Wednesday, 22 May 2013

What's The Difference ...

                             Enemmy In Cinemas June 21st.
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Life is neither good or evil, but only a place for good and evil.
Choices. I think everything in life begins with the choices that we make and we all always hold the power to the outcome. How we react to certain situations. I may be not a saint or a philosopher but I think life has shown me plenty of examples to make me believe that I alone hold the outcome to every given situation presented in front of me. I have turned good things bad and bad things good because of the choices that I have made and even right now, at this very given moment, it has been my choice to write this blog. There are a billion things going on in my life. And every second I am going through a thousand emotions at once. I am Marketing and Promoting Enemmy. I am dubbing for my next venture Halkat. I am making sure all our properties down south are doing great plus I am learning what it feels to be second in charge of the Chakraborty Clan. At testing times like these I am getting a lot of support from the people who love me and a lot of hate from the people who continue to hate me. So, I ask myself, at times like these do I retaliate or do I keep quiet? I choose to be quiet because today at the brink of Enemmy's release I ask myself, if I hate back my haters, what will be the difference? Indeed, What Will Be The Difference ... ???

All human beings are commingled out of good and evil.
If you read my blogs from the start, you will notice that I have always had a lot of anger in me. And in every blog, I have always reflected that anger to the world. But as life progressed and things began to change for me, I started to realise that there is still good in me. And now I choose to blossom the good in me rather than to exploit the evil that lurks in the darkness of my soul. I have seen people change. From bad, they have become good. From good to have turned bitter. All of them have always told me to change but none of them have changed. For their own insecurities they have been bitter, they have been nasty and selfish and somehow for them I have always ended being the bad guy. I admit and will admit again that I have lied in the past. And I have enjoyed doing so. But now, I have the balls to tell the truth. I tell everyone I meet that I am not The Knight In Shining Armour. That I am not the right guy to be a friend or lover. That I shouldn't be dependant on. That I am very selfish because My 1st Priority is My Career than My leisure time. But no matter how many Truths I tell the world, they still want me to mould according to their ways. Some say it openly. Some talk behind my back and some just go away by being harsh or rude, even though they know my story and my truths. I gotto be honest to you, it hurts like hell but as I said, at times like these, I now choose to be good. And whenever I am confronted by my own evil and anger, I always calm down and ask myself, Mimoh, What Will Be The Difference between you and them ...
The function of wisdom is to discriminate between good and evil.
All my life till a moment not so while ago, all I wanted to do was to impress people. I wanted everyones love and appreciation and somehow I had completely convinced myself that, that would had been a possibility. But now I think otherwise because I think, I have learnt the oldest lesson in the book and that is that I can't Impress Everyone. There will always be people who will hate me no matter what I do and there will be people who will love no matter how many a times I screw up. I know I have reached that juncture of my life where I just don't care anymore. I mean how can I control the world gossiping? How can i control other peoples emotions? How can I change what people think of me? I am not god so clearly those powers are beyond my hands. All I can do is choose to ignore those distractions and focus on the life that has been presented to me. It used to affect me a lot before and back then, the more I retaliated the more it used to affect me but now I have realised that people will always be people and they will come in all shapes and sizes with their own unique, weird and crazy behavioural attributes. All I can do is wish them well, even if they don't wish well for me. To be honest I am tired of being tagged as the bad guy. So you can say that the good in me finally has gotten his wake up call and has started to take control. So today no matter how much hate I get and no matter how much the world mis understands Me, I stand tall because I know I chose the good and that is what makes me different than those who choose the opposite ...

The battleline between good and evil runs through the heart of every man.
Back in the day, my favourite tv show was Angel. It was based on this Vampire who was cursed with a Soul and who had to feel eternal torment of the sins he had done when he had no soul. But even he was cursed and felt the horrors of his past, he had a choice to give into his darkness and go all bad-ass again. But no matter how difficult it was for him, no matter how much the horrors of his past haunted him, he didn't give in to his darkness. He chose to be good and he chose to find redemption for his sins. I connect a lot with Angel. I see myself as him. As a man who has wronged many but who now chooses to redeem his soul, well, whatever is left of it. I choose to be a man to go on the path of good and try my best not to hurt others as much as I can, even though, the world keeps pushing my buttons and keeps on testing me. I tell myself, I won't break. I won't go dark. Just like Sylvester Stallone's Character in the Film Lock Up, who doesn't break no matter the hell that he goes through in the film. I will focus in the good in me. As My Buddy Bhushan always says, "Bhai, You Are An Angel. You Just Deliberately Cut Off Your Wings." Well, that is very sweet of him. I don't consider myself an angel but I do consider myself to be the better version of myself and through these trying times, I continuously tell myself, That Yes, I Can Be Better ... I Can Be Better Because I Choose Too ...

I like to see the difference between good and evil as kind of like the foul line at a baseball game. It's very thin, it's made of something very flimsy like lime, and if you cross it, it really starts to blur where fair becomes foul and foul becomes fair.
I can go and on and on but then again, if I start writing a confession of how good I have become, I won't be able to differentiate between me and the people who think that they are ever wrong. So I am going to stop the buck here and tell you that not ALL can be impressed. Not ALL will love you and not ALL will hate you. You just gotto find your little place in this beautiful world. I am on that journey myself. I know writing this blog won't change your outlook towards me. But I hope it gives you a sense of direction for your own life. We can't control what Fate has stored for us. We can only control it's outcomes. And trust me, facing adversities with a smile than bitching about it makes you fell a hell of a lot better! You just gotto do what you gotto do and leave the rest to the Universe. I am trying to do that everyday. I stay away from people who gossip about others. I now read more books than try to go out and socialise because I have realised that my little world is more nicer than the world with those freaks who will never understand. I try to focus on the good and choose to fight my demons than give in to them. I have a war to fight and this time I need all the positivity I can get. I have my entire life in front of me and I know I control the outcome. At the end of each and everyday I will have a choice. And I have promised myself to seek the good in me and whenever the Bad in me will try to cloud my judgement, I know I will close my eyes, hear the beats of my heart and ask myself, "What Will Be The Difference Between You And Them ..." The question is, Will You?

The power of choosing good and evil is within the reach of all.
This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty And I Today I Know The Difference Between Good And Evil.
With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.

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