Hello once again My friends. I must say in advance that this blog is somewhat a very intense one as I am tapping into something I never did before. So I hope by the end of it I make sense and cross the message. And I saw Aamir khan's Show Satyamev Jayate today and I was completely moved! This is the kind of show our channels need! To cross the message to the one billion citizens of this country so that we can help each other! My Salutes to Aamir Khan and the Show's Creative Team! And before we go ahead I dedicate this week's Shout-Out Feature to All My Fans! Yes, all you out there! Thank you so very much for the love! It is a great Support to have all of you with Me, every step of the way and I thank you all from the bottom of My heart for the unconditional love you give Me everyday! :-) And this week's Song-Of-The-Week is 'Everything's Gonna Be Alright' by Enrique Iglesias. The lyrics are beautiful as they say that no matter where you are and what you are going through, in the end, everything is going to be ok. :-)
And now we begin ...
Recently I visited My house in Coimbatore for My daily trips down south and I decided that I will clean My room as I have a lot of memories attached to it and as I was doing that I stumbled upon all My old diaries and I started reading them, page by page and I was completely amazed by Myself! I mean, I was laughing at Myself, smiling and also happy to relive all those memories. But with all those memories I had one constant shadow lurking. It was the shadow of Darkness, anger and hatred. I never knew that I had so much of Hatred in Me and that also from such an early age! And that really had got Me thinking that I have evolved and changed so much since I wrote those diaries! I have been through so much and learnt so much! And now, I can proudly say that I am on the road in becoming a better human being. But all good always comes from the bad and I will tell you why ...
I have always believed in aggression. In force. In Power, Fear and the plan of Attack. I was the one who believed that Love doesn't exist and Hate will always prevail. I lived by this code so very much that I forgot who I was! I lost My identity and there was a point I couldn't recognize My own reflection! I became so dark and so full of this madness that My own conscious slipped away and in this process I became very selfish and only thought of Myself. I thought that the entire world is selfish and so I should be too! For Me, everyone was the enemy and in time the inevitable happened ... I started hurting the people who truly loved Me! I didn't care for anyone's feelings and emotions! It was only Me, Me and Me! This process was going well. I was getting all that I wanted and I thought what I am doing is right. But then, finally, on one sunny afternoon, in the silence after the chaos, My conscious finally spoke to Me. And after what it told Me, I knew there was no looking back for Me ...
It said, what you are doing is wrong. I said No! This is the way! They don't care and they will leave like they always do! And then it said, look around you. Just look around you and see what you have! And I did just that and all I could do after that was cry! Cry like I never cried before because I didn't see Hate ... I saw Love! Love from My Family who will always be with Me. Love from my friends who will always fight for Me and stand by Me. Love from all of you who take out time to read these blogs! There was love all over and I smiled and felt happiness like I never did! I felt the purity of love and I realized that Love is so powerful! It is unstoppable and it will embrace you, only if you give it a chance. Love can heal all wounds. Love can change you. Love can make everything happen. Love can set you free. And love can make you good from the bad ...
And that is why today I am a changed man. I am in the process of becoming the best version of Myself. My anger has gone. There is no more hate inside of Me. I am learning to forgive and forget. To all those who hate, I am learning to love them for I know each of them is fighting a battle just like Me. For all those love Me, I am making extra efforts to make them feel special. And I wanna make everyone smile. I want people to feel special and cared and appreciated. I want to change the world, one soul at a time. I confess, I have done some terrible things in My existence here on this planet. I have hurt a lot of people. Intentionally and unintentionally. I have done things for which there is no forgiveness and I know that there are people out there who will never forgive Me for that. But I ask you all for Forgiveness. I ask for your Love. I ask for another chance. I ask for Salvation. Maybe, just maybe, I will find redemption in this process ...
So before I go, all I want to say is that there is love in everything and in everyone. All we have to do is find it. I found the Love in Me and now all I want to do is Spread the Love. The question is what are you going to do?
This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My journey towards Forgiveness ...
With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.
And now we begin ...
Recently I visited My house in Coimbatore for My daily trips down south and I decided that I will clean My room as I have a lot of memories attached to it and as I was doing that I stumbled upon all My old diaries and I started reading them, page by page and I was completely amazed by Myself! I mean, I was laughing at Myself, smiling and also happy to relive all those memories. But with all those memories I had one constant shadow lurking. It was the shadow of Darkness, anger and hatred. I never knew that I had so much of Hatred in Me and that also from such an early age! And that really had got Me thinking that I have evolved and changed so much since I wrote those diaries! I have been through so much and learnt so much! And now, I can proudly say that I am on the road in becoming a better human being. But all good always comes from the bad and I will tell you why ...
I have always believed in aggression. In force. In Power, Fear and the plan of Attack. I was the one who believed that Love doesn't exist and Hate will always prevail. I lived by this code so very much that I forgot who I was! I lost My identity and there was a point I couldn't recognize My own reflection! I became so dark and so full of this madness that My own conscious slipped away and in this process I became very selfish and only thought of Myself. I thought that the entire world is selfish and so I should be too! For Me, everyone was the enemy and in time the inevitable happened ... I started hurting the people who truly loved Me! I didn't care for anyone's feelings and emotions! It was only Me, Me and Me! This process was going well. I was getting all that I wanted and I thought what I am doing is right. But then, finally, on one sunny afternoon, in the silence after the chaos, My conscious finally spoke to Me. And after what it told Me, I knew there was no looking back for Me ...
It said, what you are doing is wrong. I said No! This is the way! They don't care and they will leave like they always do! And then it said, look around you. Just look around you and see what you have! And I did just that and all I could do after that was cry! Cry like I never cried before because I didn't see Hate ... I saw Love! Love from My Family who will always be with Me. Love from my friends who will always fight for Me and stand by Me. Love from all of you who take out time to read these blogs! There was love all over and I smiled and felt happiness like I never did! I felt the purity of love and I realized that Love is so powerful! It is unstoppable and it will embrace you, only if you give it a chance. Love can heal all wounds. Love can change you. Love can make everything happen. Love can set you free. And love can make you good from the bad ...
And that is why today I am a changed man. I am in the process of becoming the best version of Myself. My anger has gone. There is no more hate inside of Me. I am learning to forgive and forget. To all those who hate, I am learning to love them for I know each of them is fighting a battle just like Me. For all those love Me, I am making extra efforts to make them feel special. And I wanna make everyone smile. I want people to feel special and cared and appreciated. I want to change the world, one soul at a time. I confess, I have done some terrible things in My existence here on this planet. I have hurt a lot of people. Intentionally and unintentionally. I have done things for which there is no forgiveness and I know that there are people out there who will never forgive Me for that. But I ask you all for Forgiveness. I ask for your Love. I ask for another chance. I ask for Salvation. Maybe, just maybe, I will find redemption in this process ...
So before I go, all I want to say is that there is love in everything and in everyone. All we have to do is find it. I found the Love in Me and now all I want to do is Spread the Love. The question is what are you going to do?
This is Me, Mahaakshay Chakraborty and this is My journey towards Forgiveness ...
With All My Might,
Your No.1 Fan,
Mahaakshay Chakraborty.
Really appreciate your sense of worth :-)
ReplyDeleteI currently think the way that you used to. I have so much anger inside me and all, just the way you described it. Your story and this blog post has made me think, think harder about what Im doing and why.
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