Sunday, 25 December 2011

The Things That I Have To Do ...

"Doc, is this gonna hurt? You will feel a burning sensation. It will sting. And yes, I am increasing the intensity. Why doc? Well, Mahaakshay because I know you can take it. Yes doc. So, shall we? Yes doc. Let's begin the procedure."

Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to My World. You know, in My life, there is one word which is very commonly used by Me. And that is Irony. No matter how hard I try and fight for acceptance, people never see the process, they never see the struggle, they never see the fights. They only see the Cars, the Clothes, the Watches and they say, "Look at him, he doesn't have to try hard, he has got it easy." But today, I will give you a glimpse of My World. Trust Me, it is not easy being Me. I am on the job 24/7. There is no OFF day for Me. I follow a strict diet everyday which consist of only plain food. Whether it's Salads or Soups or sometimes just juices. I have a tendency to put on Weight very fast so I have to be super cautious of what I eat. And I have a major water retention problem which terrifies Me because the Water gets stored in the Face and in our industry, our Face is what sells. So I have to wake up three hours before the world wakes up and go for my morning Run and 1,000 jumps with the Skipping Rope everyday when I am Shooting. There are No Cheat Days for Me no matter how much I get tempted by the food. For a guy like Me, even a simple Dal, Bhaji is tempting. But because I am a junior here, all the Seniors eat all the sweets and the junk food in front of Me and no one has the guts to tell them anything but these same seniors taunt Me and make fun of Me even if I look at Food. In that fear, I don't even eat food with them. Whenever I am Shooting I make sure I always eat My Food in the Vanity Van even though I know that I shouldn't be affected by their talks. But what can I do, I am insecure. I am scared all the time because after so many years I have earned My right to be here. And I can't see Myself without it. You have no idea what all I have sacrificed to be here. I have sacrificed friends, people who cared for Me, people who loved Me and wanted to be with Me. I pushed everyone away from Me and today, I know I am empty from inside because I feel this emptiness. There are times when I feel "feelings" but they only last for a moment and then, they disappear. I let go of everything and everyone because I knew that no matter how much it gave Me pain, I had to do those things ...

In today's world, where six packs abs are considered to be "Talents" there is no place for imperfects. So for Me, it is a battle 24/7. The reason I do MMA is because it is the toughest sport out there and it takes out the best in Me and that helps Me relax.But along side it, I make sure that I do a lot of Running, skipping, sports like squash and also Swimming. I have more than 6 calendars at Home and on every calendar I have different markings. One is for My Weight, one is for My measurements, one is for keeping track on My Diet Days and so on … But all this is what I do. But trust Me, no matter how much I do, there is always that little extra which is necessary too. And that is where I need help and thanks to My Friend Anu, I found that help in the form of Dr.Rashmi. She is one of the best out there and today, whatever I am, how ever I look, it is because of the Treatments she gives Me. Mostly every celebrity and Model goes to her but I am not here to tell you about them. I am here to tell you that I am not afraid to say that I take help in looking like an Actor. She herself is a very low profile person and she never asks for any attention but I think she deserves her due. I remember, it was the year 2005 and I met her for the 1st time and she said that I am still too young for any kind of treatment. So she sent Me back and told Me to come to her after a year and 10kgs lesser. I did just that and from that day, when she started Treating Me, to this day, I go to her once every month for My Treatments. She helps Me looks better whether it is through injections, facials or skin tightening treatments. She always tells Me that, "Mahaakshay, are you sure you wanna do this?" And I say, "This is who I am doc and I have no other choice. This is what is required from Me. This is what i have to do." I have realized that after a point of time, Pain becomes the only thing that keeps you alive. Trust Me, I have tried, I have tried so hard to fit it. To be "normal" but I guess, "normal" is not cut out for Me. I guess the things I do has made Me something I wasn't expecting to become. People and their life styles don't interest Me anymore. Only when I am on a Movie Set, only when I do MMA do I feel I belong somewhere. Do I feel alive. I guess this is who I am now ...

So you see My friends, this is what I call irony because I Work for Food and Food is something that I can't afford to eat. Don't take Me wrong. I am not complaining. I love this business and because I wanna stay here and I want to succeed, I will do anything and everything to be here. I don't mind the starvation or the injections or the taunts or the humiliation. As I said in My last blog, I wanna die with My Make-Up On. Those Words still stand tall for Me. I am in a very happy place in My Life. They year 2011 has been very productive for Me. This was the year when I got my own Identity. People now call Me Haunted Film Ka Hero. That is Bliss for Me. Hearing Daughtry's New Album Break The Spell right now is Bliss for Me. The reason I told you all the above is I want you to know that It is not always all flowers for Me. With every flower, I get a few thorns too. Through My Blogs, I just wish that one day the world sees Me for the person that I am and what all I have to do to become the Man the World wants Me to be. Yes, I am an Actor and yes, I consider Myself as a Public Servant. I am at the disposal of the Audience, of the Fans and I owe it to them to be the best version of Myself, every single day. I am not telling you to have sympathy on Me. I am not even telling you to care. All I am asking from you is to Understand. Understand that I am not a bad human being. I am just misunderstood. That sometimes, there is more to Me than the Clothes I wear or the car I drive. That I am Human too ...

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

Monday, 19 December 2011

I Want To Die With My Make-Up On ...

Hello everyone. First things first. I am a very punctual guy and I know how important deadlines are. I always write My Blogs on a Sunday but I couldn't last night as I was coming back Home from Hyderabad. Yes, I have wrapped up the Shooting of ENEMMY. We only have a few days left here in Mumbai. TUKKAA FITT and ENEMMY both have been amazing experiences for Me and I hope you all feel the same way too. The weekly round-up would be that the Action Scenes in ENEMMY took a serious tool on Me as we were Shooting for more than 16 hours a day. But thanks to everyone's dedication, we pulled it off. And the "Mahaakshay's Eye Catch News" is that North Korea's KCNA refers to Kim Jong Un the son of Kim Jong II as the Great Successor to the Revolutionary Cause. Hmm, wonder what I would had done with power like that! And My "Shout-Out" this week goes to My TUKKAA FITT Co-Stars, Vaishali Desai and Hitan Paintal as they both celebrated their Birthdays this week. My Love and respect to both you. You guys are gems and you deserve all the happiness in the world! :-) And now, Blog Time! :-)

Life. It is beautiful, isn't it? It is also weird and strange. But it is truly amazing! Can you believe a fat kid with huge glasses on would one day be an Actor in the Indian Film Industry? I was suppose to go to NASA. I wanted to be an Astronomer and I was getting ready for My Exams for the Internship in NASA. But life had other plans for Me. I remember I was doing My course at the New York Film Academy and we were shooting in an abandoned prison. One of the directors used Me as an extra. I was one of the crazy inmates and the camera just passes through Me. It was a One Take OK Shot. But what happened to Me after that was the Bliss I felt. After that moment I just knew, I knew from the bottom of my heart that this is where I belong! That day was in July in the year 2003 and nothing has changed ever since. I still feel that bliss whenever I put My Make-up On. Whenever I hear Action and Cut. This Place. This Industry. This is Heaven for Me. This is where I belong. This is where I wanna die. Take my last breath with My Make-up on. I know when that happens, I will surely die with a Smile. I will die in peace. There are many few who are blessed to do what they Love, every single day. And I know I am one of them. :-)

I remember it was 2006. Amitabh Uncle wasn't well. So, Me and Dad had gone to see him. And that same point My Film's Launch was happening. I met Uncle and He blessed Me and it was truly an Honor to be in his presence. The moment we where about to leave, Abhishek Bhai met us and greeted us with love. After a while he took Me aside and told Me something I will never forget. He said, "Mahaakshay, welcome to the Industry. I am glad you are a part of it. And take it from Me, there will be many people who will try to break you down. You don't let them. You Fight back and never stop Fighting! Give this Industry all that you have and take whatever it gives you. The good and the bad because only then will you become the man that you want to be!" He was so true and today, whenever I am low, I remember his words and they charge Me up because those words remind Me who I am and what I am fighting for! I know that in My last blog I was pissed and angry and hurt. Well, what can I say, I'm only Human. But you see, that is what makes Life so interesting. One day, I am angry and the next day I am dancing like crazy! I guess this is all a plan of Fate showing us the way. Making us realize what is truly worth fighting for. Take it from Me, it is not easy being Me for this Industry is a place where everyone is out to eat each other and take the other person's spotlight. My Brother, Rimoh told Me a very beautiful thing recently. He said, "Bhai, In Our Industry, even on the Sets of a Movie, everyone hates each other or dislike each other. But no matter how much they hate or despise each other, they come together because of their love for the Movies!". And yes, He is so true! I have seen everything and even till today I see all that. I see how 'Stars' or 'Seniors' get more attention. I have been treated like a nobody even when I was worth of a Somebody. I have seen how the press gives the other guy more attention than I am getting. I see people taking autographs and photographs of others when I am standing with them. And trust Me, it does hurt. It hurts like hell! But in the end, after all those tears dry up, I am still fighting. I am still smiling.Do you know why? It's because in the end, all I have is Love for My Work for this is the only place I know, where all My dreams will come true!

As Tom Hanks said in the Movie Forrest Gump. "Life is like a box of chocolates. You don't know which you will get when." That is how I see My Life. That is how I see My Work Place. It is filled with everything. The Pros and the cons. But when you know, without a shadow of a doubt that this is what you want, you take all the hits. You just suck it up, accept the pain, become stronger and stand up for round:2! As a human being. As a boy who is becoming a man. As the guy who has to carry on the Chakraborty legacy, I have many responsibilities, expectations and pressures. Sometimes, it is people talking behind My back or people making fun of Me or some washed up critic writing shit about Me or even maybe some girl who rejected My offer to take her out on a date! I go through various emotions everyday but trust Me, the moment I am called for My Shot. When I am in front of the camera. When the lights are on Me, I forget the outside world and something in Me switches ON! I feel alive and then suddenly, everything in the world makes sense. I start smiling and blushing and I only feel happiness! 

So right now, as I am writing this Blog, I know that all My battles and hardships are worth it because in the end this is where I want to be! In the end, I want to die with My Make-Up On. There is no other place I wanna be. As My readers, I really wish and pray that you find what you are looking for. That you also find your bliss like I have found Mine. Some dreams are worth Fighting for and remember, Dreams are only beautiful when you wake up and make them come true. I am doing that as we speak. I hope you do too. 

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

Tuesday, 13 December 2011

Your Questions, My Answers ...

Hello everyone. I know I am very very late with My Blog entry. I usually write every sunday but this sunday, My Family came from Mumbai to spend time with Me here in Hyderabad so I thought I should be with them. Yesterday, to be honest, I was just not in the mood and today for many reasons more than one, I was just too damn pissed to take out time and write. I, in fact, wrote 2 pages in My Diary and tried to vent out My Hate. I don't know whether it worked or not. I usually do weekly round-ups and shout-out features but this week, I am not in the right frame of mind to do anything. In fact, I am gong to use this Blog Space to vent out some more of My Anger and try to Answer some questions that are regularly thrown at Me even without My consent. So this time, It Is Your Questions And My Answers ...

Q1. Why are you so Serious all the time and take everything on Face Value?
Ans1. Well, it is not easy being Me. Ask Me what all I go through everyday. The expectations. The taunts. The insults. The opinions. Just because I keep quiet doesn't mean you can say whatever you want. But you see, people don't understand that. They think that just because they have more experience than you and just because they 'care' for you, they have the right to say whatever they want! Like for example, I changed My twitter pic a few days ago. It was completely My Choice. I did it because I wanted too. Not because I was fetching compliments. But one follower tweets Me, you know, I liked the last one better! I mean, hello! When did I ask you for your opinion? I wear a shirt and people say, this doesn't suit you. I make a certain hair style and people say, you still don't have the Star Look. I do this, I get taunted. I do that and I get scoldings. So you see, I have to be serious all the time. I have no time to chill and take it easy because I know that at any given moment, some 'experienced' person is going to threw their view point on Me.

Q2. Why don't you have any friends?
Ans2. Oh trust Me, I have asked this question to Myself so many times! But I just don't get it. People at the start are so nice and are so caring. But as time goes by, they show their true colors and then, they don't call, they don't message and they don't even care whether you are dead or alive. I have tried man! I have really tried to be a good friend. Without fail, I will message My so-called friends everyday wishing them good morning and how was your day. But you see, they are very busy people. In fact, they are the only ones who are busy and they are too caught up in their work. And if luck is on My side and they do pick up My call, they are half the time doing some other activity or watching Master Chef Australia! So you see, there is a reason I don't have friends. They have let Me down more than a billion times.

Q3. Why can't you let go?
Ans3. I think I answered that in My last blog. I have a lot of Hate in Me and trust Me, even today, every day I go out there and fight a new war with the world because the world will never quit throwing their opinions at Me. I know one reader who said, you have to love and let go, only then will you find peace. Uhm, excuse Me! Are you in My shoes? I don't think so! Did I ask for your advice? No! I didn't! Let Me be the way I am. I am alone and I love being alone! Why can't that be easy to understand? !?!

Q4. Why don't you like Long Drives and typing LOL and HHMMM and dislike the words Yaar and Dude?
Ans4. The reason I don't like long drives because I don't understand the point! I mean, come on! You are making Me waste so much of fuel! And if I am driving, how the hell will I talk to you? And yes, I don't get it that after every sentence, why in the bloody hell, do people type LOL! I mean, what is so damn funny that you have to Laugh Out Loud? And yes, I really, from the bottom of My heart hate the word HHmmm. I mean, what in the bloody hell does it freakin' mean? I still don't have the answer to that! There is something called English you know. And when it comes to Yaar and Dude, trust Me, I am not a Yaar and neither a Dude. I am just too happy being called by My Name. And guess what I have 2 Names to choose from! One is Mimoh and the other is Mahaakshay!

Q5. Why are you so moody and have such a huge ego?
Ans5. Well, you see, I am still very much human. There are days when I am happy and there are days when I am sad. I can't live according to the will of others. Though with the way things are, I now have no choice but to listen to others and let go off the things that make Me happy because I am only 27 and I have no knowledge of life what so ever!  I do MMA twice a day with 100% dedication and all I get is that you should cut down on your Training because now you are looking like a wrestler and you see, that is not the trend nowadays. You see Mimoh, there will be plenty of time to do everything else. Now, you should just concentrate on your career! Hello! What the hell am I been doing for the last 3 years? And I have an ego? Hello! Correction! The last time I called, you didn't pick up because you were too busy replying to Tweets or writing a new one!

If I continue, there will be a billion more questions from where this is all coming from. But I think I have bored you guys enough. Trust Me, I am not looking for self-sympathy or any attention. I publish My Blogs on the web. I send it to over 200 people via email and I don't know or even care whether they open it and read it or not. All I know is that sometimes, these so-called expectations and opinions and pressures get to Me and believe it or not, I am Human too and all I want is to live My life My way with My rules. Good or bad, I wanna learn and I wanna live. As The Hulk keeps on saying, "All I Want Is To Be Left Alone". That is exactly what I want! I wanna wake up everyday, go to Work and then coe back Home. That is all I want without the world telling Me what to do! I know tomorrow is a new day with new opportunities and a new hope and trust Me, no matter how hard things get, I will never stop the giving because only through the giving will I be given. I am not telling you to care. All I ask is for you to understand.

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

Sunday, 4 December 2011

To Let Go Or Not To let Go ...

Hello everyone. Sorry for the late entry. I have been Shooting for ENEMMY everyday, for more than 12 hours a day. But I'm loving every bit of it! It is a high-octane ride to work with KK! As My brother says, he is an Actor, not a Product like so many out there. I hope I remain an Actor too! Yesterday, Dev Saab expired. The world will never be the same. He is truly a Legend and will always be! May His Soul Rest In Peace. Last week, I heard that Sharad Pawar got slapped. Well, that was in a way a good thing, right? I mean, I'm hearing people praising that fact and also diminishing it. And as you know that I do a weekly round-up every week, From this week onwards, there will also be a 'Shout-Out' feature. I start the Shout-Out feature by giving a Shout-Out to My co-star and and dear friend Tia Bajpai. Her film LANKA will be releasing soon and I wish her the very best for it! She deserves all the success in the world and we both shared the same Dreams during Haunted and I love her for that! Now, Blog Time …

To Let Go Or Not To Let Go. Every week when I post a Blog I get comments from people with different view points. One of the reader's said that I am a very Boring Person. The other one said that you are too locked up. You are not enjoying life, not living the moment. You just have to let go man! Well, I am open to all view points as My Blog is My view point. I have gone through Blogs of many different people as well and some are hilarious filled with humor while others are on day to day lives. My Blogs are My expressions. A part of Me that I can express with the world. A part of Me which I hope, one day, the world will understand. So no matter how many times I hear people calling Me boring and that I am too locked up, I can never let go of what I have been through. Of the things I have seen. Of the feelings I have left because everyday when I wake up, the past reminds Me how I got here. Sometimes, it gives me strength to fight back. Sometimes, it breaks Me down with insecurity. People say, never live in your past. It has gone and it is never coming back. But now I ask you a question. Can you let go? Can you really let go of all that Pain and Insults and people laughing at you? Can you let go of all those tears that rolled down your cheeks when you realized that there is no one who understands you and that you are all alone. Can you let go of all the things people said and when they made fun of you and your family? I ask you, can you really let go? Well, if you ask Me, I can't and I will NEVER let go.

This is not Vengeance. This is just Anger. And sometimes, even Anger becomes Will. A Will that becomes an unstoppable force of nature. A will that can move mountains. A will that makes you wake up 05:00am in the morning and be in the Gym by 06:00am. A Will that tells you to Starve so that you can look leaner for your next Film. A Will that makes you sacrifice all your friends and the girl you liked because you know that you are on a Mission. A Mission to prove to all those people that you are much better than they thought you were. I have heard people telling Me that the Greatest Battle we fight is with ourselves and we should prove to ourselves that we are the best. To be honest, I take all that as hypocritical bullshit because all we want to do is show the other person that we are better than him or her. Not to ourselves! I am not telling you to always be angry and have a frown on your face and be rude to people and yell at them. I am telling you to live your lives to the fullest and find happiness wherever you go. All I am saying is that never let go because sometimes that Pain reminds you who truly are. As the words from the Film, Colombiana were, "Never Forget Where You Are Coming From." I urge you to never forget because sometimes we do get overwhelmed by our accomplishments and the love and adoration people give us. We tend to forget our past. We somehow loose the Hunger. Let go of that Anger. That Anger that brought you where you are right now. 

You see, sometimes Anger is a good thing. It has worked for Me and still does. One bad remark from a person pisses Me off and makes Me run and extra kilometer at 12kmph! And in the same way, when someone compliments Me, the images from my past come flashing in front of My eyes and remind Me where I am coming from, which also makes Me run that extra kilometer! I have many things to achieve and I know I won't stop until I make all my dreams come true. Yes, I know that I am boring and that I am too locked up. To be honest, I don't care because I know that in order to reach where I have to, I have to have Anger, I have to have the Will to use My Anger as My tool of Strength and make it My weapon. Maybe someday when I reach where I want too I will take a deep breath and exhale and let go of all this anger inside of Me. But until then, I have many people to defeat. I have many things to prove and I have many things to over come. Love didn't work for Me. I guess Anger will.

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

Sunday, 27 November 2011

We All Have Our Own Battles To Fight ...

Hey guys. I hope you don't mind Me greeting you with 'hey guys' every time. To be honest, I don't know what other way to start the Blog. Thank you for all the love and appreciation you all give Me every week. It really means a lot to Me. Writing these Blogs every week has truly become a part of My life and I will try My best to do the best I can, every week. I am right now in Hyderabad and we are Shooting Enemmy here. Before My PR Avantika Sinha from Soapbox messages Me and shouts at Me, "Don't tell much about the Film, let Me use it as a PR Activity!", I will just say that I am having a great
time being on the Sets with Superstars like Suniel Shetty, Johnny Lever and My Dad. I will surely keep you posted more on Enemmy as the days go by. And since there is a lack of 3G Network here, I am not in touch with the world out there, so I have little knowledge as to what is happening out there. Hope all is well. And now, Blog Time! :-)

We All Have Our Own Battles To Fight. I have mentioned that line many a times in My previous Blogs but I guess with the circumstances those words deserve an entire blog! There are 7 billion people on this planet and no matter how different we may be from one another, we have one thing in common. Fighting. Whether it is for survival, recognition or even love, we are fighting all the time. Consciously or not, our bodies and the soul and the mind are in a constant fight with the world. Some days we loose, some days we win. But all I know that it is a never ending struggle. Whether we like or not. Let Me give you an example. As Actors we have so many things that we have to do. So many things that we have to take care of. Whether it is our Diet, our Clothes, the way we talk, eat or even sleep. We are on the job 24/7. There is no "Off Day" for us. And in the end, no matter how much we give, there is someone out there who always tells us that we are not giving enough.

One of My friends, who after reading My last blog told Me that I am not what I write in My blog. That I am giving a wrong perception to people that I am this noble, kind hearted soul who likes to preach, when I am this selfish, self-centered prick who only thinks about himself! Even though I was hurt by what My friend said, I knew that was the truth. But what My friend didn't realize that I have to do what I have to do. I go to war everyday with Myself, everyday with the circumstances I am put into, the people I have to deal with, the choices I have to make, the sacrifices that I have to do. That is something My friend and the world will never understand, just as I won't understand My friend's problems or even the world's. But I still write and spread these words because a part of Me, which is, in a way, good likes to do so. Please, do not take this blog as a self-defense or self-sympathy verdict of Mine. I am not trying to prove anything. All I am saying is that no matter how hard you try, no matter how many people you are dependent on, no one will understand your pain because they are not in your shoes. It's not like they don't care, they do, they really do and they really wanna help you and be there for you but trust Me, it doesn't help because only you are the master. Only you hold the key. As the words from Never Back Done were, "Remember, no matter how it ends, you hold the outcome." 

I am not trying to put you down or depress you. I am just trying to open your eyes to the truth. The truth, which, in fact we all know but don't wanna admit too. We, as human beings have the power to move mountains but in the same time be destroyed by the slightest ounce of weakness. I agree that man is a social animal and we all need each other. But being dependent on others won't make your problems go away. You only have that power. You, you and only You. The day you realize that you are alone that is the day when everyone will come to you automatically. Accepting and embracing are two very different things. So I tell you to embrace this truth! Embrace it and make it your own and see how strong you become! As I said earlier, we win some, we loose some. Not everyday is a smooth ride. But knowing that you alone are dealing with whatever is coming your way will make you more powerful than even The Hulk!  I am not saying it is easy. Trust Me, there are times when I have broken down too. When I have sat alone in My Room and cried for hours. But this is the only way you will become the person you were born to be! 

Even right now, as I am writing this blog, I have a million thoughts going through My head. Some which give Me joy, some which give Me pain. But I know that as long as I accept whatever comes My way, that I keep on doing what I am doing with 100% dedication, everything is going to be alright 'cause when you are alone, all you have is your hope, faith and yourself! So don't give up My friends. Don't feel bad that you have to fight your fight all by yourself. Don't be afraid to be left out alone because sometimes only when you are alone, do you find yourself. 

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story. 

Sunday, 20 November 2011

We Are Who We Are ...

Hello again My Friends. Hope all is well with you guys. Me? I am doing great Myself too. ENEMMY is about to begin. So I am pretty excited! Will surely keep you posted on that. We just finished Shooting the Climax of TUKKAA FITT and now, we only have some Scenes and 2 Songs remaining. Can't believe we finished it so fast! The Climax was a lot of fun as the entire Star Cast was there in it! It was a pleasure working and interacting with Mukesh Tiwari! That man is so educated! And I had a gala time Shooting with Mukul Dev too. You have to see his Mimicry. He is too good in that! And also, the surprise packet was Vaisahli Desai! You will get to see her kick some villain butts too! And heard Gadafi's Son got found. Guess the wicked can't hide much now. Can they? And now, the Blog ... :-)

WE ARE WHO WE ARE. Well, you music fans must be thinking I will start writing down Kesha's Lyrics here. But no. Although I love that Song and have danced on it several times, this Blog isn't about that Song. But it is, about You, Me and US. I have done a course on Behavioral Psychology and so, I tend to absorb people a lot through default. And in our Movie Industry, you get to work with over a hundred people a day! And as I have absorbed, we humans are truly unique 'cause even though we may have many traits in common, there is always that 'something' which makes us different from the rest. :-)

I have also absorbed Myself, along the course of My entire existence and only lately have I come to the conclusion that no matter how hard I try to change, I will always be who I am. That, My origins will never change. That underneath all the rules and regulations and responsibilities and the norms of society, I will always be who I am. But the question is who am I? Who are you? Well, that My friends, is a path we have to take ourselves. No teacher, no friend or family can tell you who you really are. Except your soul or your conscious. Your inner voice, you know, the one which keeps on talking to you, the one which keeps on telling you to do the right thing, even though it must be the toughest thing to do, that is Who You Really Are! :-)

I always thought that I was mis-treated by My friends in school. That I was always the fat kid. That I always was the odd one out, that I would always be alone and because people made Me feel that way, I tried to change Myself. Whether it was My looks, My dressing style or even the way I talked. At first, it worked. It earned Me a lot of love and respect and attention. I got a lot friends and even women started giving Me attention. And I also liked it. I thought, "Hey, this really works. I was such a loser back in the day!" But as the moments passed, I started to feel more and more emptier. I started to feel unreal. I started to feel like someone else entirely. And then one day, when I saw Myself in the mirror, I couldn't recognize Myself. The man who I saw wasn't Me. But a person who had lost His true beliefs. Who had lost his morals and virtues. That is the day I realized who I truly was. And then suddenly, I became quiet.

I went back to My old self, to My true self. And as that happened, I saw all My friends disappear one by one. People started ignoring Me and they also stopped calling Me to their gatherings. This of course gave Me a lot of pain but in the same time showed Me the truth. It showed Me who My friends were and more importantly, who I truly was. Even though I felt that gap of knowing to not knowing people, underneath Me, I felt at peace. Something in Me was in harmony with Me. Something in Me was happy. :-)

Today, touchwood, I am one of the happiest guys alive! I have everything that I have asked for and each day only gets better. And this is only because I accepted who I was. I must admit, at first, it is very scary to know the truth. But the truth sets you free and then, all you have is peace. Try it. We all deserve to be true to ourselves. You can lie to all the 7 billion people in the planet but you can't lie to yourself. No matter how much you try. You may not be perfect. Hell! I know I am not perfect! There are more minuses in Me than pluses but at least I am free. At least I know who I truly am! Take this from Me, society will try to change you, will tell you, mostly all the time that you are wrong and that what you do is wrong. But society doesn't make you or break you. It is YOU who defines Yourself!

Don't be afraid to be who you are. The ones who truly love you will love you, no matter how you are. They will always be with you because they saw the Real You. Finding yourself is a tough task, I know. The Path is filled with Darkness and sometimes, you have to fight your own demons to get to salvation. But don't be afraid of the Darkness because only in the Darkness Can You See The Light. I am who I am. And every moment I am proud to Be! The question is ... Are You? :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story. :-)

Saturday, 12 November 2011

Do We Really Care?

Hi guys. Yes, this week the blog entry comes early. It is because tomorrow onwards, I start Shooting the Climax of TUKKAA FITT and I know it is going to be very grueling and will demand all of My Energy, so clearly I won't have time for anything. And I don't wanna keep you guys waiting. Plus, today I am Home Alone since Dad is in Kolkata and the Family has gone for the Movies. I figured this is the best time! Before we begin, the usual Weekly Round-Up. I shot for ENEMMY a couple of days ago. I am playing a Cop in it and the feeling of Working with My Director Ashu Trikkha was amazing! ENEMMY goes full throttle ahead very soon. I will surely keep you posted on that. I also heard that Eddie Murphy won't be hosting the Oscars. Another funny man, Billy Crystal has taken His place. Will surely wait for the Oscars next year. And LOOT faired very well in the small centers. We will be breaking even, all thanks to you guys. And guess what, all those who slammed the film and sent Me and the Film hate tweets are now agreeing with the same thing. Touch wood to that! And now, we begin ...

DO WE REALLY CARE? Well, here is why I chose those words as a topic. I am a die hard Nickelback fan and they have just released their new Album. Of course I wanted a preview of the Songs. The moment I heard their latest single, "When we stand together" I was completely moved! And when I read the lyrics and saw the video I was nearly in tears! Yes! I was because that song really moved Me! It made Me realize many things. And most importantly it made Me ask Myself the question, 'Do I really care?'

One more depending on a prayerAnd we all look awayPeople pretending everywhereIt's just another day
There's bullets flying through the airAnd they still carry onWe watch it happen over thereAnd then just turn it off
These are some of the lyrics from the song. Are they not true? Yes, I agree, they are very true. Hey, don't take Me Wrong. I am not pointing fingers here and neither playing the blame game. I, Myself, in My previous blog mentioned that I am the Selfish of the year, so I guess you must be thinking I am contradicting My own words. No, this isn't that at all. All I am saying is that after hearing that song, it hit Me. Those thoughts hit Me. And they hit Me hard. I am not telling you to go out there and shout on television or start a rally or do anything out of the ordianry. All I am asking you is to CARE. :-)
Mother Teresa once said, "I am not asking you to do extra-ordianry deeds. All I ask from you is to Care." Mother Teresa changed the world because she Cared because she knew that we, as human beings, have the ability to CARE. That no matter what we go through in Life. The responsibilities, the stress, the tensions and the things in between, we have the ability to CARE. That for just one moment, we can close our eyes and have hope that one day, we all will be united. That one day, we all will be one. We all will be brothers and sisters. That in the end, Love will Conquer Hate. That one day, we all can hold each others hands. That no matter how many wars we fight, Peace will be victorious. That in the end, we all are just Human Beings and we all Bleed the Same Color and all we have is each other. That in the End, we all have the ability to CARE. :-)
They tell us everything's alrightAnd we just go alongHow can we fall asleep at nightWhen something's clearly wrong
When we could feed a starving worldWith what we throw awayBut all we serve are empty wordsThat always taste the same
Recently, we lost Steve Jobs. One of the greatest men in history. I mourned his passing too. But one of My friend's on twitter posted a pic. On one side, it was a picture of Steve Jobs and written below was, "When One Man Dies, The Whole World Cries" And on the other side there was a picture of many children in africa, dying of starvation and below it was written, "But Millions are Dying and No One Cares." That picture made Me realize that I don't wanna be the guy who doesn't care. I wanna be the better version of Myself and for that, all I have to do is care. The reason I am telling you all to care is because to Care is the purest form of Positive Energy. A Selfless Act we all possess. Imagine the power coming from nearly 7 billion people at the same time! Wow! :-)
Before I go, I just wanna say that I am no messenger or anything else. I am just a Human being like all of you. Who bleeds the same color and who breathes the same air. But yes, today I am better than yesterday because I know I can care. I can take out one minute from My day and Care. The same way I know you will also. God made us in his image for a reason. I guess, this was one of those reasons. Love one another for in the end, love will win. And if you can't love, no problem, just CARE. :-)
This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and This is My Story. :-)

Sunday, 6 November 2011

Rise. Above. Hate.

Hello everyone. How are you all? Hope all are well. Today is the last day of the Shooting Spell of TUKKAA FITT here in Goa. Speaking of which, you can follow TUKKAA FITT on twitter. This is the id @tukkaafitt and #TUKKAAFITT as a trending topic. I had a gala time over here! None of us left any stone unturned and from the looks of it, TUKKAA FITT will be a sure entertainer! Fingers crossed. I will be starting My next Film, ENEMY very soon. It will be a trending topic on twitter also very soon at #Enemy and speaking of twitter you can find Me there @mahaakshay and My journal at #mahaakshayjournal :-) And guess what guys? All thanks to you all, LOOT is doing very well! Thank you for the love and appreciation you have given Me and the Film! It really means a lot! Even though the Critics have slammed the Film Left, Right and Centre, it is you guys who have made us all smile by liking the Film! :-) And now, Blog Time! :-)

RISE. ABOVE. HATE. To be honest, until I started writing this Blog, I had no idea what should I write. Writer's Block you can say. But then, I was going through the new items at WWE Shop Zone website and I saw John Cena's new T-Shirt and on that it was Printed, Rise Above Hate! And I saw it and said, WOW! John Cena has always been one of My Role Models. More than his physique and personality, it is his attitude which I salute. Every week when he goes out there and faces the people, he hears, "Let's go Cena! Cena Sucks!" But he never quits! He always keeps fighting because he knows how to Rise Above The Hate! :-)

I remember he once said, "I know there are many people out there who hate Me and many out there who love Me. Well, all those who love Me, I am here with you My Brothers and the ones who hate Me? Well, you can just kiss My ass!" That is attitude! That is courage! That is the power within to accept hate and to make that hatred a power to use for the good! I relate to Cena in many ways because I know there are many out there who hate Me but I also know there are many out there who love Me as well. :-)

This world is a brutal place and no matter even if we don't wanna accept it we all like the ability to control. The power to tell others that they are not good enough and that they have to change in order to fit into society. We all want to dominate and always have the upper hand. I know many who have been caught in this web. They are so affected by what people say that they keep on changing themselves and try to fit in in order to be liked, loved and appreciated. But they forget that this way, they loose their own identities and what remains is just flesh and bone. When they do realize what has become of them, it is too late and life just passes by. I, on the other hand choose not to be like them ...

I am who I am. I love Myself and I adore Myself. Sure, I may not be perfect, sure I may have many flaws, sure I may not be "good enough" for some but I know that when I look Myself in the mirror I am ME. Pure Me. Nothing Fake. No pretensions. Just ME. See history and whoever has not "followed" or "changed" has been condemned and hated. I don't care If I am hated. I will never be something I am not because even before god I have to answer to Myself.

Just like Love, Hatred will always be there. The question is what will you do when you are faced with Hatred? Will you succumb to it or Rise Above It? Just like John Cena hears it every week, even we get to hear our Loves and Hates. The choice will always be yours. I choose to rise above hate because only the ones who have accepted that they are hated and the ones who triumph over it! :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty ... And this is My Story.

Monday, 31 October 2011

LOOT On November The 4th ... Jitters!!!

Hello once again friends. Sorry for the late blog entry. I am right now in Goa Shooting for TUKKAA FITT and I must say that I am having a jolly good time doing so! I was supposed to submit My Blog last night as always but the Entire Cast and Crew had gone out for Dinner. They were having Crabs while I was on Chicken Tikka. Trust Me, I don't mind. These small sacrifices are very important in Our Line of Work. My Co-Star, Vaishali Desai is a complete Sweetheart and now, we have become very good friends. She is looking stunning in the Film and she is someone to watch out for! And F1 has finally arrived in India and that also with a Bang! It is surely something to be proud off! :-)

And now Blog Time! Yes. For the record I am dedicating this blog to my Film, LOOT which Releases on the 4th of November everywhere. I have mentioned about LOOT in some of My previous Blogs and now I think it is time I take full potential of My Blog and spread the word as much as I can to you guys. In today's world, Publicity is way more important than making a Film because there are so many Movies coming out every friday and it is our job to make the Audience come to Our Film than to go and see other Films. As they say, it is a Dog Eat Dog World and only the Strong Survive. Well, in our case, who do publicity create awareness. :-)

I really had a great time Shooting for LOOT and even though it was a year before HAUNTED I enjoyed every bit being on the Sets. Suniel Anna gave Me a chance when I had no one backing Me and He was a real father figure for Me on the Sets! Of course, he used to pull My leg the most but the love he showered on Me was heart-warming. I remember, we use to Workout everyday together and Suniel Shetty, the Producer of the Film, who had 10,000 things to do, Suniel Shetty, the Actor who needed His Rest, Suniel Shetty, the Family Fan, who wanted to spend time with His Family made sure that I do My 45mins of Running and 45mins of Weight Training, every single day! Hats off to Anna and yes, after My Dad, My Role Model is SUNIEL SHETTY! :-)

All the other Actors, including the awesome Govinda Sir and Javed Jaffery Sir were very kind and humble towards Me. I remember during the first few days of Shooting I was so nervous sharing the same Screen Space with these Great Actors! I used to Stammer! But as the days passed, we all started jellying very well and I must say that one of the Highlights of the Film is the Chemistry we 4 share. My Leading Lady, Shweta Bharadwaaj was very chilled out with Me as well. I used to call her, 'The Hottest Dude' because she was looking very hot in the Film but she was very bindass of-camera. It was a pleasure Working with her and yes, a point to be noted, the Rumors of Me and Shweta and completely False. We are only Good Friends and will remain to be so. :-)

The reason I wrote 'jitters' in the topic is because I am truly having jitters thinking about the release of LOOT! I am very nervous and at times like these, I try My best not to think about the Friday when My Film will release. I know every Actor goes through that 'Friday Fever'. I have seen My Dad going through it all His Life. One side, it is pure Fear and insecurity and on the other, it is a pure rush of pumped up energy running through your veins non-stop! :-)

Critics will review the Film. Some will like it, some will love it, some will hate it, some will trash it. Well, that is their job. But for Me, I think the Audience is the main judge. They make you or they break you. Of course, that is not in My hands. But I do hope that you all like the Film because LOOT is a complete Entertainer! The Film has got a U/A Certificate which means you can take your Family along with you! I am saying that because the more people go for Our Film, the more better opening we get! :-)

I am writing this Blog from the Sets of TUKKAA FITT and I know I will be called for My Shot soon. But before I go, I must say that I am a Public Servant and I have tried to do My best in LOOT and so have everyone else. We go through the things we go through because we love it. The pros and cons are a part of the package. I only hope that you accept Me as one of your own and give Me the same love you gave Me in HAUNTED. I love the Movie Business and I always wanna entertain you guys. So this is Me, going for My Shot, waiting for the 4th of November and eagerly waiting to be loved by ALL of you once again. Fingers Crossed!!! :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is, My Story. 

Sunday, 23 October 2011

Hope, Faith, Happiness And Thank You ...

Hi guys. How are you all? Thank you once again for the lovely response for My previous blog1 It really means a lot and you guys inspire Me to write more! Before we begin the Blog we will do the 'Weekly Round-Up'. I am promoting My Film LOOT here and there and everywhere and whoever are watching the promos are liking them. Touchwood. The Film Releases on the 4th of November. Please do go and watch it. :-) I won't be in Mumbai on the day of it's release. I will probably be in Goa, Shooting for TUKKAA FITT. And Gadafi finally sleeps with the fishes. How about that? An end to another Dictator. Libya is in joy! And I read on the news that Obama will finally call the Troops back Home from Iraq after more than a Decade. The War will finally be over there! Thank god for that! And yes, My Dad's Show, DADAGIRI has now started on Zee Bangla every Thu, Fri and Sat 09:30pm. So do try to catch that as well. :-) And before I forget, I wanna wish you all a very Happy Diwali! Don't Spread the Pollution, Spread the Happiness! And now, we go to the Blog ... :-)

Hope, Fath, Happiness and Thank You. These are surely the 4 things that we all have in common. The reason I took them as a Subject because I know how they have impacted My Life and I hope that after reading this Blog they impact your life too! :-) In one of My previous Blogs I did mention Happiness and that we do each and everything for Happiness. I still stick to that fact. But you know what? Happiness has 3 friends too. And without those three friends, happiness is empty too.

HOPE. I think it is one of the greatest gifts given to us from the heavens. Hope. Can you imagine how one 4 letter word can change the world? As I mentioned earlier about the troops going back Home, don't you feel that hope that one day we all can become one and stop the fight? Trust Me, if there is something great in us that is the will to Hope. As I say, I am a Hoper. :-)

FAITH. They say, 'who have hope are bound to have Faith in something' I truly believe in that. You can have your Faith in anything. It can be God, Religion or even Yourself. I write My Diary everyday and in it I always write, "I have Faith on My Fate". We all need a little Faith sometimes. :-)

HAPPINESS. The thing the world revolves around! The struggles we go through. The sacrifices we make. We all do it for Happiness. Whether it is a moment of happiness or a lifetime of it, we endure everything for Happiness. Trust Me, I know. :-)

THANK YOU. I read the Book, THE SECRET and in it it was mentioned that we have to be grateful for the things that we have and the things we are bound to get. You see, the Universe is equal to all and it gives us all everything that we ask for. But all it asks in Return is that one moment of Gratitude. Just to look up in the heavens and say 'thank you'. :-)

I am not here to give you a lesson or to give you a motivational speech but I do wanna share a Story with you. This was at least a year after JIMMY. I was sitting in My Room, alone and suddenly, for no reason I started crying. Of course, no one in My Family knew that but I was looking up to the heavens and asking them, "Why Me? Why have you forsaken Me? Am I really damned? Please answer Me!" Nothing happened at that moment but that night when I slept I had a Dream which changed My Entire Life! I still remember it to this very day! I was near a beautiful lake, alone and then suddenly I see this ray of light and down, from the sky comes an Angel. She asked Me, was I the boy who said he was forsaken? I said yes. Then the angel just smiled and touched My Face and said, "My son, we all love you. We haven't forsaken you. We haven't forgotten you. You are loved by us. We will never leave you. We will always be by your side. But I want to tell you something. Never Loose Hope because we will always give you Hope. Have Faith in us for we will never leave you. Believe in us as we will Always believe in you. And remember, don't search for Happiness. Find it within you." :-)

The next day when I woke up, I was smiling! I was blushing because at that moment I sat down and saw there are so many things I am grateful for! My Family! My Life! My Friends! And I started crying again but this time those were Tears of Joy! You see, I found My 4 Friends. :-)

I know Life can be hard sometimes. Take it from Me, I have been through it. But Life is beautiful too. It is not the big moments that define it. It is the little things. :-) A compliment you received. A song you heard. A present you gave someone. A moment you blushed. Or just that 'Me' time which you made you smile. :-)

Hope my Blog wasn't that long. But before I end the blog, I want to say to all of you, Thank You! Thank you for the happiness you have given Me. I will pray everyday that you all find your 4 friends too. The 4 friends who will always be there for you. Those 4 friends who will always make you the person that you are. We all deserve a Piece of Heaven and remember don't go out there to find your friends, just see within. :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story. :-)

Sunday, 16 October 2011

Living The Straight Edge Life Style ...

Hello once again My friends. Thank you for the lovely comments and appreciation for My last Blog entry. People said that My Blogs are very simple, honest and innocent. Well, I hope I keep that same spirit in all of My Blogs.  Before we go ahead, we will do the weekly round-up. I must first say that My Film LOOT is slated for release on the 4th of November and I request you all to go and watch it as it is a complete masala entertainer. Secondly, I am having a blast on the Sets of TUKKAA FITT! I am working with an amazing crew and the chemistry between Me and Hiten Paintal is working wonders! He is a very funny guy and a superb Actor! And all the thanks goes to My Director Shawn Arranha who is by far the coolest Director I have ever worked with! My Producer, Premal Goragandhi is leaving no stone unturned and is doing a great job as well! And just a while back, I heard that My Buddy, Celina Jaitley is expecting twins! I congratulate her with all of My heart! She deserves all the happiness in the world! And before I started writing this, I deactivated My Account on Facebook, Tumblr and Flickr. I am now only on Twitter. You must be wondering why? Well, there will be one blog for that explanation as well. And now, let us begin the Blog ... :-)

Living the straight edge life style. You must be wondering what that means. Before I say that, I must tell you what Straight Edge means. It means living a life without any addictions such as Drinking, Smoking, Drugs, Gambling, Late Nights or any other kind of abuse or addiction. Before I go ahead, I must say that I am not writing this blog to prove that I am better than anyone. No. I am dedicating this Blog to the Straight Edge Life Style because it is the best way to live your life and I hope that everyone lives the Straight Edge Life Style! :-)

I am not much of an out going person. When I am Shooting I am only on the Sets and then either in the Gym learning MMA or at Home. I hardly go out but if I do, I am always asked, 'what will you drink?' And whenever I say, 'I am sorry, I don't drink', people give this expression of shock, surprise and disbelief! They don't expect a guy from the Film Fraternity NOT to drink! They ask Me, 'you never touched a drink in your entire life?'. I say, 'NO' because I never had the urge too. Even till today I don't get it why people drink, why people Smoke and do Drugs. The most common answers I get is that they feel 'relaxed' and they 'unwind' whenever they drink. I don't know why you need any substance to do that. I am the kinda of a guy who finds that calmness in Myself by soul searching. By finding the answers I ask the questions too. God has made us in His finest creation! By doing all these things, we are just harming ourselves. Yes, I do agree that we all have our own problems and responsibilities and sometimes life does take a toll on us and we all need that 'ME' Time. But there are other ways. Remember, the Lord won't give us anything we can't handle. He has chosen all of us for a Purpose and all the difficulties we go through only make us Better, not Bitter. :-)

When I was in the States, I had a friend. He was 17 then and I was 18. Of course like every other teenager, we Both were going through our own set of problems. I used to shout and scream and cry but My friend chose the path of Drugs and before you know it, he became an Addict. His Mom and Dad were both working parents, so they couldn't pay attention to him. I tried to help him by being there for him but before I knew it, it was too late for him and after a year, I get a call from his Mom telling Me that My friend died due to Overdose of Drugs! Can you believe that? He was only 18! 18 dammit! And that was only the start. His Mom went into a deep depression and after a year, she committed suicide! I swear on My life I am not making this up. This really happened! So you see, it is not only the addict who suffers, it is also the people who are attached to the addict who have the after shocks!

This same way I even lost My uncle. He died because his Liver gave up for all the Alcohol he drank! He was there when I was born but he couldn't see me growing up! I so wish I had seen him because before he turned into an alcoholic people said he was a Rockstar! I am not giving these examples to scare you. I am just telling you what happens when you do all these things and trust Me, it happens with that 'first try' or that 'one sip or drag won't harm Me'. I have many friends who tell Me, that in this life, we should try everything once. Well, that is how they see Life. I don't. I don't mind being singled out. I don't mind not being invited by Friends. I don't mind not living the life what others live. I have seen what happens to people when they get these addictions. I will never be that guy. I have My Family who trust Me, who believe in Me. I have the Fans out there who expect Me the best version of Myself. I have many people depending on Me. That is why I choose the straight edge life style. I say again, I can't stop you from living your life but I request you to sit down and think once. Just once to see yourself without those harmful addictions. To see yourself as a person who is stronger. :-)

Trust Me, living the Straight Edge Life Style isn't easy. There are always consequences. There are always sacrifices you have to make it. But today, I am proud of it all! As CM Punk says, 'I am proud to be a member of the Straight Edge Society'. We all have the will in us. The will to become Stronger. To become the better versions of Ourselves. To live healthy and fulfilling lives! We all our own Heroes and only WE can save ourselves. Remember, god helps those who help themselves. I know I am not perfect but I know I am stronger than yesterday. And tomorrow I will be stronger than today. Not because I run away from addictions but because I have the Will to look at them in the eye and say No. :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story.

Tuesday, 11 October 2011

Selfish Of The Year ...

Hello once again readers. Hope you all are well. As as always, thank you for reading My Blog and giving it ratings. I got one hate comment but hey, it is part of the package. All comments are appreciated. Before we go in the blog it is time for the weekly round-up. This week was very interesting and fun too. I had two story narrations from which one I really loved and would love to do! So let's see. I, for the very 1st time was invited to Lakme Fashion Week and the feeling was amazing! I always wanted to go there. I was invited to the Nishka Lulla Show and I must say, I was very impressed with her designs. She will surely make her parents proud and that young lady is going places! I also went to the Archana Kochar show where I was surrounded by Ms.India's both, past and present and trust Me, being the only guy there made Me feel awesome! :-) I will also be judging an Event in Pune. But about that in My next blog. But before I start I must say the 'Star' of the week is Anna as he is everywhere. It takes one man to start a revolution and I hope he succeeds in his mission. All who want to make India better are truly the real heroes! :-)

So now we begin. :-)
Selfish Of The year. Well, if there was any Award like that, My name would had surely been written on it. You may think, 'arey, yeh ladka kuch zyaada nahi bol raha hai?' Well, I think I owe it to My readers to be as honest as I can. As they say, 'Honesty is the best policy'. I wanna be truthful. I wanna be clear. Clear as crystal. Well, at least try to be. I have lied so many times in the past. Trust Me, I know. Some times for My own benefit and sometimes just for the heck of it. But trust Me, those lies come and bite you in the ass if you don't find your redemption. This is somehow My redemption. My telling you all who and what I truly am. I am selfish and yes, I have the balls to say it. I think we all are. We just don't accept it. I do. Before I used to be all nice and sweet to everyone and show this face which everyone thought was like a jewel but later on I realized that this place is not for the innocent. You wanna go somewhere, you got to let the selfish out. Show the people your true face. Tell them who you truly are. They may dis like you and never talk to you again but at least your conscious is clear. Trust Me, I have met so many people and now, at the very 1st minute of the conversation I tell them, 'Listen, I am here for my own selfish motive, so I am going to be the true Me and show you the good and bad of Me. After this meeting it is completely your choice to be friends or not and I will respect your decision.' And guess what? People actually like that! You should try it some time. :-)

There is nothing wrong in being selfish. Agree or not, we do everything being selfish. We see what is our benefit. We meet the right people because 'we' like their company. We live in the right place because it makes 'us' comfortable. We buy the right things because they make 'our' living better. We even fall in love the right way because 'we' want to feel loved and complete. You see, this is how the world goes. I am not here to lecture and tell you what you should do but through experience I can tell you, the sooner you realize that you are as selfish as the person beside you, you will become free and only then will you become truly selfless! :-)

I remember, I really Liked this girl and I thought she was the one. So I did everything what guys do. I wrote her letters, bought her presents etc etc. I thought I was being the kindest and most selfless soul on the planet because I was doing everything for her. But I later realized that I did all those things for Me because 'I' wanted this girl to like 'Me' because 'I' wanted the love. Of course, she said NO because she liked someone else, {I realized that later} but I wasn't in loss because it was then when I got this self-realization. So you see, everything happens for a reason. After that day, I promised Myself that I will always be selfish and not be scared to be selfish. Sure, most of the times people find you weird and they don't wanna be friends. They may even find you rude and never see you again. But trust Me, in the long run, it pays off. They say na, 'Better hate Me for what I am than love Me for what I am not.' It takes courage to admit to yourself and to others that you are selfish but in this dog eat dog world, one has to be selfish to succeed. Here, Only the strong survive. And all those who are strong are selfish people because they never let their emotions affect their judgement. I have done that so many times, just blocked My emotions because sometimes, to succeed, that is the right thing to do. Just think of yourself and see what is your gain in the situation. 

In My field, there are so many times we Actors have to say NO to Movie scripts and proposals because they don't suit our need. Selfishness is required here, otherwise people won't take you seriously. You gotto look at them in the eyes and show them your true self. In the end the choice will always be yours. Be all sweet and nice and just be among the crowd. Or be Selfish and take full advantage of the situation and achieve what you want too.
They say na, 'Before you say No, say I will try.' you never know, maybe being selfish will be the best thing that you would do for your life. I know it has for Me. :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story. :-)

Sunday, 9 October 2011

So This Is What Bliss Feels Like ...

Hey guys. I usually do a Blog entry once every week and I am sorry for the delay. I was really caught up in a lot of Work and in this Blog, I will tell you all about it. But first, let us do the weekly round up. First, My deepest affection goes to Chi-Chi Bhaiya {Govinda Sir} for the loss of his Sister. May her soul rest in peace. Secondly, on Twitter, you guys should follow 'Breaking News' because it gives you the latest news as it happens. Trust Me, it has been very helpful for Me. Even when I am shooting, I am coming to know what all is happening out there in the world. And now, the Blog begins ...

Bliss. What does it mean? How does it feel? I think we all wanna know, while some us have already known how it feels. They say bliss is the ultimate form of happiness. And I am here to tell you, that yes, that is true. Bliss is pure joy. Bliss is Sunshine. Bliss is Peace. Bliss is Happiness in it's purest form and recently, I felt it. :-)

I guess you all know how I have come here so I think a flashback is not necessary but back in the day, when I was jobless, I had many dreams. Dreams, today, which have become a reality. One of them was that I work 24/7 and only keep on Working. Whether it is Shooting throughout the day, or dubbing in the night, or going to Movie Premieres, I always wanted to Work, so on the 1st day of Shooting of My New Film TUKKAA FITT I was getting ready for My Shoot and suddenly I get a call from a Friend telling Me, 'Bro, did you see the Paper? See it, you will be surprised.' And to My astonishment, I saw the 1st Look of My Film LOOT {the film releases everywhere on the 4th of november} as a large cover spread in the paper. I was so happy and thrilled! It was a total surprise Me! :-)

I kept on blushing all the way to the Shoot! It was a Double happy day for Me but I didn't know I was about to get a third surprise. I was in talks with this very talented and successful Director {I am not giving out the name now. In time I will.} for his next project and when I was halfway through the Shooting on Day One of TUKKAA FITT I get a call from that Director inviting Me for his Film's Premiere that very night! The moment that call came I remembered that dream of Mine! I was almost in tears in that moment because after 3 years of anguish and struggle, finally, FINALLY that Dream of Mine came true! :-) Of course I went to the Premiere and I got a lot of Love and Respect from the Media and also the Fans. :-) It was BLISS for Me. Truly. Just standing there made Me feel like I was in heaven. Even today, when I think of that day, I smile and thank the Universe for it! :-)

But the Universe had a lot of more BLISS in stored for Me ... :-)

This was on the 4th day of Shooting of TUKKAA FITT. I was going to the Shoot and I just called Rajnish Thakur, the Director of LOOT to ask the progress of the promotion of LOOT And he told Me that on the next day, He Suniel Anna and Javed Bhai are going to Indore to Promote LOOT. I said, I wanna join in too but all depends on My Shoot And to My Fortune, I had an Off the next day from Shoot And I was all set to go to Indore. But My Dress Designer asked Me, 'Bro, you Shooting all night and then tomorrow early morning is your flight. Are you sure you wanna go?' I told him, hell yes bro because you know how long, HOW FREAKIN' LONG I have waited for this day that I am Shooting for One Film and Promoting the Other! He had this smile on His face because he knew from where I was coming from. I called Mom in the night and told her the same thing, 'Mom, I am in Bliss because I am living My Dream!' :-)

I shot all night and was on the flight to indore the next morning. We went and Promoted LOOT the best way possible all thanks to Viacom 18, who are releasing the Film in a grand scale. Trust Me, sharing the Same Areoplane, the Same Car, the same Room with Superstars like Suniel Anna and Javed Bhai was a Dream come true for Me! I was there, I know how it felt! And I must tell you, the Fan following they have is Tremendous! I could hear Fans screaming from Miles! :-)

I really hope I didn't bore you guys with My Stories but the reason I told you about them is because I know we all have our moments of Bliss. These were Mine and I know, there are many more in stored for Me. Happiness is more blissful when it is shared. That is what I did with this Blog. :-)
I hope I brought  SMILE on your faces or even that hope, That hope that is in us to believe in the beauty of our dreams. Trust Me My friends, Dreams do come true! All we have to do is Believe and never stop believing. :-)
I pray and wish that all of your dreams also come true and you feel what bliss feels like because no matter however and wherever we are, we all deserve a little piece of heaven. :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and This is My Story ... :-)

Sunday, 25 September 2011

4 Wins 3 Draws 0 Losses ...

Hey guys, how are you all? I am well. It has been a while. Well, I have been tweeting a lot but I guess the time has come that I blog too. But before I go on the topic let us first go through the 'Events'. Firstly, I just took a trip down south to all The Monarch properties and we now have 2 Schools. The Little Monarchians is our latest Pre-School in the heart of Coimbatore. You can go to for more details. Also, I shot a Promotional Song for My Film, LOOT which comes out in November. The Film is a laugh riot and I hope you all enjoy watching it as I had fun Shooting for it. I had the honor of Working with Superstars like Suniel Shetty, Govinda and Javed Jaffery. Also, I am starting Shooting for My next Film, TUKKAA FITT very soon, so I am super excited about it also. But before I go on, I send My condolences to the Khan and Kapoor Family for their loss. As both, Pataudi Sir and Surinder Sir will surely be missed. May their souls rest in peace.

Now, we begin ... Uhmm, you must be thinking what is a score card doing as a Blog Topic? Well, the reason is because I had a fight on Sunday. Yes! My 1st MMA Fight! And I had 4 Wins, 3 Draws and 0 Losses and I am going to tell you all about it! :-)
Trust Me guys, it was an amazing experience! Actually, I was only facing only one opponent. But he tapped out in the first 90 seconds of the match, so My MMA India Chief, Somesh Kamra decided that I fight again. And the result for the 2nd Match was also the same as it was resulted in a Technical Knockout, 2mins in the Fight. Ofcourse, TKO and Tap Out are all technical MMA Words but all I can say, Fighting that Day opened My eyes to a New Truth. As they say, 'The Truth Sets You Free' and trust Me, it did. :-)

It made Me realize that all the great pleasures in life and even life's true happiness are only enjoyed when you fight for them! When you are willing to fight and face your fears. When you have the guts to go beyond your own capabilities. When you know that 'this is it!' When pain does nothing to you and winning is the only thing that matters. :-)
Of course, I am not telling you to get into fights and prove to yourself how strong you are. After the match, I had a bleeding lip, a sprained left ankle and also a wound on the face. And the aftermath pain was unbearable! So only the insane get into fights! :-)
But I guess we all are fighting. Are we not? I see people and I notice that we all have one thing in common, we all are fighting for something or the other. I guess, we all have something to fight for. Something to hope for. Something to believe in. And I encourage all of you to keep fighting because if you believe in your fight, then I promise you, you will win it! One day or the other, after all the struggle, after all the sacrifice, after all the blood, sweat and tears, you will win because you know in your heart that, that thing, that you are fighting for, is really worth it! :-)

Sure, it is tough. I know that first hand. But remember, it is only tough, NOT impossible! They say na, 'It is always darkest before dawn' So don't give up my friends. Never give up. Hrithik Roshan once said, "At the end of the tunnel is the light ... at the end of the battle is the victory!" And look where he is today! He is one of the greatest superstars in the country today because just like you and Me, he was fighting for something he believed in and he never gave up! :-)

I recollect the thoughts of those Fights and I remember, that I was the kid no one believed in also. I was the outcast. I was in the 'Hate List' of many people. People who still don't want Me to succeed and be here. But I always believed in Myself, for I knew that there is a power in Me which will give the courage to fight back! And I did and here I am today as a 'somebody'. So whenever you feel that you can't go any further, remember why you are fighting! :-) So let life give you the obstacles, you find the way to victory! Let Faith test you, you find the hope! Let the almighty put you through adversity, you believe in yourself! Put on gloves and say I am ready for the fight. Take the hits but keep standing. Let pain engulf you but you embrace it. Remember, all dreams are worth fighting for! So believe, always and forever believe because one day even you will have a scorecard which will have more Wins than Losses. :-)

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My Story ...