Friday, 13 September 2013

The Fire Rises ...

"We All Have The Power To Reach Greatness. We All Have The Power To Move Fountains And Change The World. It Is Because We All Have The Fire Within."

-Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

I am home today. I was supposed to do My Legs Workout at 48 Fitness followed by Ground Work Mma in the evening at One Fitness. But because of the Ganapati Visarjan I couldn't do neither. But can a festival stop me from my training? No, it can't. Because I remember My Dad telling me once, "Mahaakshay, if the mountain doesn't come to you, You go to it!" Meaning, that if you wanna train, you will find a way to train. Simple as that. No excuses. So what I did instead was an Hour of Cardio with My Training Mask followed by my own Home Mma Training. And maybe after writing this blog, I will again go to the gym for an hour and blast my Shoulders, Arms and Abs. Athletes train for 9 hours a day. Right now, I only train for 6 hours. In their eyes, I know I am still ranked as a 'Pussy'. I know. Many of you all will say that I am doing more than required and some may even tag my routine today as 'Overtraining' but trust me, with the way I am eating my eggs and chicken, I know my muscles are only getting better. Not bitter. No. I am not writing this blog to 'show-off' my traits or any of that bull shit. I am trying to explain to you that in every man's life a moment comes. And that moment comes when you least expect it too. And once you realise that you have been 'hit' by that moment, you know your life will never be the same again. 'Cause this moment, this energy engulfs you, consumes you and it lights up something inside of you. A Power you thought which never existed before. And then, at that moment, you know there is no going back to 'normal' because at that moment your soul is finally awakened and then ... The Fire Rises !!!

"Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have - life itself."
Just the other day I was at 48 Fitness and one of the Gym Instructors over there, who I exchange Hi's and Hello's with came up to me and asked, "Mahaakshay, how do you train everyday? I mean, don't you go out and meet your friends and have a social life?" And I just smiled at him and told him a small story. I was in America for my Acting Course 10 years ago. My Dad was along with me. All my class mates were elder to me. I was turning 19 back then and my peers were all above the 21 age limit, so every night they used to go and party and next day they would come and tell me stories of how much fun they had the previous night and the girls they got hooked up with and alcohol they drank and the way they danced. On one such night, I was alone in my room and all my 'hoomies' were out painting the town red. Dad noticed how sad I was so he came up to me and told me something which changed my life forever and I, till today, take those lines as an inspiration. He told me, "Mahaakshay, I know you are sad and I know you wanna be out there with your friends having a great time. I have friends here and they can make a 'Fake' ID for you and I will allow you to go with them. But before you decide that, I wanna give you two choices. Choice 1 is the obvious in which you go out and party and 'Live The Moment' and in return you will only waste your time and effort and energy you have put in the course. And Choice 2 is that you wait here, alone, cry even in despair but devote your every breath to your training and your course and make yourself so great that one day the world waits for you to enter a party!" Those words echo in my ears even today like it was just yesterday. And even though there have been times when I have felt like quitting, I believe it was those words which ignited the Fire Within me. So now, I don't care if I have a social life or not. All I know is that there is this great power within me and it makes me Burn. It makes Me Burn Bright!

"The way for a young man to rise is to improve himself in every way he can, never suspecting that anybody wishes to hinder him."
Yesterday, I think I saw The Dark Knight Rises for the 10th time on Blu-Ray. I didn't just watch it because it is a great film, I saw it for the message it gave. We all know that Bane was awesome in the film and if given a chance I would love to play a Character with so much of Power. But what made him great wasn't his ruthlessness or his Muscles. It was Bane's conviction which in my eyes made him so great! You see, if you see closely in his eyes, he had this pure conviction of what he was doing was right and just. He had a Fire Within Him. A Fire which couldn't be put out. Whatever the medium of his Fire was. Whether it was love, hatred or even vengeance, he was burning bright with it and that is why he couldn't be stopped. I feel some how like that too. That now, after all these years, I can't be stopped. I am not competing with anyone else, I am competing with only myself and trust me, it isn't easy. Every night, I face my nightmares when I am alone with my thoughts, thoughts which don't let me sleep. Thoughts of fear and failure and loss of hope. Every day I go to war with myself, when I head to the gym and listen to 'Stupify' to psyche myself up. Every day I face challenges when I hit the weights because I know I need to out perform myself, I need to give my 100% every time I am having a Mma Class. Every moment I am faced with a choice, whether to do extra rep or give up. But I am here, still alive and still strong to face what Fate has in stored for me. I am here because I know the Fire Within Me has Risen and I know now it can't be put out. I know I can't be stopped. I know I will never stop.
"Everyting negative - pressure, challenges - is all an opportunity for me to rise."
As I had mentioned earlier in one of my previous blogs that every choice in life has a 'Pro' and 'Con' affect. It is upto us to wager which choice gives us what and then choose. I know The Fire Within me burns bright now. But sadly all whom I know don't relate to that. I won't take names or give their examples because I don't wanna be tagged as the Little Bitch who uses blogs to express his emotions and hurt. Trust me, people don't appreciate that. Instead of understanding why I am doing that, they say I don't have the balls to tell them in person. Weird, isn't it? Anyways, as I was saying, people don't get it. They categorise me as a Monster or the Arrogant Asshole or just plain Insane.They don't see The Fire Within 'cause till now, their Fire hasn't been burnt yet. They carry on with their lives and do the things they are 'programmed' to do instead of thinking out of the box and devoting their lives to a particular cause. Sadly the only 'cause' I have seen people doing is trying to 'Fit In' instead of Standing Out. And trust me, that really breaks my heart. To see people just waste their lives away, when they can do so much with it! That is the reason I wanna go to Los Angeles next year and join the UFC Gym over there. Don't get me wrong, I am an Actor and I love to Work and I will be at the Movie Sets within a Heart Beat when the time comes. But until it does, I wanna be around people who are as passionate as me and people who understand this fire, 'cause they have this fire within them too. People who motivate me, push me harder and tell me that I am not alone in this journey. People who have the same conversations as me. People who know what it feels like to Fight Your Own Reflection. Right now, I only see Sport Channels, {excluding Sony Six} which only show Cricket. I agree, it is our Nation's Greatest Sport but come on! On every sports channel! All The Time!!! I just hope that in the future our nation starts encouraging other sports and it's athletes besides Cricket. But until that day comes, I wanna be surrounded by people who walk the same path as mine. Who have a burning desire within them to change themselves and to achieve greatness. Who stop at nothing. Whether it is hot, cold, raining, snowing or even armageddon, they just never stop pursuing their goals. Who always keep The Fire Within Them Burning Bright !!!

"The most glorious moments in your life are not the so-called days of success, but rather those days when out of dejection and despair you feel rise in you a challenge to life, and the promise of future accomplishments."
No, I won't send an email of this blog. I won't send it to the celebrities on twitter. This blog only deserves one tweet-a-day 'cause I have understood my place now and I have understood what I have to do. I am not here to plead or beg for people's affections. I am here for only one thing. To make myself the better version of Me, every single day. And that won't happen by me asking for people's approvals and their comments on my blogs and their retweets. It will happen by my actions. It will happen through the hours of blood, sweat and tears which I will devote to the gym. It will happen by being more quiet and sacrificing the norms of society to stand out. Now, The Fire Within Me has Risen and I know it won't stop. Before I did everything to prove a point to the world. To be noticed by it. And to put others down. Before I had vengeance in my heart and hatred for my competitors. But now, I have the Drive to become the Better Version Of Me. To make my Parents proud. For my coach to come and hug me and say that, "You Did Good Mahaakshay! You Gave Them One Hell Of A Fight!" Now I only see the man in the mirror 'cause he is my best friend and he is my most fierce competitor. Now, The Fire Rises within me! And I burn bright! And I know that everyday won't be all roses and sunshine for me. I know I will have my shitty days too when fear will win. When I will be grumpy and moody. But I know that those days will only come and go but The Fire Within Me will stay. And I hope that each and every individual on this planet has The Fire Within them also! That unstoppable force within them which is so strong that it can't be stopped. That is can't be controlled. That one day, we all become the best versions of ourselves. That one day we all fight for a purpose, or we die trying 'cause it is always an honour to die with your head held high then to live a life with it bowed down.

"If you fall behind, run faster. Never give up, never surrender, and rise up against the
This is Me Mahaakshay Chakraborty and within me, The Fire Rises!

With All My Might,

Your No.1 Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

"If You Wanna Be As Bright As The Sun, You Must First Burn Like The Sun!"

-Mithun Chakraborty.