Wednesday, 22 May 2013

What's The Difference ...

                             Enemmy In Cinemas June 21st.
Twitter: @EnemmyTheMovie

Life is neither good or evil, but only a place for good and evil.
Choices. I think everything in life begins with the choices that we make and we all always hold the power to the outcome. How we react to certain situations. I may be not a saint or a philosopher but I think life has shown me plenty of examples to make me believe that I alone hold the outcome to every given situation presented in front of me. I have turned good things bad and bad things good because of the choices that I have made and even right now, at this very given moment, it has been my choice to write this blog. There are a billion things going on in my life. And every second I am going through a thousand emotions at once. I am Marketing and Promoting Enemmy. I am dubbing for my next venture Halkat. I am making sure all our properties down south are doing great plus I am learning what it feels to be second in charge of the Chakraborty Clan. At testing times like these I am getting a lot of support from the people who love me and a lot of hate from the people who continue to hate me. So, I ask myself, at times like these do I retaliate or do I keep quiet? I choose to be quiet because today at the brink of Enemmy's release I ask myself, if I hate back my haters, what will be the difference? Indeed, What Will Be The Difference ... ???

All human beings are commingled out of good and evil.
If you read my blogs from the start, you will notice that I have always had a lot of anger in me. And in every blog, I have always reflected that anger to the world. But as life progressed and things began to change for me, I started to realise that there is still good in me. And now I choose to blossom the good in me rather than to exploit the evil that lurks in the darkness of my soul. I have seen people change. From bad, they have become good. From good to have turned bitter. All of them have always told me to change but none of them have changed. For their own insecurities they have been bitter, they have been nasty and selfish and somehow for them I have always ended being the bad guy. I admit and will admit again that I have lied in the past. And I have enjoyed doing so. But now, I have the balls to tell the truth. I tell everyone I meet that I am not The Knight In Shining Armour. That I am not the right guy to be a friend or lover. That I shouldn't be dependant on. That I am very selfish because My 1st Priority is My Career than My leisure time. But no matter how many Truths I tell the world, they still want me to mould according to their ways. Some say it openly. Some talk behind my back and some just go away by being harsh or rude, even though they know my story and my truths. I gotto be honest to you, it hurts like hell but as I said, at times like these, I now choose to be good. And whenever I am confronted by my own evil and anger, I always calm down and ask myself, Mimoh, What Will Be The Difference between you and them ...
The function of wisdom is to discriminate between good and evil.
All my life till a moment not so while ago, all I wanted to do was to impress people. I wanted everyones love and appreciation and somehow I had completely convinced myself that, that would had been a possibility. But now I think otherwise because I think, I have learnt the oldest lesson in the book and that is that I can't Impress Everyone. There will always be people who will hate me no matter what I do and there will be people who will love no matter how many a times I screw up. I know I have reached that juncture of my life where I just don't care anymore. I mean how can I control the world gossiping? How can i control other peoples emotions? How can I change what people think of me? I am not god so clearly those powers are beyond my hands. All I can do is choose to ignore those distractions and focus on the life that has been presented to me. It used to affect me a lot before and back then, the more I retaliated the more it used to affect me but now I have realised that people will always be people and they will come in all shapes and sizes with their own unique, weird and crazy behavioural attributes. All I can do is wish them well, even if they don't wish well for me. To be honest I am tired of being tagged as the bad guy. So you can say that the good in me finally has gotten his wake up call and has started to take control. So today no matter how much hate I get and no matter how much the world mis understands Me, I stand tall because I know I chose the good and that is what makes me different than those who choose the opposite ...

The battleline between good and evil runs through the heart of every man.
Back in the day, my favourite tv show was Angel. It was based on this Vampire who was cursed with a Soul and who had to feel eternal torment of the sins he had done when he had no soul. But even he was cursed and felt the horrors of his past, he had a choice to give into his darkness and go all bad-ass again. But no matter how difficult it was for him, no matter how much the horrors of his past haunted him, he didn't give in to his darkness. He chose to be good and he chose to find redemption for his sins. I connect a lot with Angel. I see myself as him. As a man who has wronged many but who now chooses to redeem his soul, well, whatever is left of it. I choose to be a man to go on the path of good and try my best not to hurt others as much as I can, even though, the world keeps pushing my buttons and keeps on testing me. I tell myself, I won't break. I won't go dark. Just like Sylvester Stallone's Character in the Film Lock Up, who doesn't break no matter the hell that he goes through in the film. I will focus in the good in me. As My Buddy Bhushan always says, "Bhai, You Are An Angel. You Just Deliberately Cut Off Your Wings." Well, that is very sweet of him. I don't consider myself an angel but I do consider myself to be the better version of myself and through these trying times, I continuously tell myself, That Yes, I Can Be Better ... I Can Be Better Because I Choose Too ...

I like to see the difference between good and evil as kind of like the foul line at a baseball game. It's very thin, it's made of something very flimsy like lime, and if you cross it, it really starts to blur where fair becomes foul and foul becomes fair.
I can go and on and on but then again, if I start writing a confession of how good I have become, I won't be able to differentiate between me and the people who think that they are ever wrong. So I am going to stop the buck here and tell you that not ALL can be impressed. Not ALL will love you and not ALL will hate you. You just gotto find your little place in this beautiful world. I am on that journey myself. I know writing this blog won't change your outlook towards me. But I hope it gives you a sense of direction for your own life. We can't control what Fate has stored for us. We can only control it's outcomes. And trust me, facing adversities with a smile than bitching about it makes you fell a hell of a lot better! You just gotto do what you gotto do and leave the rest to the Universe. I am trying to do that everyday. I stay away from people who gossip about others. I now read more books than try to go out and socialise because I have realised that my little world is more nicer than the world with those freaks who will never understand. I try to focus on the good and choose to fight my demons than give in to them. I have a war to fight and this time I need all the positivity I can get. I have my entire life in front of me and I know I control the outcome. At the end of each and everyday I will have a choice. And I have promised myself to seek the good in me and whenever the Bad in me will try to cloud my judgement, I know I will close my eyes, hear the beats of my heart and ask myself, "What Will Be The Difference Between You And Them ..." The question is, Will You?

The power of choosing good and evil is within the reach of all.
This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty And I Today I Know The Difference Between Good And Evil.
With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Tuesday, 7 May 2013

Alternate Realities ...

"I Have A Dream. And In That Dream I Never Stop."

- Mahaakshay Chakraborty

Hello my fellow bloggers. Sorry haven't been on time. In fact, nowadays, for a while now I haven't been a regular blogger. I can't have any excuse for that. But I ask myself, what is the point of blogging? I don't know who reads it, who doesn't. Before, when I started blogging, it was all about reaching out there and telling people that I exist but now, when I think of it, does it really matter? I don't know. The maximum I do now is tweet about my new blogger entry. That also sometimes, if I am up to it. People man! Ya! I have been living with them for the last 28 years and I still haven't figured them out. It is because of people I get these mood swings. And it is these people who push me to the brink of insanity. The ones who care and the ones who hate. Everyone reacts to emotions in different ways. Some cry, some drink or eat or just become quiet. Me, on the other hand, after a long process of wait has learnt the technique of slipping into my alternate realities. What are alternate realities? Well, you are just about to find out.

What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality.
I think I have reached a point in my life where I have just stopped caring. I mean, at first it did affect me how people treated me and whether or not I was important for them or not but now, it doesn't matter. It really doesn't matter. I know I do the things I do because I care. Sure, they may not be the popular thing to do but I know they are the right thing to do. I don't mind being tagged as the 'villain' or 'the bad guy' or even the 'devil' as some project me to be. One day, very far down the line, when I am gone, they will say I was right. And trust me that is what will matter. But right now, I know I have my alternate realities. It is very difficult to cope up with the remarks and advices and opinions of others when clearly you don't see them coming. Call me a kid, immature or even worthless but I am glad I have my alternate realities as my escape route 'cause whenever I go there I at at peace and to be honest, I never want to come back from them. I recently saw Oblivion. I loved that film. I thought how cool it would be to be that guy you know. In a post apocalyptic earth. The only guy alive. I wish I was alone sometimes. All by myself. That would be one cool alternate reality you know. You may think I will go crazy and shoot myself in the head after a while but trust me, the shit I deal with everyday being alone feels like paradise.

Reality is wrong. Dreams are for real.
As you know that I am a video game addict and video games have always helped me to drift to other realities. And as I play First Person Shooter games a lot, it is very easy to connect to those worlds. I have always loved to be a soldier, fighting the good fight, {I think I have mentioned that a thousand times already} but games like Battlefield and Call Of Duty really help me make that alternate reality some what true. Gears Of War has also always been a pleasure. I know I am taking the 'Good' path of life but to be honest there was a certain dark joy in me that came alive when I chainsawed those bad-ass ugly scrubs. And recently I got this new game called Sniper Ghost Warrior 2. Even though Ign gave it only 5 stars on 10, the idea of being a sniper behind enemy lines completely fascinates me! That is why I keep on telling that I have a dream and in that dream I never stop. I never stop fighting. I never stop the war because for me, fighting a fight is more peaceful than dealing with the reality I face everyday. To be honest, war is my escapism and I am a kid on his birthday when I am imagine myself in a war-alternate-reality.
Whatever affects one directly, affects all indirectly. I can never be what I ought to be until you are what you ought to be. This is the interrelated structure of reality.
You all also know that I am a hardcore Mma Addict. I have been learning Mma for the last 2 1/2 years now and trust me, it just keeps getting better and better. I have seen so many guys come and try Mma but only after the 1st session, they have gone towards the locker and never returned. I on the other hand, have seen so many new faces but only one constant. My own. Like for today example, I went to the gym all by myself and trained for an hour. There was no trainer. There was no buddy. It was just me, with my music and my sweat. And every minute of that was worth it for I know I invested all that time and energy to a cause worth going through the pain. And believe it or not, no matter whatever I am going through at any given day, when I enter that Mma Class room, all my worries disappear. Like they never even existed. I have this alternate reality where my parents send me to america, all alone for 6 months because I convince them that I wanna learn Mma. They rent a studio apartment for me and I join the Ufc Gym and there I train day and night and in the hours between I work in restaurants to earn my minimum wages. Imagine, day in and day out, I just train. I train and I never stop.
The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask.
No, I am not in a foul mode nor am I upset. I am just having a reality check. {Ha ha! Chuckles} Truth be told, this is who I am. In fact, in all of these movies and video games and sports, I find myself and that makes me feel very happy because I know that there is more to me than the reality that I am living everyday. There is a lot of untouched potential in me just waiting to burst out. And maybe that is why I guess these alternate realities exist in the first place. I know one day I will get a chance to live those alternate realities too. I just know it in my gut that my calling for greatness will one day come to me. But until then, I will fight in the reality that I live because that is what I have done. I have nothing to be ashamed about or feel guilty about. I have done good and bad. And I have made my peace wit god and with the ones whom I have wronged. {Well, to be honest not with all of them because some of them I really hate and will hate until I die} And for those who believe in the good in me, thank you and for those who will always think I am the bad guy, well, you can just kiss my ass. :-)
Words have no power to impress the mind without the exquisite horror of their reality.
This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and these are My Alternate Realities.
With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

Wednesday, 1 May 2013

The Wish List ...

The Greatest Triumph For A Son, Is For His Father To Be Proud Of Him.

- Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

I remember like it was yesterday. But to be honest, it was 14 years ago. When I first started training an dieting and made my mind focus to a cause. I remember all that I have gone through to come this far for all those moments have made me who I am today. The cheers, the joys, the pain and the sorrows. But today, sitting here and writing this blog, I can tell you it all has been worth it. And do you know why? It is because of the success of Rocky. People who love and care for me have been asking me what are the reports of Rocky. And I have been ignoring to tell them. Not because I am superstitious or anything but because I like to keep it low key. But I guess it is high time that I tell you that Rocky has hit the bull's eye. It has been declared a hit and the icing on the cake is that the people have accepted me too. All those who have seen Rocky are informing My Parents that the crowd is going berserk and whistling and clapping whenever I come on screen! None of us thought that I would get so much of love and appreciation by the masses. I still can't accept it that this is happening to me. But you know what makes this is all a thousand times better? The happiness I see in my parents eyes. The joy they have, that our son is being loved by all. I was with My Dad on friday when the film released and one of his friends called up and told him that I did a great job and father was in tears. He was so happy and over joyed that he couldn't control his tears. That moment, above anything else in the world was the happiest moment of my life! For the last 14 years it has been my most important goal to make my Dad proud of me and something tells me that I did just that. And I believe happiness and all good things in life should be shared. So here I am doing just that. But this time, I won't just tell you incidents, I am going to give you a preview of My Wish List. The List that has always been with me. Since that day, 14 years ago. So ladies and gentlemen this is My Wish List ... :-)

Put your heart, mind, and soul into even your smallest acts. This is the secret of success.
There are like a million things on my wish list. And to be honest I don't know where I want to start from. So I am just gonna say all that I can in a random order. In an interview recently for Rocky I said that I have a Dream and in that Dream I never stop. That is really true because all my life, all that I want to do is work, work and work. Nothing in this world gives me more happiness, pleasure and joy than to work. My work is my drug, it is my addiction and it is my ecstasy. Only a few will understand this but this is how I was built. For me relationships, friendship, socialising and love are all secondary. First is only my work. I wanna work 24/7. And even when my body has been broken I want to go on. Call me cold or ruthless but I can't think of anything else that is more better for me than my Work. I want to be on the sets, I want to dub, I want to Promote, I want to go to Events, shoot for commercials, create awareness, become a symbol, be the one who everyone loves and adores. I want to be a machine. A machine who never stops. If I want to put a No.1 Ranking on My Wish List it will surely be my Work and that until I die I never stop. I. Never. Stop.
The true secret of happiness lies in taking a genuine interest in all the details of daily life.
My family has always been there for me, whenever I needed them and trust me, I am waiting for the day when I start earning money and give my family all the happiness that they have given me. I want to buy My Dad the latest Mercedes one day. I want to My Mom to see the Finals of the Wimbledon every year. I want give Rimoh the best break in films when he turns into an motion picture director. I want to send Namashi to the best of school all around the world where he can learn all the sports and stunts and dance styles and be the best newcomer to enter bollywood. I want My Sister, Dishi to go to Paris and learn Fashion Designing and give her all that she needs in a heart beat. Trust me, the day when I do all these things, which I know I will very soon, I will call myself a true son and brother. My family has given me everything and it will be one of the most joyous moments of my life to see them happy through my efforts. :-)
And now here is my secret, a very simple secret; it is only with the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye.
You all know how much I love movies and how much movies are embodied in the Chakraborty Family. Thanks to My Dad we now have a Production House too. It is called Paparatzy Productions and very soon you will see our 1st venture Enemmy in cinemas everywhere. My Mom is the Producer and I am one of the Creative Heads so for the very first time, I am getting a taste of production and how the beauty of movie magic really works. But while in the midst of all the post-production and marketing strategies I decided that one day I am going to do more than just give ideas. I am also going to produce films and make sure that our banner is one of the big ones out there. And I promise this to you, once a year, I will make a movie with all newcomers. Do you know why? It is because I know how it feels to be a newcomer. A guy who has dreams to make it big and one day when I have the power, I want to make others dreams come true too. I want to give them a chance because everyone deserves a chance. Even if it is the only one they have. :-)

In all chaos there is a cosmos, in all disorder a secret order.
There are many a things that I want to tell you about. Many more things on my wish list. But I guess the ones mentioned here, top the wish list. I have many more dreams. Many more fantasies and many more wishes. I want to travel the world once. All by myself. Just take my passport, my credit card and my back pack and just travel you know. It is one of my dreams to visit every historical site in the world. I want to be the next action hero. I just wanna be like Arnold Schwarzenegger. I want learn almost every form of martial arts that I can. I visualise myself beaten up with cuts, scars and bruises because pain has always made me stronger. I want to be a symbol. I want to one day play a Superhero and one day I want to be The Punisher in a feature length film. I want to do so many more things. My wish list is endless. But most importantly, I want to live free. That good or bad I want to live my life on my own terms and something tells me that very soon I will do that. I am many things but in the end, I want to be Mahaakshay Chakraborty. So folks, today you got a glimpse of My Wish List. I told you things only few knew about. I really felt like sharing them with you. Because I know and I believe that one day a time will come when all of my dreams will come true and all of you will be a part of that happiness. So before I go, I can only ask you one thing, what is YOUR Wish List? :-)
I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do. I am free, no matter what rules surround me. If I find them tolerable, I tolerate them; if I find them too obnoxious, I break them. I am free because I know that I alone am morally responsible for everything I do.
This is Me Mahaakshay Chakraborty And This Is My Wish List.
With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.