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"One day I will rule the world. One day, there will be monuments on my name. I will conquer mountains and steal the hearts of millions. But no matter what I do, I know I will never be able to escape my fate."

-Mahaakshay Chakraborty

Right now I am at the special screenings of #Enemmy. The reason I am using # before Enemmy is because it is the twitter hashtag for all of you to read all the news and related articles of #Enemmy. So please feel free and tweet all that you can about #Enemmy. And yes, the film releases tomorrow. It is only a mere 24hrs away. You may ask me how I am feeling. Well, the only answer I will give you is that I am in a state of numbness. That is how I kept myself composed during Rocky's release too. But underneath this Punisher tshirt and Diesel Jeans and Wax-Used Hair, you will see a man who is coming to terms with his own self. Coming to terms with certain truths of life. And as they say, 'The Truth Shall Set You Free.' And it has. We have 3 screenings today of #Enemmy. One for the press, one for family and friends and one for the people from the industry. Just a day ago, I would really want my close friends and family to be with me during these screenings to lend me support. But today, I am all by myself here. It's not that they can't be here. It is just that I know I have to do this by myself. As I said, "A Man Can Do Many A Things In His Life Span But What He Can't Do Is Escape His Fate" And now, I will tell you why …

Love cannot save you from your own fate.

-Jim Morrison

Throughout my life I have lived by one code. And one code only. That 'Greatness Requires Sacrifice'. That in order to reach the pinnacles of stardom and ultimate supremacy one must be ready to sacrifice anything and everything, even if that means the happiness you receive from others or the comfort that they provide you. But since january, my outlook had kinda changed. I started to believe that life can actually be simple and even a man like me can enjoy the simple pleasures of life. In other words, I started to get soft. But Fate always shows us the way and we all know through experience that Fate is a very strict teacher and it will do whatever is necessary, to show us where we are meant to go and how should we go about it. Lately, circumstances and realisations have brought me back to the place I always belonged. And that is, My Path To Greatness. Today, writing this blog, I only feel peace. I only feel right. I only feel a sense of belonging. I can now say, "I Am Home." Of course, many a people who will read this blog will think I am going Dark again or I am spacing out again. Some may even feel insecure and a certain paranoia. But I am not going dark or sith. I am attuned with my Fate now. And when a man does that, he has nothing to fear … He only has things to embrace.

It is what a man thinks of himself that really determines his fate.

-Henry David Thoreau

I know I have changed now. And I also know that I can't undo what I have down in the past. But just like Kratos in God Of War 3, I finally came to terms with myself and started forgiving myself for the sins I committed. If I wasn't a changed man today, I wouldn't had gone to all the Shrines, Temples and Churches and pleaded to God for forgiveness. I wouldn't have new notions of life which told me to do the right thing more than the popular thing. I know I am not any messiah but I know I am on the path of my own redemption. But in the same time, I am on a journey of self-discovery. God has said in all of his books that "More than seeking the answers outside, seek them within and you shall fine what you are looking for." And that is what I am exactly doing. And the more I ask, the more I receive. Yes, this is a journey. But this is a journey I have to walk alone. But do you know what is more exciting than Fate showing me the way? What is more exhilarating than the fact this is how it was always meant to be? It is The Truth. But do you know what the truth is? The Truth is that for the last 14 years this is how I always wanted it to be! This is how I wanted it to play out. This is how I wrote the story of my life. And now I am glad that it is …

Just because Fate doesn't deal you the right cards, it doesn't mean you should give up. It just means you have to play the cards you get to their maximum potential.

-Les Brown 

Since 2005, I have had one constant in my life. The Punisher. He has been my symbol of strength and courage. He has been my only friend {besides Michael} who has always stood besides me and guided me further. I know, many of y'all won't understand. But I promise one day, I will tell you all about the deep-rooted connection I have with The Punisher. Today, standing in this preview theatre I am wearing the Skull t-shirt {The Punisher's Symbol} not only because I love it so much but also because I am reminding myself of who I truly am. They say, "You become the company that you hang around with." And in this case, I have become like The Punisher or as Fate wants to put it, more like the man who will one day resemble The Punisher's attributes. I have realised and I have come to terms with the fact that I can never go soft. I may not think bad about others or use Hate as my fuel today but I know now that I can never be normal. Fate never planned Normal for me. I was always meant for other things. Things that demand a certain amount of sacrifice. Things that require me to take decisions which will ultimately culminate to me being by myself. So as they say, "You Can't Fight Fate."

What separates the winners from the losers is how a person reacts to each new twist of fate.

-Donald Trump 

I am in the last paragraph of my blog now but that doesn't mean that this story ends here. No, this story has only just begun. I always knew that I was The Lone Wolf. I always knew that My Fate will always show me the way. And today the road is as clear as crystal. Today, there are no doubts or fears. Today, there is only the truth. The Righteous Truth which will take me to where I was meant to go. You know, sometimes we want people to fill that empty frame. Sometimes we want the gaps to get filled but for me, the truth is that, that Picture Frame only belongs to me. Those holes require filling up only by me. This journey demands my walk. A walk with no one to walk with. I don't know what is in stored for me in the future. I don't know what will be the verdict of #Enemmy. All I know is that I have a journey to look forward too. A journey which will make me travel the world and maybe even into space. A journey which will push my limits and take me into the oblivion. A journey which will make me realise that I can be a man of greatness more than love. A journey that will make me numb to emotions and more powerful to face the demons in the closet. A journey that My Fate has bestowed upon me.

To live alone is the fate of all great souls.

-Arthur Schopenhauer

This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty And I Am Exactly Where Fate Wants Me To Be.

With All My Might,

Your No.1 Fan,

Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

"Far From Home. This song is by the band Five Finger Death Punch and it is truly one of the most soulful and touching songs that I have ever heard. It connects with me deeply because I have always felt that I will be the out cast and that I can never be normal. And I will always belong out there. In the wilderness. And no matter how much I seek for forgiveness, heaven's gate will never open for me." - Mahaakshay Chakraborty.