had! Being honest here, I didn't know that I was that compatible in the company of men because throughout My life, I have been more comfortable in the company of women. Whether they were My friends, Girlfriends or lovers, I have always learnt more in the company of women. But this year has been a year of change for Me and I decided that I really should make some good guy friends and hang out with them. So that is how this plan came into being. Of course, due to the sworn friendship secrecy code I can't take their names and what they do but it was the 6 of us and we decided that we all will meet up this restaurant by 09:00pm and take it from there. And as disciplined we men are with timings, by maximum 09:15pm we all were there. And we had no idea, as a collective unit of 6 men, at the young age between 27 to 32, that men can be so funny, chilled-out, smart and most of all … bitchy! I don't know how My women readers will react to this but I think 2012 is the year when Men have become the new Gossip Queens! :-)

Of course, when 6 men come together, there is only one topic we can discuss … women! And yes, we did! And I learnt last night, that no matter how different our lives can be there is one common link we all men have and that is Heart Break! Yes ladies, we men suffer through heart breaks too and we all have our stories. We just don't show it and express it. But when you are in the company of men who probably had two or more long island ice teas and a few beers and sometimes, just even a normal coke or a sprite, all our inhibitions go away and we start talking our heart out. And that is what we did. There was not even one dull moment during our dinner. Whether it was the food, or the gossip or the tales from our past, we really had a great time and just like kids from college, in the end we all agreed to dutch and then we parted our ways for the night. But I can guarantee you that none of us wanted the night to end as we were having a blast and I know that I was laughing My ass off 90% of the time! And yes, the other 10% of the time I was making the others laugh! Thinking about it right now, it was really worth it because I meet these guys on a regular basis and this dinner really helped us all loose our inhibitions and become better friends. :-)

I know that this blog of Mine hasn't given any message or said something. As I mentioned before, we all deserve a little break. A time, when we can leave all our worries and responsibilities and take a chill pill. Even if it is a dinner, it is worth it because we are giving our own batteries some time to recharge. This year has surely been a year of changing for Me and looking back at Myself a year ago, I know I have evolved and I still am. There are still many more things I wanna do but I know the best way to enjoy them is one at a time! Today, I consider myself blessed to be around such good people. People who I can call My friends. And before I go, I just wanna say that sometimes life gives us those moments. Those moments of sheer joy and happiness. They may not be what you thought them to be but if you look closely enough, they contain pure happiness, laughter, joy and bliss. I try to find happiness in the smallest of things and I mostly find it. The question is … do you? :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and these are My Stories …

With All My Might,

You're No:1 Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Ugly Is The New Beautiful ...

For starters, no I am not campaigning for Ugly Betty. But for the record, I really loved that show! And before I go any further I wanna thank you all from the bottom of My heart. I always go and check My Stats and I see the Blog viewing is increasing all around the globe every week! Thank you for reading My Blogs. It inspires Me more and every week I want to write something new. So this week's Shout-Out Feature belongs to all of you! My Readers! 

And now … we begin …

Ugly. That is not a word used often by people. And especially not by men because 90% of the time we tell all the women in the world that they are so beautiful. And especially in My line of work, where looks really really matter, the word ugly is considered fatal. So why will I say Ugly is the new Beautiful? Here is why … As you all know that I am on this Journey. A journey to find My True Origins, where I belong, where I am going and finding the essence of My Soul. So in this process I ask Myself questions almost every moment and from time to time, I get answers to those questions too. Growing up, I was the Fat Kid in School, who wore huge glasses. I was the guy everyone made fun of. Of course, I used to hate that feeling of feeling unappreciated and made fun off. But as time faded, I evolved and today I can differentiate between Ugly and Beautiful. WWE has started this Anti-Bully Campaign and they say don't be a bully, be a star! And to be honest, since I have become a part of Save The Children India Foundation something in Me has changed. Watching those kids and young girls having new lives. Children who can't hear. Girls, who at a tender get trafficked still have the will to fight and believe and hope and smile and be happy because they have been given a second chance in life. I will be the 1st person to tell you that i am not a nice guy but looking at those kids, I believe that there is good in all of us and that good can see beyond looks, caste, creed or religion …

So you see, that fat kid in school, he was never a bully because all he wanted was to be loved. That girl you thought who was ugly because of her braces, she wore that special dress so that you notice her. You see that man with only one arm, he risked his life for his country. You see that kid who can't hear, he only wants to play with you and smile. You see that old lady who is blind, she only wants to feel a touch of love. You see, we all have the capability to look beyond looks. We have the ability to love and to care and maybe for just that one moment, become selfless. We all can change. We all can be better. No matter how many wars we fight, no matter how many bad things we do, we have the ability to become better. To accept the ugly and realize that Ugly is truly beautiful. We humans are a complicated species. We all know that. But trust Me, beyond all that hate, beyond all the ugliness vengeance gives you, there is love in all of us. Sometimes, more than forgiving others, we must forgive ourselves for the things we do. We must look past our ugliness and see that we are beautiful too. :-)

So you see, in the end, it is not the dresses we wear. Or the make-up we apply. Or the riches we have. In the end, it is all about how good we are and how we treat others and love them and accept them for their flaws. No one is perfect but sometimes, people just want to be appreciated. For that one moment, they want to feel special. All they want is a little bit of your love. God created us in his own image not because we could kill each other over land, race or religion. He gave us the strongest ability in the universe. The ability to love and accept and appreciate. So you see, no matter how much hatred we have in us, we also have the ability to love. Yes My friends, we all have the ability to accept our own ugliness and look beyond it. Even Lucifer once was loved by many and he was banished because he loved god too much. Even he was once an angel and you know what, he still us. The only difference is that he has no one to tell him that. No one to remind him that he has love too. But you all do. You all have that love in you. I know what I have to do in my life and not all My choices will be beautiful. Some may be ugly too. But I will really try to one day forgive Myself for My Ugliness and accept Myself for the person I am and see that Ugly was always beautiful. The question is, will you?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and these are My Stories. These are My Struggles. These are My moments with You.

With All My Might,

Your Number One Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

The Fallen Shall Rise Again ...

Imagine you are in a fight. A Boxing match. Facing none other than the Great Mohammad Ali. The odds are against you. Everyone is betting against you. Ali in his prime versus a chump who just got his name picked up due to a lucky draw. The entire world is waiting for the bell to ring and to see how fast does the Great Ali bring this guy down. The bell rings and before you know it, you get the Right Hook, followed by an Uppercut and then in Seconds ... It's Lights Out! The crowd cheers and the commentators say that this is the fastest knockout in the history of boxing! The referee is doing the 10 count. 1! 2! 3! ... The world knows you won't get up because you can't because they know you don't have what it takes. After all you are just a chump. But then, something happens. Something incredible. The crowd goes quiet. The commentators are speechless and Ali himself can't believe what he is seeing. He doesn't see his opponent on the ground but standing tall on his two feet waving to him that I am still standing! Let's do this one more time. Ladies and Gentlemen, that Man did fall but He rose again! And that Man is in All of US!!! ...

I am not a motivational speaker and neither I am a preacher. In fact, I am the most selfish person you will ever meet! And I know that every week when I write these Blogs, I write something that has already been written or something that I haven't. To be honest, My Blogs reflect who I am. So in a way, all of you get to see the Real Me from time to time. I am not a social animal, so I get to meet only a few new faces from time to time. But whenever I do, eventually after all the hi's and hello's and the flirting and sex talks, I ask the main questions. Questions which I ask Myself everyday. And 99% of these 'new faces' don't wanna answer Me because they think these questions are too heavy-duty. They say, why think so much when you can enjoy the normalities of life. I still remember 3 years ago I met this friend and I asked her these same questions and she told Me that I am a very unhappy person and I am not enjoying life and one day, if I live like this, life will just slither by Me and I will die alone. Even today, people somewhat give Me the same answers. Some say, 'chill', while others say, 'love people because love conquers all'. I hear all those 'opinions' and 'statements' everyday but I can't apply them because no matter how hard I try, that voice inside of Me tells Me otherwise.

I believe there are 2 kinds of people in this world. One who ask the questions and one who don't wanna find the answers. One who make a living and one who choose to live. One who wait for love and one who choose to fight. I guess I am the fighter. Since day one, it has always been about fighting for Me. I love to fight. Maybe that is why I love MMA so much! I face hurdles everyday! And even right now, I am fighting My thoughts. I guess 'War' is like a drug for Me and I need it more than love. Call Me crazy but this is who I am. I know I am not perfect, I know I am not goody-two-shoes but I know that I have the urge to fight and win! I know what pain feels like. I know what Anger and Hate do to a person. I know what humiliation and rejection means. I know how it feels to be alone in the Darkness. I know it all. But I also know that I have the Will. The will to fight and no matter how many times I am knocked down, I know that deep within Me is the fire to get up again because life isn't only about getting up every time you fall. it is about kicking-asses once you do stand up again!

I know that My life is different than yours. But it is somewhat similar too. So what if your best friend will eventually leave you? In the end, we all end up alone, don't we? So what if that one person doesn't forgive you for your actions? We all live with our choices, don't we? So what if you are neglected by your peers because they find someone else who is more popular and more profitable and suitable for their needs? You will find your own way. So what life chooses us to carry it's burden? We make our Shoulders stronger! So what if we fall from time to time? I say we rise again! Imagine life as Mohammad Ali and the Audience as the people who will come and go in your life. Life will hit you, beat you to a pulp and still won't stop, even when you are in the ground. But no matter how hard it gets, if you have the will to stand up and face life head-on all over again, it will be amazed by your Spirit. By Your Courage. And by Your Will! I am not saying that the audiences will love you but I know they will respect you! I know that Ali may even the fight due to the judges decision but Ali will know that this was the only guy who went 15 rounds, pound to pound with Me and in the end, he will come to you and shake hands with you. So you see My readers, life is just not about Accepting that you Fell. It is about having the Will to Rise every time you fall. And Kick-Ass! I know I do it every single day. The question is ... Do you?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty. And this is My Story.

With All My Might,

Your Number one Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Earning My Brownie Points ...

Sorry for the delay. I was suppose to submit My blog yesterday but I didn't and although I know this isn't a court-room drama, I will still layout My defense. Yesterday, early morning, I had gone to the DNA Women's Marathon and by the time I was back, I was so tired that I slept throughout the day. When I woke up, I went to My younger brother's, best friend's, cousin sister's wedding reception and by the time we came back, we had to sleep because from today, the Shooting of Enemmy resumed. I am right now, in the vanity van, waiting for My Shot and writing this Blog. I really hope you understand. Speaking of NGOs. I am now a part of Save The Children India. I went to their School the other day and I was completely in love with the place and the noble cause these few individuals are giving their lives too! For more details, you can go to www.savethechildrenindia.org And speaking of Movies, My Film, Tukkaa Fitt has become a Trending Topic on twitter and for more news on Tukkaa Fitt, just go to twitter and search Tukkaa Fitt by typing this #TukkaaFitt. I would really like to talk more about the NGO I am now a part of and also about Tukkaa Fitt, since it is coming out soon but I know that I will have many more opportunities in the near future to do so. 

And now, we begin … 

Just for the record, the Brownies I am mentioning do not have any getting-high' substances so whoever thought so, I am sorry for the disappointment. {chuckles} We all like sugar. We all love deserts and trust Me, chocolate brownies are one of My favorites. They are one of those few cravings which I wait every week to have. But these brownies are better. These are the brownies I get from the guy upstairs. You know, God. Ya, God himself. Now you will ask Me, how do I get direct access to him? Well,whenever I am in doubt, I call for him and with the powers that he has, he always answers Me. So this is how it all began. This was I think a couple of years ago. I was doing the usual. You know, Training and Dieting and waiting for that Special Moment. But slowly slowly, I was starting to get very impatient because no matter what I did, I wasn't getting what I wanted. So one day, all tired and frustrated, I asked for God to answer to Me and fix My problems. As promised, he showed up and then he told Me, "Mahaakshay, I understand that you are upset. That you think that you are not getting your due while everyone else is. That you feel left out. But My son, you shouldn't feel this way because something great is about to happen with you." I told him that you always say these things to all those you have created. What makes you think I will fall for that? And he said, "Listen My son, I have created everyone equal. Yet some of you excel more than the others. Do you wanna know why? It is because they cash in Their Brownie Points." I asked what are Brownie Points? He said, Humans ask for many things. They have unlimited desires and wants and no matter how much they get, they always want more. So in order to give them what they want, I created the Brownie Points System. And the Brownie System is very simple. All you have to do is ask for what you want and once you have ordered you have to see how much the brownie points are. For example, if you want that New Car, you will have to earn 10,000 Brownie Points. If you want that House you have dreamed of, you will have to earn 20,000 Brownie Points and so and on. And then I asked how do I earn these points? And all he did, was smile … :-)

He smiled and I figured it out. Now, all I had to do was … Give. Trust Me, there is no other way. I mean, I could had made you wait and anticipate what the answer was but no need for all of that because I think all of you also know what the answer is. And that is Giving. Giving is the way. It is the answer, it is the solution and it is the only way to got those Brownie Points. So, I started giving more. Whether it was Blood, sweat or tears. I gave and I kept on giving. And yes, even though it was grueling and it was tough, I never stopped because every night, I would check how many points I earned. The more points I earned, the more I came closer in making my dreams come true. And guess what finally happened when I cashed in on 3 Billion Brownie Points? Well, I got Haunted 3D! And it felt amazing! It felt so good in EARNING what you wanted. And since that day forth, I realized that all that is earned is proven to be righteous! So here I am, still earning My Brownie Points because I still have many Dreams which I want to turn into realities. Whether it is making My Family proud of Me or whether it is working 24/7, I still have many things on My need-to-do-list. So yes, before I go, all I can say is that we all Pray to have everything in the world but what will make those prayers come true? The answer is: Brownie Points. I cash in My Brownie Points from time to time. The question is … do you? :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Mimoh Chakraborty. And this is, My Story.

With All My Might,

Your No.1 Fan.,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Pop! Goes The Bottle ...

How should I start this blog? I mean, should I do a shout-out feature? Or should I dedicate this Blog to someone? To be honest, this week, only one thing is going around in My mind. That sound the bottle makes when you open it. You know, 'Pop'! What I am trying to say is that when you open the bottle, when you hear that sound, there is no going back for that bottle. I mean, you can close the lid but you can't un-pop the bottle you know. That is the state I am in now. I am right now facing My truth. I am right now face to face with My true self. And no matter how good it feels to know the truth, it is scaring the shit out of Me! I have tried to have this conversation with so many people, you know about why we are here, where we are going and all I get as answers are, "Mahaakshay, chill! Why are you so serious? Relax. Enjoy life! Don't be so philosophical." Basically, I never got any answers from anyone. So I started asking this question to Myself. Everyday, I asked these same questions to Myself. I never got any answer. I tried going to quiet places, Holy places, places where sages have been before. Spent more time with children and the elderly. Still, No answer. I thought maybe this is the answer, that there is no answer. That life consists of only questions and the answers only appear to us in the after life when we will be judged. So as time passed by I started forgetting the questions, I started forgetting that I also ever asked them. I was becoming like the people who told Me all those things. And I also started behaving like them. Life was moving on. Time wasn't stopping. And I thought, man, I think I was at fault. I shouldn't be thinking so much. But then suddenly, it happened …

Ya. Somewhere between My responsibilities, My duties, My Faults, My Mistakes and My Strengths and Weaknesses, I heard that sound. And then suddenly, all the other sounds disappeared. No one else was seen. Words meant no meaning and all I could feel … was peace. Even right now, as I am writing this blog, I can feel that truth all around Me. That Truth which reminds Me who I truly am. And no mater how much Love I get, no matter how much Hate I observe, deep down, inside of Me, I know who I am. And this is who I will always be. A while back I wrote a Blog in which I said that we are who we are and I second that notion once again this time because it is true. We can run away from the truth the world throws at us but we can't run away from the truth that is inside us 24/7. Trust Me, I have tried but I always go back to My origins. I used to first feel very scared of it. I used to tell Myself, that I can be better than who I am. But you know what, accepting your truth, accepting who you truly are is the best version of who you can ever be! I guess that is the reason I heard that sound. That sound which made Me realize that I was complete the whole time. Just that I didn't come to terms with it. But not anymore am I running from it …

I am a part of the Indian Film Industry where whatever we do reflects us as human beings. I have been learning that for a very long time, so, in order to get more Fan following and admirers we start to fake ourselves. We show only the good side of ourselves so that the world sees us as these Perfect beings who can never be flawed. But I am not like that and I will never be like that. I am proud to be who I am and the truth is that I am flawed. But there is another truth, and that is I know My flaws and I am working on them. Making them go away one by one. One of My friends told Me that I am showing too much hate in My blogs and also in My tweets. Well, I don't know what to say to that. I am not a hateful person but yes, My true self embraces the Hate. I am a Fighter. Always have been, always will be and when you are fighting for yourself, love won't get you anymore. In a recent interview with Enlighten Magazine, I told them Love can be manipulated for more reasons than one. But Hate is pure and I see that today. On twitter, I have many people who love Me and I have the equal amount of people who hate Me. And since that 'Pop' sound, I kinda like them both. They say, 'The Truth Sets You Free.' Yes, it has indeed set Me free, for now, I know who I am. There are many names you can call Me. Complicated, Loner, Weird, Boring, Selfish and so on. But I like calling Myself Mahaakshay because I know that I am many things and in the same time I am not what people want Me to be.

I don't know what war you are fighting. I don't know what you are going through. I hope someday I do. But until I do, I will pray that you hear that sound too. That you find your Truth too. Trust Me, we all are here for a purpose and we all are unique in our own ways. It doesn't matter what the world calls you. People will always have opinions. Let them talk. Some will do it because they think they are better than you. Some will do it because they care. But trust Me, once that bottle pops, none of those opinions will matter because you will know the one thing that you always wanted to know … the Truth. Trust Me, accepting the Truth is scary. it takes you to a place where you are too afraid to go but before I go I ask you this, do you want to live a life which is based on a lie that you created because you were too afraid or do you want the Truth which will set you free? … The choice is yours …

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

Boyz To Men ...

For the record, I have not heard even one song from the Musical Band Boyz 2 Men but given the way My thoughts are right now, I had to use their name as My Title for this week. Although, I was thinking of "I'm Not A Boy, Not Yet A Man", I thought it would be a complete rip-off of the britney spears song and that is something that I didn't wanted to do. I just heard that Nelson Mandela just got released from the hospital and that he is ok. That is a relief. Mr.Mandela has been one of the greatest men in history and I think that this week's Eye-Catching News section has to be given to Him! This week's Shout-Out Feature goes to the Sport MMA! I know I have said this many-a-times before and I don't mind saying it again. For a while in between, I wasn't able to go for My MMA Classes but this Friday when I was there, oh trust Me! I felt the Animal in Me rise again! Speaking of which, I had My 1st Boys Night Out on Friday too and trust Me, it was one of those, you-live-for-this-kind-of-moments for Me! :-)

And now ... We Begin ... :-)

I am born on the 30th of July 1984. That makes Me at this moment, 27 1/2 Years old. For some, I may be a Senior who they look up to. For some, I may be still a kid. But if you ask Me, I am a Boy, becoming a Man. We all go through that phases. In fact, we go through many phases in our lives. So I think some of you out there will be able to catch My drift here and have a connect with these words. I know right now I am in a transition phase. A phase where I am analyzing and realizing many a things. I am seeking answers to questions I thought I could never ask. I am going to places that I thought I could had never gone too and I am doing things that I thought I didn't have the balls to do. So yes, if you ask Me, I am happy where I am because now, I am becoming more and more aware of everything. I guess for Me, that is one of the billion steps that I will take to finally become a Man. I am not saying that I am super smart or that I am not childish anymore. I know that there are still many traits in Me which make Me a kid. But you know what? Back in the day, I wasn't aware of all those things. But today I am. :-)

I am not saying that I will not mistakes. Of course I will. I will still make stupid mistakes. I will still hurt people, unintentionally or intentionally. I will still be selfish and put Myself and My feelings first. But now, I am in that Phase where I know that I have to take charge. You know, Be Man enough and take whatever comes My way, instead of crying in My room like a little boy, which I have done in the past.  Today, I am the Managing Director of all our Properties. Today, I am in charge of all the Business Transactions My Family does. Today My Voice is valid in the Board of Directors meetings. That really makes Me feel very proud of Myself and sometimes, these things, also make Me feel like a Man! :-)

Boys don't become Men because they know how to catch the sword. They become men because they learn how to use it in battle. I am coming to understand that it is not easy being a Man because being a Man, taking responsibilities is not like Day Care. You gotto take the Hits as much as you like the Kisses. Trust Me, being a Man is not Child's Play! :-) But I am still here because I know that the Clock is ticking. I know that Time won't wait for Me. Fate is giving Me all this to handle now because it knows I can take it. And to be honest, some where, deep down inside of Me, I want it Myself. I am not saying that I am going to be this great Messiah or even think that I am better than the others who are going through what I am going through because of My self-awareness. No. Not at all. I am just telling you My version of the Story.

Before I conclude, all I can say is that I am on the crossroads of Life. And I am still scared. I don't know which Direction I should go. But I do know this that, that Kid in Me who is so petrified to take the Hits, has a Man with Him too, who is Strong enough to stand tall! Maybe a few years down the line, I will tell you how much of a Man I have become but for now, I am happy being this 'transition guy' because I have something I thought I never did ... My Awareness. The question is, are you aware too?

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

A Journey Called Tukkaa Fitt ...

Hello everyone once again. As you know I am a gadget freak and I am writing from my ipad. I got this cool new keyboard for the ipad so the ipad now has become like a laptop as well. So I thought why not give this new gadget a try. Speaking of electronics, I just upgraded My Tata Sky to HD now so watching Dad's Show Dance India Dance on it is pretty cool. As I have mentioned Electronics before I think this week's shout-out feature goes to all the Electronics in the world and to the people who make them! If it wasn't for them I wouldn't had been writing this Blog either! So thank you to all those amazing brains out there who mesmerise us with their ideas and guys, continue doing so! :-) And now the Blog ...

I am just a newcomer and I haven't done that many Movies yet. But whichever Movies I have done have last an amazing impact in My Life. All the Movies have made Me a better person. Have made Me learnt a lot! Have shown Me a new chapter in Life! Tukkaa Fitt is one of those Films. For months now I have been telling you that I am shooting for Tukkaa Fitt but now, I won't because I have finished the Shooting of Tukkaa Fitt and for Me, it has been one of the best experiences of My life! Tukkaa Fitt came to Me in mysterious ways. That story deserves another blog. This Blog is worthy of the things I went through Tukkaa Fitt. It was a very emotional moment for Me when I was shooting the last day of Tukkaa Fitt {TF}. I am usually a very disconnected kind of a person but there was something in Me which felt very sad that it is over. Of course, I will be promoting the Film left, right and centre soon but the feeling of being on the sets is completely different. I must thank all and everyone who was associated with Me in TF.

My first Thanks goes to Premal Goragandhi who was a lovely producer and gave Me all that I wanted and I know that He will do an excellent job showing TF to the world! My director Shawn Arranha is a freakin' genius and I am so blessed to have been under his wing for this film. He is so technically sound and chilled out at the same time that it becomes very easy to understand him. Shawn, love you bro! My co-star Hiten Paintal was always there for Me and we never had any ego issues at all. In fact, we were really like brothers and I know that you will see our chemistry like that on the screen as well. He is so so funny that it is very hard not to laugh at his jokes! Bro, thank you for all the laughs! And My Heroine, the gorgeous Vaishali Desai as been one of the coolest co-stars to work with. I know how patient she has been with Me. Trust Me, I know. She was very understanding and we connected in our thoughts and she went out of her way to be the very best she could had been. Vaishali, it was lovely working with you! You deserve all the happiness in the world! :-)

Please don't take Me wrong. This blog isn't a thank you note. This blog does belong to everyone who was involved in TF. TF is very important for Me because after Haunted, TF will be My 1st Film to release. So yes, My hopes and dreams are attached with it. As actors, we all want to succeed and yes, I wanna succeed too. But before we succeed, we must also be grateful for all that we have. So that is why I am truly grateful to TF for all that it has given to Me. Me telling you that we spent gruelling hours in the sun and sleeping only 5 hours a day to make this Movie complete won't earn Me any brownie points and neither will it make TF a success. In the end, only the Film as a whole will make TF a success. I would love to tell you the story of TF but I can't. All I can say is that it relates to all of us. You know that one moment that changes your life forever. I believe a lot in that and I kinda think that Fate wanted Me to do this Film. I think we all want our Tukkaa to get Fitt! And I hope that when you see TF, you feel the same happiness too! :-) 

The reason I am not the way I am usually in My Blogs because I guess sometimes even guys like Me need to sit back and realise that the Sometimes the destination is not important. The Journey is. I really want TF to succeed because Dreams of many are riding along with it. But I don't know what will happen on that friday. All I can say is that TF was a beautiful journey for Me and it will always be a part of My Life. So to all of you out there, I hope you enjoy Tukkaa Fitt wen it comes out as much as we enjoyed being a part of it! 

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.
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Hi, I Am The Bad Guy ...

These occasions are very rare but I love them! I am right now on the sets of Tukkaa Fitt. We are shooting the Puppy De song and I must say that our Choreographer Arvind is doing a splendid job! Loving every moment being here! As I mentioned earlier, being on a Set is like being in a state of Bliss! I just love working and I wanna work for the rest of My life. Before I get into My Blog, I wanna wish every one a Very Happy Valentine's Day. For those of you who are with someone, may you always be together and those who are single, don't you worry, I know something great is in store for you! Just keep the faith! I have been traveling around so much for these last few days that I hadn't had the time to watch the news and the Puppy De rehearsals have kept Me busy to even sit at home and chill. {which for Me, is a very good thing!} But I have two very special people in My life who I want to dedicate this week's shout-out feature too! Those are My MMA Chief, Somesh Kamra and My Friend/Sister Gunjan. These two people are very important for Me and I love them to death. They are My extended family and I know I can rely on them 24/7. So My friends, thank you so very much for all the love! Love you guys! And now, let's begin …

Imagine a very beautiful sunset, just like a painting. There, you see a Ford Mustang Muscle car parked. Suddenly from the shadows a man comes walking. He is wearing Diesel Jeans, Boots, black t-shirt with a Skull as a design, aviators, leather jacket. You know, the perfect look a guy can carry. He just looks around, sees no one, gets in the car, turns on the ignition and drives towards the sunset. I see Myself as that Guy. There are may reasons for that but the dominating reason is that I know I am going to end being that guy because of the choices that I have to make. There was a beautiful line in 'Matrix Reloaded' when Morpheous said that Everything In Life Begins With A Choice. We all have choices that we have to make. And trust Me, choices aren't easy. I know that first hand because even today, I have to make the toughest of choices. I hardly eat when I am shooting. That is a choice because I wanna look good on screen. I see food left, right and centre but I still hold My ground because I choose too. I again will use The Matrix as a reference here and say that in the end of Matrix Revolutions, when Mr.Smith is beating the shit out of Neo, he asks Neo then why do you still persist? Why don't you give in to the defeat? And all Neo says is, "Because I Choose Too Fight Back!" 

I meet so many people everyday. I send My blogs to so many people and I know that all of them don't like Me. In fact, some of them purely hate Me. They turn bitter the moment they think that I have inflected harm to them and to their feelings. They become rude and start becoming distant. I deal with that shit everyday not because I am suppose, it is because I choose too. I choose greatness and Greatness always requires Sacrifice and sometimes it even demands us to hurt the ones we love the most. I know the consequences of My actions. I know how it feels to be on the receiving end of verbal insults and onslaughts. But I have to do it. I am here to work. To make My name. To strive for excellence. To commit My every breath to My Work. A choice that affects everyone around Me. People say that I am heartless and cold. That I don't care. That I am selfish. Some even say that they wished they never even met Me! You know what? I am ok with that. I am ok with being the bad guy. I don't mind being the villain. I don't mind being the Lone Wolf because I know what I have to do. I know what I have to choose. And trust Me, even if I have to live this life all over again, I would still make the same choices because it is for those choices that I have come this far.

I am not saying that I am better than you or that I am a machine or a monster. All I am saying is that I am ok with whatever you throw at Me. I have been called many things but I am still standing here. When we toss a coin we have to choose a side. We can't choose heads and tails both. So I know that when I choose Greatness over Love, I will achieve Greatness but I am going to be the guy who drives alone towards the Sunset. It is the way it is meant to be. If that makes Me a Bad Guy in your eyes, then so be it but I made a promise to Myself that as long as I am alive, I will live a life of Greatness. This is My life and My own choices have gotten Me so far. I didn't stop before. I won't stop now. This Blog isn't an out lash of My Anger at all. All I wanna say is that if you choose your choices with 100% honesty, then stick to them and don't be afraid of the consequences. It is a written fact that not everyone will agree with your choices. As I said, some may even make you the Bad Guy for it. But stick to your choices come what may because we only have one life to live, live it according to you. The way you want it. Maybe one day you will see a Ford Mustang driving towards the Sunset and maybe that guy would be Me. And maybe, just maybe, if you are lucky you will get to see that I would be smiling because I stood by My Choices. I stood tall. I chose to be the Bad Guy. So the question is that next time if someone says, You Are a Heartless Bastard, will you take it as the end of the world or will you say, "I Don't Mind Being The Bad Guy" … 

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.